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I am to blame for the Newton Connecticut massacre

Updated on May 25, 2013

Prayer Bear and I pray for the children, that will never again hug us.

Seems we all can care with our lips.
Seems we all can care with our lips. | Source

Our first step in a solution is accepting personal responsibility for it.

Some are ignorant, some lazy, I am neither. Yet I have lived my life without getting active to help prevent such tragedies. I am qualified to help in some way. I am experienced in not only life but the extremes of human depravity. And I am also trained in love and the giving of it.

Yet after Columbine did I volunteer for anything to help prevent these horrific events? Did I go to schools and teach countermeasures? Did I go to clinics and volunteer to help in some way to raise my distressed brothers up? Did I visit community groups and help them to see and understand what to look for in saddened people? Did I even lend an ear to a mother who was so worried about her son’s behavior? Did I volunteer for a elementary school watch program? Did I address a group of at risk young people? Am I a child advocate? Do I attend a hotline to just be there?

If I do not take it seriously and personally, I am an empty gong.

I am to blame. No one but me can shoulder my guilt and blame. I pastor my safe and good youth. I take care of my young relatives that have issues. I am there for my children and family. I am a shoulder to my wife. But I have hidden in comfort behind warm walls without sacrifice. How could I have done that to the children in Connecticut?

Each man and each woman must accept responsibility for allowing such despair to occur. It would be so easy to blame the gun, or police or a mother or father. But when we point that finger there are three more pointing back at us. We must not shake our head or throw up our hands at a violent world. The world is me. I am the problem and I am the solution.

Let us bend our knee and remove our hat and breathe in and breathe out and recognize our personal guilt. Let not one child there die in less than our respect and commitment to get off our butts and love our neighbor.

At least take the extra time to celebrate and raise up a child today.

Let me start at home, but do not let me stop there.

Been awhile since I wrote this, time for an update.

Guns ain't going nowhere. But activism I believe has made a dent. I think we are seeing gun guys and gals, take a look at which of their neighbors should maybe not have a gun. Some idiots still scream that we take them from folks with opposing views. That is kind of true, if we view the world with conspiracy theories and monsters under our bed and in grade schools, I hope that is a different and opposing view.

But I think NRA types and ex-military types are starting to get the idea that securing a good man's right to have weaponry requires securing our right to give them to wing nuts and sociopaths.

I am still guilty and so are you. We are letting the issues die on the vine. We are excusing ourselves in our community because we cuss politicians for not getting it done. I would beg you to write someone, engage a person in conversation and listen. Guns and death need our attention and loving citizenry.


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    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      5 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Express you are so right on the mark. Even I fail and it is known in me.

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      H C Palting 

      5 years ago from East Coast

      These are real ways to help prevent violence. I also feel that each of us has options when it comes to preventing violence, if only we would take action whenever we make or get the opportunity. I also wrote a hub about preventing violence that discusses this very thing. The most upsetting thing to me is when people know something and do nothing about it. They don't consult family, authorities, managers at work, etc. They remain quiet until it's too late.

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      Phillip Johnson 

      6 years ago

      If I had read this article, or at least got the message from it 10 years ago, I would definitely be a better person today.. But sometimes it is hard to pass the ideas by words, usually you need to experience it and then you can understand it.. I definitely do now..

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      6 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      If I, not we, do not take the blame then who is left. My work has started. I hope yours has also.

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      Theresa Ast 

      6 years ago from Atlanta, Georgia

      Eric - Challenging, determined, focused, driving, painful, but righteous and necessary questions. Questions that each of us need to hear, and that we need to answer. I always begin crying when truth speaks to my spirit, when truth pierces my soul. But tears are healing and lead to re-evaluation, repentance, reassessment of what it is that we are called to do.

      Great movements are important, but sometimes the individual tasks that we each can and need to take on seem infinitely more crucial. I may or may not be able to be part of a grand movement, but in responding to your questions, listening to my own heart's questions, grappling with God's questions, we can make a difference week by week and day by day.

      We can be light in a dark place, we are called to be light and salt. You said it perfectly, we must move, reach out, we must do. Thank you for being willing to provoke us to examine our complacence, our responsibility. Sharing. ~~Theresa

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      6 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thank you for your prayers ologsinquito.

      ChitrangadaSharan, Thank you for reading. Yes if individually we all took responsibility then all our people would be better off.

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      Chitrangada Sharan 

      6 years ago from New Delhi, India

      Beautiful, sensitive and compassionate thoughts....You said it, what many must have been feeling but could not put in words. Yes, we form the society and we should own the responsibility about the happenings in the society--good or bad.

      Thanks for this hub.

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      6 years ago from USA

      You have my prayers.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      6 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Buddy we can bust a gut praying, but we got to listen. You and me, man we got to do something. I will bet you already are. I have to stare this problem down tomorrow with a bunch of teenagers. I can do it with your prayers.

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      6 years ago from USA

      God bless you Eric. Personally, I think anyone who prays needs to be praying a lot right now.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      6 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      If we are to "win" the long race we must sacrifice of ourselves for others.

      Thank you kindly for gracing my work with your wonderful contribution.

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      Martie Coetser 

      6 years ago from South Africa

      You have a significant point of view, ericdierker. Each and everyone of us have to ask ourselves whether we are giving all we can to the best of our ability to improve social health, or are we using too much of our time and money on ourselves and selective beloveds? We have only one brain, two hands and two feet, we can do but only that much. The question is, are we doing that much. If not, we should take action and find something significant for our 'hands' to do. Let's not meet our death with regrets and feelings of guilt in our hearts.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      6 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      I am uplifted by the beauty and compassion from friends such as ESPeck and Louisa. Enough tears have passed and no more excuses lie for us. Let us touch another's human flesh today in warmth and understanding.

      Wow to have both of you visit and comment make my feet no longer shuffle but tap dance.

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      Louisa Rogers 

      6 years ago from Eureka, California and Guanajuato, Mexico

      Thank you, Eric, for a profound message and reminder. I was earlier in a state of anger and blame. Now I must take the next step.


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      6 years ago from Minneapolis, MN

      Beautiful entry, Eric. More people really do need to start taking more personal responsibility for what goes on in the world, be it through volunteerism, writing, activism or simply being there for another.

      Thank you for writing this! I've voted it up.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      6 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      You know Mark that the word "Amen" does not mean anything religious at all. It means "fiat" "it shall be done". We must get it done. I hope HOW helps. Thanks for lending credence to my thoughts by commenting.

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      Mark G Weller 

      6 years ago from Lake Charles, LA.

      Beautiful and true thoughts.



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