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My Last Drunk - The Story of An Alcoholic!

Updated on August 15, 2013

My last drunk was on July 25, 2006…my last drink was on the 26th!

Hi, my name is Wendi and I’m an alcoholic!

I’ve had my share of setbacks and challenges throughout my life, but one of the most difficult fights I’ve ever had was my relationship with alcohol.

As most of the alcoholics I’ve met, I started drinking at a very young age. I grew up with an alcoholic father….something I was acutely aware of when I was very young. I understand that alcoholism is hereditary, but I do not, and will not, blame my father for the problems that I brought onto myself.

I spent almost exactly 30 years drinking (mostly beer) at some times very heavily, and at others (especially during pregnancies) very little to nothing at all. But the majority of my life was spent planning my next drink.

Alcohol carried me through 3 marriages, 3 divorces, many ruined friendships and multiple address changes. In fact, at one point in my life, I loaded up my car with my 2 older children and all the stuff I could carry, and drove from Connecticut to Alaska. I was so lost in the disease that I somehow justified leaving my youngest son behind with his father. I had planned on bringing him too, but my ex-husband realized what I was planning and went into hiding with him until he knew that I was gone.

We spent close to 4 years there. As much as I loved Alaska, I felt so alone and isolated.

We moved back to New England in 2002. I thought that what I needed was to be closer to family…family to which I felt no attachment. I knew from very early on that I had a drinking problem, but in my mind, as long as I could hold a good job and provide for my kids, I was doing ok.

It never occurred to me how much damage I could’ve been doing to the kids. The only thing that mattered was that I was able to drink when I wanted and where I wanted. These poor kids couldn’t even go to a Friendly’s for a meal with me because they didn’t serve alcohol. We could only eat out if the establishment served beer or wine.

I met a wonderful man in January of 2005; we hit it off right from the start. I was getting very crafty with my drinking habits after I met him. I couldn’t let him know exactly how much I drank.

At that point in my life, there were very few times when I actually got drunk. I took so many different medications at the end of each day and washed them down with a 12 pack of beer (at the least)…just to be able to sleep. Then I would have a glass of water, with a 1 Mg Xanax sitting on my nightstand, ready for me to take as soon as I woke up in the morning.

What I didn’t know at the time was that I was experiencing the DT’s, not having anxiety attacks, when I woke up every morning. There was a very high level of anxiety at all times, but only until I got my hands on a beer after work.

In order to hide my heavy drinking from my boyfriend, I would only sleep at his house on Saturday nights and sometimes Wednesdays. He knew that I liked Chardonnay, so he would always have a bottle in the fridge for me. Unlike beer, I was able to get drunk from wine rather easily. So when I spent the night I would drink 3 or 4 beers with him, then strategically take my pills and have a couple of glasses of wine to make it look like I was just getting tired (naturally), then I would just crash! I still can’t believe the amount of work I put into this whole drinking habit of mine.

The nights that I did not sleep over, I let him know that if he did not call me before 8 PM, I probably wouldn’t talk to him until the next day. He always teased me by calling me granny…couldn’t understand why a woman as young as I was needed so much sleep!

There were a few times when we went to special functions and I drank far too much. Each of those times I recall him expressing some concern, the following morning, about how much alcohol I had consumed. But then I’d behave until the next social event. Thankfully we weren’t the type of people to go out all that much. I honestly don’t believe that this man would be in my life right now if he knew (at the time) what a drunk I was.

On July 25, 2006 he and his son invited me to go to Northern New Hampshire for a night. I accepted the invitation, but regretted it the minute we set out in his truck. It was a very long drive, after which we just rode around from ponds, to lakes, and streams, so they could fish and do some target shooting.

I only had my 1 Xanax for the morning with me and the “anxiety” was really setting in. We left his house at 8 AM and by 4 PM I was in panic mode. He kept trying to get me to talk about what was wrong….I COULDN’T! I couldn’t tell this man that I needed a drink…that I felt like I was going to die if I didn’t get a whole lot of alcohol in my system soon. Hell, I couldn’t even admit it to myself yet at that point.

