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I am gay and very proud of it. Pay attention here I am Christian and married.

Updated on February 21, 2014

I love nurturing my roses.

My roses cause some pride in me. I must fight pride to remain gay.
My roses cause some pride in me. I must fight pride to remain gay. | Source

Gayness and Love are what I strive for in life.

We use a word quite peculiarly -- gay. And I think it helps me to understand and love gay people. Come along and be gay yet contemplative with me.

I love flowers and I love to skip. I hug all my buddies. And I am moved my other men's sensitivity and caring. There are many men that I would find just fine to live with in the same home. I do live with one. I love men. I do most the housework and am the primary caretaker of our home's little boy.

No I am not bi or homosexual. I am just gay. I have a female wife and mother of my child. And yet each day I am gay. I am over 200 lbs and six foot tall with the face of a boxer who lost more than won. I am a dirty dog fighter. But I am gay.

It is not easy being green.

I sure am glad to be gay but it is hard.

Believe it or not it is not easy being gay. All family members and social friends just plain dispise you and are upset with you when you are gay in the hard times just like the bad times. It is like they want you to suffer to show that you take it seriously, or that you care.

It is crazy how many people talk bad about a gay man.

I was at one of my best friend's memorials. And I was happy and celebrating. We were close his widow once told me that we were as close as he ever got to man, including his awesome son. I took heat during the "party" from my atheist brother and one other folk for being so happy and gay. But shortly there after his widow told me how much she enjoyed me celebrating and being gay about her husband's life. Excuse me, but that was my sister.

Those of us who are gay do not change our stripes. We must be gay and proud of it. There is persecution and prosecution of those of us who are gay.

I do not care. I write on tough issues and I take tough positions. But I am gay in them. And for that I take heat..I just looked down to think about my next paragraph in this piece. And I flexed my hands into fists. And for no good reason I counted and tried to recount the scars. 22 and at least 18 from fighting. I do not take the easy road but I am gay about the journey.

It may be heredity

Sorry but my youngest daughter and youngest son are gay also.
Sorry but my youngest daughter and youngest son are gay also. | Source

Gay is a state of mind and I am not different from other gays.

My gayness is a state of mind I wake up with in the morning. Sorry but I wake up gay 8 out of 10 times. So my good friends who are gay in a sexual attractive way I got to tell you that us that are just plain gay in the mindset of happy face persecution and prosecution just the same and at least you have a cause. Nobody cares what happy carefree and joyous folks face everyday.

We are even beaten and abused and cut down and slapped silly. We are accused of all kinds of causes for governments failing and economy failings and lack of backbones and laughed at by everyone.

This guy was gay just like me!

I just love this guy and he loves me in my gayness. Believe me he loves you in your gayness. Hey I do and this guy is my God.
I just love this guy and he loves me in my gayness. Believe me he loves you in your gayness. Hey I do and this guy is my God. | Source

Christianity and gayness.

Here is the hard part. Many "Christians" tell me that I must be more worried about the souls of those who do not follow what they understand as law.

I am not born under law. I am born under love. Who shall ever harden my heart against others is wrong and condemned. Christians have two simple rules to follow. They are as simple as wipe after you poop. Love God and Love others. That is it. End of Story. Now our ideas of love may vary for I have seen true tough love and I have seen murder in defense of another.

But there is no excuse for not loving someone you see as a sinner. I got no scripture there at all from Jesus. And if you love them, as Paul teaches it is without judgment or piety. You do not get to not love them or pass judgment on them for "holy" reasons. For you are not God but must live under his two commandments of love.


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Green Beret.

Let me be gay and happy. And let it be known that these men preserved my right. Let us honor them and be gay in our freedom and our knowledge that our rights and freedom are not free and that we own them.

My father in law was attached to these men. He was one of my best fiends. And his wife is a daily reminder of what I owe to soldiers to let me be gay.

So we hope by now that we see prejudice as the coward it is.

Let others prosper and let their orientation be free. Let me be crazy and love life. Even if you see evil in all things.

Please let by brothers and sisters do well and love you.

Let it be known what gay is.

I am gay in my love for all mankind. Do not hate me for my love allow yourself to be tested in honor.

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      Eric Dierker 2 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Frank my wife and I had very little time together for several months. Really just ships passing in the night. When we took time together recently I was struck by the roles we play. When we are alone there is no need to be the male or the female. You just are.I am happy to report that we play our roles wonderful and being different we fit together like a hand and glove. I see no reason why any couple cannot perform their relationship roles wonderfully. Again I apologize for not getting back to you sooner.

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      Eric Dierker 2 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Hi Theresa, I am doing some checking up after being on a travel and vacation hiatus. What a marvelous comment you left me and how rude of me not to have responded, my apologies. By now I hope you are deep into a school break of some sort. We are getting rain here in my Southern California desert and it brings out the happies. My boy and I danced and played soccer in the rain it was fantastic.

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      Frank Atanacio 2 years ago from Shelton

      Love your gayness my friend.. Gay means happy to me too.. although I am a tradationalsit.. bow when women walk by, hold the door open for them and be masculine for them.. Growing up with 6 brothers and 1 sister made it easy for me to accept my male role. I adore women because they are the opposite.. and opposite attracts still rings true in my ears.. so your wife is atttracted to you and I bet she is a strong willed person.. bless you and be who you are meant to be.. as for homosexuals or bisexuals.. they have all the rights in the world to be who they are and I'll die protecting their rights too.. great hub.. not at all confusing and I knew where you were going with this

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      Theresa Ast 2 years ago from Atlanta, Georgia

      Good evening Eric. Kathy (above) said "Happiness is infectious." I would like to take that further -- you and your spirit and your attitudes are infectious! And I love it! The world so desperately needs more gay people like you. People who remember and rejoice is the Two Great Commandments. How easily some of us forget or ignore what Jesus said, all the while proclaiming

      our sanctity. Very sad.

