I survived child abuse
We have all seen or heard the stories of child abuse on the six o-clock news . Our hearts as parents go out to these little ones trapped in a cycle of abuse , unable to escape or defend themselves from the very people that are supposed to protect them. But what happens when these children grow up . What happens if there is no intervention. The effects of the abuse do not end simply because the child is old enough to escape. I am a survivor of child abuse . This is my story.
I was raised in a chaotic , frightening home with a violent alcoholic father , and an emotionally physically abusive mother .As a young woman racked with low self esteem and anxiety I married an abusive man and became a classic high functioning victim attempting to bury my personal demons in an array of addictions.Mainly to work and then to over the counter diet pills to fuel the compulsive over-activity I used to distract myself from the overwhelming fear and anxiety I lived with daily .I thought if I could keep myself busy enough or work hard enough it would all be okay .The fruits of my compulsion also paid off giving me a sense of self esteem . I became the classic super mom overworked , overstressed and bit by bit falling apart . Eventually I was diagnosed with bi polar, anxiety ,and depression but the truth is I had Post tramatic Stess Disorder . I like many of you thought only war vets could get Ptsd , but many experts now believe that it is very common among Child abuse Victims. The stress of living in a chaotic and violent environment especially as a child will many times overload the fight or flight response and leave the survivor with severe anxiety and hyperarousal .In may cases the person is misdiagnosed with anxiety , depression, bi- polar , or dissociative issues when in fact it is ptsd. What is the difference you may ask . The main thing is the treatment. Depression , bipolar and anxiety are many times treated with medications.Which may mask the symptoms allowing the victim to function for a time but do not address the heart of the issue . Like a band-aid over an infection they will simply cover the underlying issues . Ptsd though is treated with a combination of desensitization and cognitive therapy , in some cases drugs may be perscribed in the initial stages but it isn't considered to be a long term therapy as is the case in the other issues. Ptsd can be cured . I am walking talking proof.