- Mental Health
Medications by Schoolgirlforreal: Toxic Lithium Levels
I need help!
I'm a bit nervous about my current medication situation. The following hub will describe this. It is important for your psychiatrist to follow up with you when you are in distress.
It's been 5 days since I got my regular Lithium level done. It was too high. My psychiatrist told me to stop the Lithium immediately until another test could be done. This was Friday, 1/20/12. He promised to call in another Lithim level prescription Monday when the labs would be open or when the next business day was so I stopped taking it. The dose was 600 mg.
I read on the internet that it is illegal for a pyschiatrist to stop a high dose of medication because the result could be severe withdrawl resulting in suicide. Last night after not taking the lithium since Friday evening and it was Tuesday evening, I woke up from sleep and was very angry about my life and all the pain. I was seriously wanting to die. This may be something like my own legitimate feeling, after all who wouldn't be upset to feel miserable for 20 years and not get the current help I need with my living situation being so dangerous- another story, but the feeling I had was not typical.
Well, with the lithium level coming out so high, and dangerous possibly, I suppose my doctor had to tell me to stop it and I agree. The part I don't like is:
- He PROMISED to call in a level on Monday and did not; I did not receive my level until today Wednesday so I was worried that whole time about it
- He not only didn't call, but did not respond to the two messages I left on the machine at his office where he works.
- He argued today with the respite staff where I am staying (where I went to because of withdrawl I expereieced) saying he didn't have time and he was leaving the office and etc.
So, you can see my distress. Now, honestly I'm glad about the Lithium though. The side effects have been bad over the past 20 years. I would love to take an alternative mood stabilizer. :)
Now, also you can see my anger and being upset that my doctor neglected me. He knew and did not follow up with me claiming the respite was responsible for finding me another psychiatrist. Also his neglectful attitude concerned me.
I decided to call my lawyer. I mean, I need justice and why should I sit back and feel abused? I called them and they are going to call me back about it. I want to report my psychiatrist's behavior. The respite staff here were also very disturbed at this doctor's attitude which was very strange on the phone to them.
So, I'm dealing with a lot of anxiety but I know a few things:
- My body is safe from toxic lithium
- I am doing fairly well without it which is great!
- I am coping
It's not easy to worry. I am also worried about my housing situation as since the death of my father I've found living alone much more difficult. It's hard for me to motivate myself to get out everyday which results in desperation and anxiety at being home alone. I really need a structured environment or my self destructive condition will continue. So, I'm trying to advocate for that as well. My insurance has always only let me stay at respite no longer than about 9 days. I have been to respite 3 times since my father passed and I don't want to be a yo yo.
Facts About Bad Treatment
- The Dr. Peter Breggin Hour - Progressive Radio Network
This network is a radio show by author of TOXIC PSYCHIATRY, Peter Breggin.
Perhaps I am overreacting do you think? I always get nervous when stressful things happen, though this seems to be a legitimate concern, don't you think? The only way I'm making it through is faith, faith in myself mostly that I can stay in control. I don't like feeling out of control, it's scary. I truly want my life to improve and it has, but I was it to continue. I'm really scared at my reckless behavior since my dad passed and I'm told it can be several months to heal. How am I going to deal with lack of structure? How am I going to deal with going back to the same situation?
The reason is money. My insurance doesn't cover me staying in respite for months like many do who have better insurance. Not that I want to, but I want to do what's best for me. How will I advocate to stay here in respite?
These are things I have to pray about and have faith that it will all work out for the best. I'm sure my medication will solve itself and perhaps being off lithium is making me deal with life more. In any case, I know myself and my limits and what I need.