      But I am feeling gay, your words filled me with joy and peace. Many, many blessings! The only un-gay thing right now is that I have a pile of 57 papers to grade sitting on the corner of the table. I will persevere... just as "joy cometh in the morning" surely "gay cometh after all the grading." Blessings, blessings, blessings -- on you and yours. :) Theresa

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      Patricia Scott 2 years ago from sunny Florida

      I love this, Eric. Too often people are even reluctant to use the word gay.

      I am like you ..there is too much to be 'gay' over every single day ...than to be Eeyore and live under a dark cloud. Great job

      Voted up++++ and shared

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      Kathy Carr 3 years ago

      Happiness is infectious, it's like a magnet. It will most definitely draw people closer to the God that makes you happy.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Kathy, I just cannot express my gratitude for good folks like you adding and synergistically moving a so so piece of mine to greater heights. If you are looking for love please stop by a calm pool of water, and take a look at who you see as you gaze over it. ps. it drives my wife nuts that I am gay all the time. I have a switch that makes me laugh at me when I am anything less. "If you got Jesus, you got happy"

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      Kathy Carr 3 years ago from Chicago, Illinois

      When I wrote as a youngster, I could easily describe my feelings as giddy and gay. No one would have questioned it. During my last year in high school the word gay was being used for homosexuality. Have times changed. As I have grown older, its like no one wants you to be happy and I find that odd that I cannot laugh and be content with out some looking at me as if to say I'm lying. As much as we hate the sin of homosexuality, those are some beautiful people who I have known some over time. Jesus was love all day long because he was a doer. He confronted you and after being in his presence, you were set from whatever problems you had. Very interesting Hub. Really appreciated.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thank you. It was really the other way around. I tried really hard to view LGBT folk differently but just could not do it. And hey, when you get to be an old man sexuality just plain plays a different role ;-)

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Nadine, we are often torn down by the honesty. It is a horrible feeling. And I think we can grow better by that tear down. I hope so.

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      Nadine May 3 years ago from Cape Town, Western Cape, South Africa

      Great post Eric. It's so great to feel the total honesty that comes from reading your thoughts. Often through writing to others we learn a lot more about ourselves. Thank you for sharing. We are all spiritual beings having a human experiences, no matter what gender we took on as a vehicle. It's the inner real person that counts.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Hi Lady, I am very glad that you liked it.

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      Mona Sabalones Gonzalez 3 years ago from Philippines

      Good for you Ericdierker. I'm with you 100%. Great hub, voted up.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Let us love with abandoned and know love in our hearts

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      Dil Vil 3 years ago from India

      Now the title made me just fall off the chair i was sitting in... Well my dear friend, this is a good hub.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Let us live big boy in love and celebration. Cool to the rule bro!

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      IDONO 3 years ago from Akron Ohio

      Thanks. Especially for giving the younger readers the opportunity to learn about another word meaning happy and joyous that has been twisted and perverted by today's society to mean something totally different. People used to name their male children Gay, but wouldn't think of it now. One school even took the Christmas song out of their program because it mentions gay apparel. Hopefully, some will pass this along.

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      The Frog Prince 3 years ago from Arlington, TX

      Well said.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Victoria, my boy just came inside and is destroying the bad guys. I want and wish to hear this about your little one that will be so welcomed into this world.

      You share you with us. And this is the creation of gayity and love.

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      Victoria Van Ness 3 years ago from Prescott Valley

      You are so talented! I love how you're always willing to speak and write exactly what you're thinking!

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Bless you for lifting me up!

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      Marlene Bertrand 3 years ago from Northern California, USA

      You have a healthy grasp of what it is to be gay. If everyone would embrace their gayness the world would be a happier place.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Mark it is always a blessing when you drop by. Thank you. I hope all is well for you.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Sure is a simple rule. When I follow it things go great, when I don't not so much. Thank you Bill.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      First ourselves and then others. Thank you DDE for that comment.

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      Mark G Weller 3 years ago from Lake Charles, LA.

      Excellent writing Eric, I love the way you express your thoughts!

      Mark

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      Bill Holland 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Love how your mind works, buddy. Love thy neighbor...there are no qualifications to that command...love they neighbor...period!

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      Devika Primić 3 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

      Acceptance is important no matter how you choose to be.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      John you bring us a touch of gayity every day. You brighten our lives and help fill our souls, thank you.

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      creativenovella, Thank you much for adding a great comment to this hub. Some hubs are actually good but made better by the comments. This may be one.

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      John Hansen 3 years ago from Queensland Australia

      It's not easy being gay...lol. Eric I know where you are coming from. There's a very good message here. I'm sure your brother in law would have proud that you were acting gay at his memorial rather than morose. One of my best friends from school ame out and told me a few years ago that he is gay sexually. That makes no difference to me. He is still a great guy and one of the kindest and caring people I know. So, be gay and proud, in whatever way that may be.

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      Naomi Novella 3 years ago from New York, New York

      Ha ha! I'm gay too! Great post Eric. I feel you. It is easy being happy and enthusiastic but we gay people get a lot of flack for it. Both my parents are gay, my large Italian family is ....oh, so gay! My college boyfriend...whew...big time gay, he even liked flowers and cooking. I'm glad of what you said about Jesus, because it is so simple love God, love others. Stop judging. Thanks for this delightful post. I write to you from a very gay place...West village, NYC. BTW, the sexually gay men that i know and who live here ....know how to have fun! They love life and are the least judgmental people to ever meet.