My Daily Self-Evolving Protocol
Advancing vs. Evolving
We all have our psycho-biological individuality, so what may work for one, may not work for another, or may work even better. Let this introductory statement serve as a sort of a disclaimer, while I am sharing a rather superficial and at times incomplete version of what I do for my personal advancement, or as I prefer calling it -- personal evolving.
And there is a reason for that distinction. Advancement means upgrading something already in existence, bringing it up to a next level of goodness, whereas evolving means "becoming" something new -- not necessarily based on the previous.
People talk about "learning from mistakes", which is about using our past experience as a reference. I am talking about ignoring past mistakes, because they have no place in the psycho-physical computation of the new overall model of our functioning.
It's like the difference between repairing, and patching up, and a better maintenance of an old car -- as opposed to buying a new model.
I have no use for my lectures from past experiences. My past was all processed by my previous levels of reasoning and emotional states attached to it. Even in a strictly biological sense, it was not really "me", since every atom of my body has been replaced several times since then. There was a time for everything in that developmental process, and even if I could remember my times of using diapers, how could that instruct me about how to use toilet seat?
In a tiny portion of my brain I am sharing the memory with those stages of "me" -- and even there, we are not talking about the same interpretation of those memories.
Like, the way that at my age of thirty I was remembering my very first date, was not the same way I saw it twenty years later. Some details became funny, others more significant, and yet others less emotional than before. At certain ages I might have wondered what the hell I had seen in that girl in the first place.
Well, this is to prepare you for my somewhat odd daily regimen, which has nothing in my past as its logical reference -- while my life story keeps gravitating around change and exploring the different ways of experiencing an apparently same factual reality.
Knowing Without Applying
I call myself a pragmatic dude. My frequent mention of that big shitload of smart books about human nature that I have read in my 7 decades, had no ambition to look impressive -- it was just a hint about a likelihood of my also having applied some of it.
So, under my next subtitle I am listing all that I do in the course of my typical day. Not fanatically -- on the contrary, flexibility and deviation from the "rule" are normal to my discipline. Revisiting crappy states makes those almost divine moments even more so, while providing an inner standard of comparison.
Being pragmatic, I honestly don't see any purpose of sterile philosophizing about self-evolving modalities. So, in no way am I one of those online writers who will pick up a bunch of information from google and assemble them into their own smart story, while not following any of it.
Just yapping about something without hands-on experience may be fun to those who crave admiration of others at parties. And I have been there, grew out of it, and started applying -- after something in me started mocking the difference between my apparent smartness and my true intimate life.
That same difference which I had a chance to observe at so many people. Like that obese cardiologist, who was advising his patients to lose weight. Or that shrink, divorced and depressed, who was guiding her patients towards a more constructive marital interactions, and a happier outlook on life.
In some of my articles I didn't hide my lack of understanding why people massively lose nerves over politics, while not being in a position to produce any changes. Or, regarding those millions of Christians, I just can't see why they keep "spreading the Word" after some millennia of that ambition hasn't stopped every form of defying every of the Ten Commandments.
So, it doesn't matter one bit how "divine" they are -- if they are being so massively ignored through wars, greed, false pride, violence, lying and dishonesty of every kind.
To round up this section of my story -- what follows is the result of my observing of what in life really works, and what doesn't -- but only when supported by practice, not by empty theorizing.
Life Changes From Within
So, in a simple journal style, here is what I do from the moment I wake up. But not before mentioning that the night before I fell asleep in about 3 minutes, and then had a baby sleep, to wake up at 7 by my mind's gentle "alarm".
After bathroom routine, and then a tall glass of water, I sit by my laptop. Not to find out what's new, but with earbuds in my ears to listen to my downloaded Small Universe meditation, part of my qigong practice.
It consists of breathing slowly and with every inhalation and exhalation visiting one of 12 energy vortexes in my body, with locations as follows: navel, bladder, bottom of the torso, tip of the tailbone, lower back, kidneys, upper back, base of the head, top of the head, "third eye position", throat, and heart.
