Bach Flower Remedy: Mustard And Depression
The Bach flower remedy Mustard is a gentle essence that soothes and eases away depression that has no known cause. While many get depressed after the loss of a loved one or failure at school or work, the depression that calls for Mustard is one that descends like a black cloud suddenly, leaving the person incapable of doing anything except grit his teeth and bear it till it disappears as mysteriously as it came. It is like an impenetrable wall which has no openings, cutting him off from the world, enveloping him in its all-encompassing gloom.
When this depression hits someone, you’ll find that the person has beads of sweat on his face, especially his forehead and his face shows the strain. You’ll often find him sitting with his head in his hands as though he knows he has to bear this fearful thing that surrounds him with no hope of escape. He can’t hide the pain he feels. All he wants to do is to stay away from everyone till the foul fog lifts.
It’s as though mentally he has been forced to tune into another frequency or dimension because he goes into a place where no logic operates. Nothing others tell him and nothing he tells himself works. More often than not, people who suffer from this kind of depression are highly intelligent and capable of very coherent thought when they are not in the grip of the attack. They realise that what affects them has no logical explanation. With Mustard, these attacks grew less frequent and diminish in intensity. It also lessens the abject fear that holds many people who go through this depression in its grip.
There is a certain passivity in this person. People might reach out to him but he can never love back wholeheartedly. It could be that he fears that the depression will hurt the ones he loves. The deep fear of that unknown gloom makes him rather numb to a lot of the softer, kinder feelings and he tends to push people away sometimes. On the whole, he is a kind, gentle soul but sometimes his heart can’t feel because he feels drained of all emotion. If he does feel that he is getting too close to someone, chances are he will panic at some point of time and cut and run. This essence of the Mustard flower gently but surely helps him learn to love and give of himself.
There is an emptiness inside that never seems to be filled because he doesn’t want it to and this leaves him incapable of experiencing true, unabandoned joy. Most of his energy is turned inward to combat the dark forces within and this leaves him with no energy left to ponder over his soul. Strangely, these people are connected with nature and her beauty and might seek solace from it with long lonely walks. However, this is very often an escape from the confines of a house and while at some level he might feel the beauty around him, he never gives himself wholly to it. Mustard helps him relax and look outward. It opens out the windows of his soul and lets the sunshine in.