Living With Anxiety Disorder
What is Anxiety Disorder?
Anxiety Disorder is a mental health disorder in which a person's feelings of worry, anxiety, or fear become strong enough to interfere with their daily life or activities. Such examples of anxiety disorders include panic disorders, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and post-traumatic stress disorder.
This type of mental disorder affects about forty million people in the United States. Anxiety disorder is one of the most common mental illnesses in the United States. Only thirty-six percent of people living with anxiety disorder get treatment. The disorder affects how you to feel and behave. It causes a person to have nervousness, fear, and worrying.
Panic Disorder is when you experience intense attacks of terror and nervousness. The attacks can lead to shaking, confusion, dizziness, and trouble breathing. Usually the panic attacks go on for ten minutes. Sometimes they can even go on for hours. This is the type of anxiety disorder I personally go through.
I've been dealing with anxiety disorder since I was in elementary school. However, I didn't have my first panic attack until I was in junior high school. On that day I realized when I got to school that I had forgotten the key to open my locker. Yes, I had trouble opening my locker so my homeroom teacher had a key made for me to open my locker. So once I realized I didn't have my key and I wouldn't be able to open my locker to get my school stuff I started having a panic attack.
I remember being unable to breathe and falling down to the floor. My friends asked me if I was alright but I couldn't speak. Eventually one of them had to take down to the nurse's office. I lay there on the bed just shaking. The nurse called my mom and she came over to the school to give me my key.
It was one of the most humiliating moments of my life. It was the day I realized i had a serious anxiety disorder.
Social Anxiety Disorder
This is the anxiety disorder where a person fears of going out in public and socializing with other people. They are afraid of being judged or embarrassed. The person can experience fear of humiliation or stage fright.
Now this the second type of anxiety disorder I have to live with. I have social anxiety disorder because I don't want to be judged for how I look. I suffer from very bad acne. I have since i was a teenager. Sometimes it gets so bad I don't want to leave my apartment. Plus I'm very shy around people so the thought of meeting someone new makes my social anxiety worse.
Phobia is different from other anxiety disorders because it relates to a specific cause. It is an irrational fear of an object or situation. The person's fears maybe thought of as irrational or unnecessary, but the person is still unable to control their anxiety.
This is the third type of anxiety disorder that I have. One of my biggest phobias is needles. I hate needles with a passion. The feeling of having a sharp object injected into my body creeps me out. I also have a fear of traffic.
When I take walks around the city I hate when a truck passes by me as I'm walking. Their just so loud and when I hear it coming from the back it it just frightens me. Traffic scares me when I'm riding in a car especially if the person driving quite fast. I fear getting into an accident.
My last fear is of the dark. For some strange reason I have fears of what could happen to me if I turn the light off. This especially happens if I've made the mistake of watching something scary on my TV or on Youtube about scary true stories. I get easily spooked so its not hard for me to get scared quickly and easily.
Just recently, I have gotten treatment for my anxiety disorders. My doctor put me on an antidepressant called Trazodone. I must say it has done wonders for me despite the side effects of course. It helps me sleep which is a good thing because i often suffer insomnia and my anxiety was making it worse. I did experience mood swings and I was very emotional at times but all in all I think this antidepressant has helped me tremendously.
If you're suffering from one of the anxiety disorders I just mentioned don't be afraid to get help. Ask your doctor to put you on an antidepressant. Start attending therapy sessions if you need to. There is no shame in asking for help.
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