After repeating that cycle over and over for some 20 minutes, I do the physical exercises, resembling tai-chi moves, while breathing very slowly and visualizing myself like a body-less bundle of energy -- and letting hands move the "chi" and remove the stagnant energy, or its blockages.
Then I sit again, open a little bottle with bergamot essential oil to have a few uplifting sniffs, before doing the next combination of exercises. They consist of listening (with earbuds) to a mix of Royal Rife's "cure-all" frequencies and recording of my own voice with the ancient Aztec chant "Icsa tonga-feen". At the same time I am gently moving my head left-right, visualizing my brainstem -- per Brain Wave Vibration Technique.
After exactly 15 minutes, I do my kundalini breathing, bringing up the energy from my tailbone area to the top of head, activating pineal gland, and feeling divinely blissful in the process. (Don't do it without first getting familiarized with the possible alarming side effects -- mostly happening to untrained beginners!) At the same time I am listening to gamma frequency brain entrainment.
All this routine takes me about 90 minutes, and ends with my short facial gym, to minimize wrinkling of the face.
And that's the time when my wife usually wakes up, and I give her my morning hug -- "passing my chi onto her", as we jokingly call it. Some time after, I will have my no calorie herbal tea (gynostemma), and nothing till 2 PM, when I will finish my 18 hour fasting with a good dinner. We eat our dinner at that time because later on metabolism naturally slows down making digestion more sluggish.
Well, that's what I do to keep myself in shape -- mental, energetic, emotional, and physical. In addition, several times during the day, while in a middle of anything, even driving, I produce my ecstatic alpha-brain-waves at will, "seeing" everything around me as my "reason for happiness", and giving a tone to all of my daily experiencing.
Please understand, this is a story that may evolve in few years from now together with me -- and I hope it does. So, you may be reading about my doing yoga instead of qigong, go even lower on my calorie intake, and who knows what else.
Nevertheless, not to insist on too many bright colors in this picture, every so many days I let my mind bring up anything it wants, while I'm just making sure not to wallow in any of the crap in that mix of random emotions, notions, bodily sensations. For, no matter how many negative elements it may contain, they are of a low-key, dimmed down, and fun to watch as they come and go.
Well, too much of good is not good either, but it doesn't mean allowing my stress hormones to have a party without me being invited.
Change Is Good -- Sameness Is Stagnation
There is no simple way to describe what all that does for me, and I have no space in this short story to try making it more elaborate. Like I said at the beginning -- "somewhat superficial and at times incomplete". But, suffice it to say that I fromever loved the mystery of the unused human potential, and my daily practice is setting me on a path of mysterious, uncommon, new, refreshing, and mentally adventurous model of beingness.
I will leave it to you to be the judge if all this was merely a little literary ego trip. But, let us not lose from our sight how it's virtually impossible to share anything good about us and our life without making it look like bragging. Especially if some of the folks reading it happen to be of a cynical mentality.
My way of life, as well as my cultivated capacity to generate happiness, have made me oftentimes shunned, but also loved -- sometimes by different people, sometimes by the same ones. With everybody expressing themselves and revealing things about their pet activities, views, interests -- I am just doing the same, and never apologizing for it.
And I understand the funny thing about people not going critical about the passion of a postal stamp collector, who searches over the globe for some rare stamp, or the one missing in one of the series in his stamp album -- but will find quite weird somebody's passion to do what I do.
I guess, not without a reason. My stories remind people of some of their neglected "new year's resolutions", of their mental laziness and procrastination -- so they don't like being reminded of that by someone's success story.
But then, there are those others, no matter how rare, who experience it as an animation, inspired to start something of their own design, according to their own needs or a vision of the best version of themselves.
For them I was basically writing this, and some other articles. And even if you only lasted reading this far -- that alone may give you a hint that you may be one of them.
Change is good, folks, Sameness means stagnation. In strictly scientific terms -- it sucks.
© 2019 Vladimir Karas