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My Alcoholism Warning Signs
Living in Denial for Years
Yes, I lived in denial for years regarding my addiction to alcohol. No matter what anyone said to me regarding my problem with drinking I just let it go in one ear and out the other. Granted, I was kind enough to listen to what was being told to me, but I really didn't care one bit what anyone felt about how I lived my life.
As time passed by, and time meaning years, I did start to see my alcoholism warning signs a little bit at a time, until one day a light went on in my head and I said to myself, "what the people are telling me is true, I do indeed have a huge problem with drinking and I'd better get with the game and stop drinking alcohol."
Every alcoholic has warning signs, but the problem with them, and the problem with myself, is that we are in denial and think to ourselves that we are not doing anything different than the next person regarding drinking alcohol.
Yes we are doing something real different from those that drink alcohol on occasion and drink social. Those people DO NOT abuse alcohol like we do. They know when enough is enough, as we the alcoholics never know when it is enough. We sleep, breathe and live for our addiction to alcohol, not like those that drink on occasion and know when to stop drinking.
The Cemetery I Ran for 23 Years
Work or Live Permanently at This Cemetery?
I started to think what I was doing to my life and others in my life. Yes, I did run two different cemeteries for a total of 26 years. Three years at one and twenty three years at the other. So, do I want to work there, or live there forever underground?
This would be my fate if I didn't do something to change my life. I said to myself, "this is no joke or a laughing matter anymore. My drinking is getting entirely out if hand, and I can't stop drinking once I get started. These people that I hated because they were telling me I was doing wrong to myself and others that loved and cared for me were right on. I was addicted to alcohol and I abused alcohol to no end, I just didn't want to admit it then. I will now admit it to the world! I AM AN ALCOHOLIC!
On October 26, 2009 I sat in my garage drinking alone and told myself, "this will be my last taste of alcohol for the rest of my life. I had better get my fill of this poison that was going to kill me in the end, because this is it, I am done drinking and will now live the clean life. That was the last night alcohol touched my lips. I started my recovery and sobriety October 27, 2009.
It was bad enough that I had worked in a Cemetery, but I'll be darned if I'll live underground or high a top in a Mausoleum all because of a stupid addiction to alcohol. I am stronger than my addiction and so are you stronger than your addiction.
I didn't want to have my wife, children, parents, sister and friends come to visit my grave and tell me what a fool I was for destroying my life with alcohol. I didn't want to die by an avoidable habit and drinking problem. I was smarter than that, but that damn denial held me back all those years and I was then weaker than my addiction to alcohol, but NOT ANYMORE! I HAVE WON THE WAR BETWEEN ME AND MY DEMONS!
DID YOU HAVE WARNING SIGNS WHILE YOU ABUSED AN ADDICTION
What Warning Signs Made Me Stop Drinking
HERE ARE A FEW WARNING SIGNS THAT MADE ME STOP AND THINK, "SHOULD I CONTINUE TO DRINK MY LIFE AWAY OR STOP DRINKING FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE?"
- I didn't eat right for years.
- I never ate with the family because I hadn't finished my fill of alcohol.
- I ate late at night when I had my fill of booze...ate and passed out.
- I thought of alcohol the second I woke up in the morning.
- My appearance was getting worse by the week.
- I was gaining lots of weight.
- My once slim body now looked like a whale.
- Looking in the mirror disgusted me. (this is not me is it?)
- I never wanted to go to any functions unless alcohol was being served.
- I began drinking alone for hours at night.
- I'd hide my alcohol that I bought from my neighbors do to embarrassment.
- Alcohol always came first before all else, and sometimes before my own family.
- I noticed I could not go one day without alcohol.
- I was scared to death to go to a Doctor even when I was sick, because of the fear of what the Doctor might say or ask me.
- I knew I was drinking myself to death, but it took many years to realize it.
These warnings were enough to make me stop drinking alcohol once and for all.
Our bodies do give us warning signs, but many of us ignore these signs that could save our life. Don't be foolish and look for the warning signs that are telling you to stop your addiction.
My Beloved Parents - They Have Passed Away but Will Always Remain in My Sober Heart
Listen to What Your Body Is Telling You
Please listen to what your body is trying to tell you. Time is running out, and if you get to the point of no return with your addiction, it maybe too late, meaning don't let your body get to the point of organs starting to shut down because you have abused the one and only body you have with alcohol.
Stop Your Alcoholism Before It Stops You!
Don't be a fool and let your addiction to alcohol kill you. Sooner or later, whether you believe it or not, your addiction will catch up with you, and you maybe very sorry you abused your body the way you did all those years of drinking alcohol.
Stop your addiction before it stops you in your tracks. For all those people that have made their minds up that they want to live a life of sobriety and have finally got out of the denial they have been living in, ASK FOR HELP PLEASE!
If you feel as if you can't get sober on your own, then ask for the Professional help to get you sober the healthy and safe way.
There are thousands of Treatment Centers all over the world that are here to HELP you with your addiction. They are not there to harm you, they are there to HELP you, so PLEASE make up your mind fast and get that HELP that will change your life and the lives of the ones that love, care and want you to be around for many more sober years with them.