On the way to our cottage, he stopped at a store to pick up some stuff for breakfast the next morning. He told me he was getting some beer and asked if I wanted some wine too. I knew he was only going to buy a 12 pack of beer, so knowing that he doesn’t like Corona, I asked him to get me a 6 pack of that, along with the Chardonnay. He looked at me a little oddly, shrugged his shoulders and just went into the store and bought it ALL.

I finished the 6 pack of beer before we even went to dinner, then knowing full well, that I had a whole bottle of wine waiting for me at the cottage, I still proceeded to order 3 glasses of Chardonnay at dinner. When we got back to our room I polished off the wine and drank most of his beer on him…I WAS PLASTERED!

I came to (not woke up) the next morning to the sound of the guys making breakfast in the kitchen. The smell of the food was making me ill. He forced me to get up and try to eat something before we headed home, but the best I could do was pop that Xanax into my system and wait for the panic to subside.

I sat almost coma like in his truck all the way back. When we got to his house, he was extremely concerned and was pleading with me to stay the night. I couldn’t…I transferred my stuff from his truck to my car and drove home as fast as I could.

I got home at about 1:30 in the afternoon. I was living with my daughter, her fiancée and my 1 year old granddaughter at the time. By 3 O’clock I had already finished a 12 pack and had sent my daughter’s fiancée to the store to buy me more beer. I wanted to be numb, but no matter how much I drank, I couldn’t shut down my mind.

I have a sister who is in Alcoholics Anonymous, we were never close…not even when we were children, but I didn’t know where else to turn. I was sitting at my kitchen table, tears pouring out of my eyes and begging my daughter (the one who had put up with this disease all of her life) to help me.

She handed me the phone and told me to call Cheri “my sister.” I started arguing with her because I really didn’t think Cheri wanted anything to do with me anymore. She had her life together; she didn’t need to be taking care of her older sister. That was how I found out I had a Higher Power, something I knew nothing about at the time. My daughter calmed me down enough to explain that Cheri had called her “THAT VERY MORNING” and told her that if I asked (and only if I asked) for help, to have me call her.

I called Cheri at 6:30PM on Wednesday, July 26, 2006, and I have been sober ever since.


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      Wendi M 5 years ago from New Hampshire

      I'll be happy to read your hubs. I'm sure I'll be able to relate, as I lost my brother-in-law to the disease last year...he literally drank himself to death...which I also wrote a hub about. Thanks for taking the time to read my hub. Wendi

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      Jane Peschel 5 years ago from Currently living in Wauwatosa, Wisconsin

      You are a lucky one. I just finished a hub about my brother. Alcohol has always been such a big part of our family but it took two of my brothers into it's grasp tightly. One is in a nursing home now and one miraculously survived a massive heart attack. Neither are drinking right at the moment but both think alcohol had nothing to do with their failures in life. I would love for you to read my hubs, if interested. One is called "If You Can Hold On, Hold On, another is My Selfish Friend, Alcohol, and then this last one.

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      James Ranka 5 years ago from Port Neches

      Thanks, Wendi - Great info!

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      Wendi M 5 years ago from New Hampshire

      The best bet for your friend would be to go to his local hospital to detox. They will help to ease the pain of the withdrawal process with a drug such as Ativan. However, there will still be some powerful withdrawal symptoms such as anxiety, feelings of panic, tremors, excessive sweating, etc. Just tell him to make sure he is's tough, but it's worth it!

      My 24 year old son managed to detox himself from heroin 7 months ago...that was painful! But he is doing extremely well now, going to school full time and working on the side...he was ready!

      Hope this helps!


