Left At Home With Anxiety
"A Positive Vent"
My friend's baby shower was Saturday and I truly did plan on going but sadly I had to decline. I am just not ready for crowds and stress brings on pain, so I let her know, as she is always understanding. "I am thankful for good friends."
Coming to grips with reality and truth about this condition, is freedom I need. I love people it is my business to be social and connected. I am a Life Coach, among other things and I have knowledge in areas of wellness. So being taken out sometimes is a drag and makes me feel helpless. Visiting social media home place and seeing photos of my friends sharing in on the fun and exciting time made me realize Endo and it's accomplis Anxiety have stolen my life.
On the flip side, there is always a most positive for me, as you will find. In being sick I have been given a gift, to sit back, be still and make a choice to find what it tis that Shanna can do now, in place of being active and working outside my home at this time. I prayed on it and the next thing I knew I was writing, and painting again, hobbies I have not been in touch with for awhile. Maybe God has a plan for me after all and slowing me down would help me see things differently.
My condition is not stealing my life but giving me a newer version of self, so I may be better than I once was. Therefore I will understand others on a deeper level. My compassion and understanding is growing, I can truly feel what it is to love. "I will be patient with myself and this condition and not ever let it destroy me but build me up through Perseverance and Faith." I am stronger than the illness. Venting out loud helps, too!
My love for anyone suffering from anxiety or an illness.