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Living In Denial With An Addiction

Updated on September 25, 2010

When does one ever stop and think of what they are doing just might be the wrong thing? Do you sometimes try to hide something that you maybe ashamed of because you know deep down that it is wrong to do?

If you trying to hide something such as an alcohol addiction from others, and always from your own self, I would call this denial in my eyes. Aways making excuses for your behavior?

I can relate to this type of action in my days of alcohol addiction, when I was afraid to admit that I had this horrible addiction to alcohol. I knew deep down that I did have a problem, but that's as far as I would let it go.

I had this image of myself that I was just like everyone else that was drinking beer and just having a great time. These people that drank alone and with me at times were just as normal as could be, so I thought.

None of us are any different than the other. We seemed like we were all normal only because we had one thing in common, and that was alcohol and lots of it.

Not one person thought for a minute that they had become the demons prey and that this alcohol demon had taken over our lives and minds, but still, not one of us could see it when it was happening right before or eyes.

Living in denial with an addiction has to be the most false information you can give to yourself.

Since I became clean and sober and finally realize I was doing wrong to myself and to my family, I then realized that all the years I thought I was a normal person, I was only lying to myself and making one excuse after another to justify my drinking.

All my drinking buddies were identical to me, so I thought this must be the right thing to do, after all, it seems like I'm no different than my drinking buddies.

I truly thought that I didn't have a drinking problem at all. I was living in denial and never knew it, because I was blinded by my addiction and thought I was just as normal as the next drunk.

So, if you want to change your life and become clean and sober again, it only takes one thing and that is to STOP LYING TO YOURSELF.

Break down and just admit you have an alcohol addiction, grab the bull by the horns and surrender to your addiction.

My only suggestion to all is, just Stop Lying To Yourself. You are not fooling anyone, but yourself.

Get out of Denial, Admit you have an Addiction, SEEK HELP if needed, Think Positive, Stay Strong to yourself and Focus on starting to live a Clean and Sober life again.



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      8 years ago

      The clarity of expression and honesty and the message ( of course) are really exemplary. Thanks again Clean!

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      Mark Bruno 

      8 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      @ bayoulady, Thanks for commenting, Amazon has some many selections it unbelievable. I know denial, I lived with it for many years, I'm glad I finally saw the light!

    • the clean life profile imageAUTHOR

      Mark Bruno 

      8 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      @ bayoulady, Thanks for commenting, Amazon has some many selections it unbelievable. I know denial, I lived with it for many years, I'm glad I finally saw the light!

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      8 years ago from Northern Louisiana,USA

      Well said ,as usual.Great amazon selection of books.I saw the movie my name is Bill W.

    • the clean life profile imageAUTHOR

      Mark Bruno 

      8 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      @ WoodsmenPost6, Thanks, I'm glad I am out of that area of make-believe and lies in my life.

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      8 years ago from Arizona

      Good article on denial.


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