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      James Ranka 5 years ago from Port Neches

      Hey Wendi M, Great Hub! You didn't address withdrawals when you decided to quit. What physically happens to a person when they finally decide to quit? You mentioned Xanax; I'm sure that med was great help. I know someone who only drinks at night, but he finishes off a HUGE bottle of wine every night and he's done this for well over 6 months. He wants to quit, but he's afraid of the physical pain he will endure. Any advice for him?

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      Wendi M 6 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you for taking the time to read about pieces of my life. I would definitely like to stay in touch. And have yourself a wonderfully sober New Year. Also, yes...I get as silly as a schoolgirl every time I drive half way across the state to get my chip. I make the trip back to my original home group to collect it.

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      Mark Bruno 6 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      Wendi, that is one heck of a life you had there, but I was so happy in the end to see the final out come. Good for you Wendi for getting and staying sober. I bet you are like me, just waiting for that sober date to come around again. I don't know about you, but the closer my sober date gets the more excited I get for reaching another year sober. we should try to stay in touch Wendi and try in help other as Ray and i said on FB. That is my main goal is to help as many people I can with my writing here on HP and my Clean Life Blog. I hoope you have a Happy Healthy and Safe New Years Wendi !!

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      Wendi M 6 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you Jamie. And what an eerie coincidence. I haven't had anyone read this hub, or been active in Hubpages, for a while, and it just so happens that today we are burying my brother-in-law, who drank himself to death.

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      jamiesweeney 6 years ago from Philadelphia, PA

      Wonderful story of yours, Wendi. Voted up and shared!

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      Wendi M 7 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you snowy. I will be picking up my five year chip in a month!

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      snowysilver 7 years ago from Midwest

      I know I'm late coming into this but that was a really touching story. I'm glad that you were able to pull yourself out of the abyss. From the amount you were consuming combined with the pills, you were surely on your way to an early grave.

      Congratulations to you

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      Wendi M 7 years ago from New Hampshire

      By all means, please do share! If I can reach just one person by telling my story, I would be ecstatic! Thank you for taking the time to read my hub bfeaver.

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      bfeaver 7 years ago from Central California

      I teach in a juvenile detention facility. Most of my students (both boys and girls in high school) have substance abuse problems. Because of where I work and who I work with, your story really touched me. If it is ok, I would like to share your story with them. Keep writing, you express yourself well...I have read several of your hubs.

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      Wendi M 7 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you Dorsi. Your comment came at an extremely stressful time, as I am now in the process of helping my son get help with his addiction. So it was extremely helpful for me.

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      Dorsi Diaz 7 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area

      Wendi, thank you for sharing your story. I have been part of a recovery group called Celebrate Recovery for many years at my church. Some have alcohol addictions, food addictions, gambling...pornography addiction...and so on... The point being that we can all struggle with something. The key is admitting and accepting change. Your story touched me - glad to be your fan and God bless!

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you so much seanorjohn. It makes me very happy to know that you read my hub.

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      seanorjohn 8 years ago

      Wendi, you are brilliant. You will have helped so many people, myself included, who drink too much. Binge drinking is seen as normal in the UK. People don't see this is as the road to being an alcoholic. It's just a laugh.

      Please have the great life you deserve

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      I had no idea how many people's lives are touched by addiction until I entered the rooms of recovery. I'm still amazed at how powerful the disease is. Thank you for taking the time to read a story from the other side.

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      stagnetto 8 years ago

      Fantastic success story and fantastic hub Wendi M. Thanks so much. I see how really awful it is to be an alcoholic (although I never once thought that it was easy) but I continue saying that it is also hard for the one living beside an alcoholic. Though I feel very sorry as well for my partner and really hope that together we can get him to kick this habit and that we can both go on to being addictive free human beings.

      The one thing that I have noticed on hub pages is that the articles that get the most feed back are in fact the ones related to alcohol and so it makes me think that there are much more people in this world who have suffered or are suffering from this drug. How sad.

