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My Agony; My Strength

Updated on August 5, 2011

Renewed Strength

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With glimpses of the early morning sun beaming through my windows

I gradually arouse from a restless slumber.

As my feet touch the floor, a familiar sensation begins to torment my very being.

Aware that any sudden or wrong move will cause my affliction to torture my body,

I cautiously begin to move from my bed to the shower.

Hoping.

Hoping for some sort of solace from the agony that awaits.

As the beads of warm water beat against my neck and down my back,

I sense a slight relief from the soreness as the spasms slowly dissipate.

Yet, when I attempt to go about my day taking care of my family and our humble abode,

The prickling sensation alarms me of a day that seems destined to be full of anguish.

I am determined to be strong.

I avow to try not to resort to popping another pill which will not only lessen my pain,

but will render me oblivious to the important things that are going on around me.

I will try the deep breathing exercises and the exercises that I was taught in therapy.

I will use ice, and possibly even take another shower

If it means that it will help decrease the torture that I am experiencing.

Once the pain lessens to a level that I am able to tolerate, I will take a walk.

I will take a walk and observe the sights, sounds, and even the smells that I failed to notice when I was under the influence of the medications for this pain.

I can do this!

I am strong!

I am not alone!

  1. Why have I chosen this route? I may be tired of the pain which is exhausting but I am also tired of depending on medications which are only temporary and do not always help alleviate the pain. The pain can be exhausting but the medications can also tire me out.
  2. How can I do this? I can do this because I have the support of my family and friends who have seen me at my worst but also desire to see me at my best. I also have faith in God to see me through and this is how I am able to say: "I am not alone!".
  3. Why write about this? I am writing about this in hopes to help and encourage others who may be going through the same thing. I am writing about this because writing is another outlet to help me get my mind off of being discouraged.

Do not try this if you are not under the supervision of a physician and or do not have the support of others to help you through!

 

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