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Good for you Sel! You have no idea how happy I was to read your comment.

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      selrach 8 years ago

      Thanks Wendi for your share.I have been surprised at how many friends of Bill W are on hubpages.I had a hub unpublished I was working on,you have given me the inspiration to publish it.

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thanks Ben. Good luck with the therapy...the fact that you're wanting direction is a huge plus in itself for your siblings.

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      Ben Zoltak 8 years ago from Lake Mills, Jefferson County, Wisconsin USA

      Thanks for sharing your story Wendi, sounds like you're a survivor. I have two siblings that battle with alcohol, in fact we're going to a family therapy session for one of them next week. I'm hoping they'll give us some direction on how to help him best!

      Thanks again


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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you for the support Lucie and Aud.

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      The Aud1 8 years ago from UK

      Thank you Wendi M for carrying your message onto the Hub Pages. We are indeed most fortunate to have a 12 step program that enables us to not have a drink, one day at a time. For those of you who are suffering dependents such as Home Girl please try Al Anon for support.

      Yours in fellowship

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      Luciendasky 8 years ago from Florence, OR

      Thank you for sharing this and way to go on staying dry

      Congrats on the nomination :)

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you.

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      iskra1916 8 years ago from Belfast, Ireland.

      Excellent hub - straight from the heart & telling it like it is !

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you Lisa.

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      Lisa HW 8 years ago from Massachusetts

      Wendi, it's very brave of you to share your story. It may well help or inspire someone else. Best wishes for a continued life worth loving. :)

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you so much Denno.

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      Denno66 8 years ago

      When the euphoria of the initial drying out subsides, you are left with the reality of a beautiful life you have the clarity to shape any good way you choose. Bless you, Wendi for your powerful story.

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      I wanted to live have to want to live!

      I love my life now, I don't even remember breathing back then!

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      Shalini Kagal 8 years ago from India

      I'm so glad your story has a happy ending - I do hope it inspires many more to change lanes. I think the problem lies in the fact that people feel you can give it up and you don't want to. When people start seeing it as something that you want to give up but just can't, maybe there will be a lot more understanding. Kudos to you for sharing this!

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      loua 8 years ago from Elsewhere, visiting Earth ~ the segregated community planet

      A fantastic message... The story is an emotional drama fit for TV; but how would you suggest it be stated to someone that cannot see the forest from the trees ~ when you were in the depressed state of your confusion what would have registered with you? Is the bottoming out the only way? You feel you were selected to change ~ why? What made you want to change? What willed you to change?

      I'm inquisitive because I lost my father to it... I would like to understand it...

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you WSP...and LOL at the "BUT!"

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      wsp2469 8 years ago from Alta Loma, Ca

      Wow. Good for you standing before us all completely naked like this. As I have told Kim it takes guts to put it all out there in front of a bunch of strangers like this. After all, you aren't at an AA meeting you are on hub pages and many of these people could possibly sit and judge you--they do ME!

      Anyway, I know you suggested this hub facetiously but I appreciate what you've done. I reveal a lot of personal information sometimes, too BUT i hide behind self-deprecating humor and silliness so it isn't hardcore. Good for you!

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      donotfear 8 years ago from The Boondocks

      Wendi: Congratulations on your sobriety!!!! Praise God! Wow, it takes a strong individual to admit to such a disability, but you did it. I am a kindrid spirit with you. I have 11 years sobriety. Alcohol had a way of taking over my life, meaning I couldn't stop at one drink. Even when I tried controlled drinking, it always ended up getting to be more and more important in my life. I know that I'll never drink again, I CAN'T. We alcoholics can't just drink one drink like regular people. It just opens the door to want more. I thank the Lord Jesus Christ for delivering me from the awful habit and giving me the strength to say NO.

      Go Girl!

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      I can't even begin to tell everyone how much all of this support means to me. Thank you...every one of you! To all of my former classmates, all I can say is feels really good to be accepted, even with my fautls.

      And to Cheri, Alica and Nick...I love you all so much.

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      xraceroutaxsot 8 years ago

      Wendy, Homegirl says major tough love. We get what we NEED.

      I'came to' +40 yrs. So 2day I said to my snafu cmptr "No, I DON'T want a drink - TODAY." I don't control other people, places, things TODAY. Simple, not easy, TODAY. Be in recovery TODAY-its the only way. "CBP" is eternal. All I've got is TODAY. B U -Ur the only U like U we've got to love.

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      Lisa Houle 8 years ago

      Wow Wendy, what a sad and difficult time you had to go through till you stepped up and faced your demon. I am so glad that you were able to conquer it! You are very inspiring.


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      Home Girl 8 years ago

      I am sorry, I cannot congratulate or applaud you. You youself made it for you and your family, NO ONE POURED that damned drink into your throat BUT YOU. And beware,it's still early to celebrate, alcoholism is a sly beast,it's still lurking behind you with an ugly face of his,ready to jump on you with any single weakness of yours, I know. I have lived with an alcoholic for 20+ years and for 20 years he was hiding his affliction from me and I believed him! It's an amazing story but I am not ready to tell it. It's hurts too much and it is not over yet. Be strong.

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      Wanderlust 8 years ago from New York City

      Congratulations! Very inspiring, thank you!

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      kayman 8 years ago

      You have inspired someone half way across the globe.Thanks a bundle n be blessed.

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      syuryadi helpi 8 years ago

      It's an inspiring hub. Thank you for your courage and willingness to share to everyone.Hold thumbs for you.

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      nick 8 years ago

      Mom i love u so much and im sooo happy u r better and i hope u stay this way forever im sry if ive done bad things in my life and im working on doing better not jus for u but for me also congrats on everything and i will talk to u soon

      love, NIck

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      Mike the salesman 8 years ago from birmingham alabama/sherwood oregon

      Thank you for the courage to share a very personal story in such an honest and humble way. Sometimes support comes from the most unexpected places! Congrats and continued success!

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you Karen.

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      Karen Peabody 8 years ago

      What an amazing story! I have always believed that there is a reason why we all have our personal struggles to overcome, and you confirmed my belief. Each of us has a cross to bare in life, that can make or break us. No one knows the weight of that cross or how difficult it is to overcome the pain. However, when we do overcome our burdens, our experiences can hopefully help others to overcome their burdens. You should be very proud of yourself and I hope that you continue to be an inspiration to people that want to quit drinking, but do not believe there is any hope.

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      LOL, thanks Chris.

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      Chris 8 years ago

      Never are a special girl and I am happy to know you! If you ever need anything (besides beer), let me know.

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      Cindy Lawson 8 years ago from Guernsey (Channel Islands)

      Well done Wendi, your story is an inspiration to those of us who suspect we might have a similar problem brewing (no pun intended). I have had so much strife and pain in my life, and know I consequently drink too much, but can't seem to quite stop, or get down to recommended maximum levels. At present I am not even close to the amounts you used to drink, but am still over the healthy limit by a good few cans per day. your story gives me hope that one day I will just crack it, once and for all.

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you, everybody, for being so supportive.

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      Catherine DiDesidero 8 years ago from New York

      Wow, what a powerful story! Congratulations to you for being strong enough (even though I'm sure it didn't feel that way at the time) to ask for help and conquer this! I wish you all the best :)

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      Money Glitch 8 years ago from Texas

      Thanks for sharing your story! I'm sure that it will touch lives and help others. Congrats on being selected to the Hubnuggets wannabes and good luck!

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      Dim Flaxenwick 8 years ago from Great Britain

      Your courage in revealing so much about yourself is truly inspiring. Thank you and bless you for sharing.

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      John  8 years ago

      I applaud you Wendi. You have to be ready to take the steps you have taken and I want you to know that even after over 20 years of being sober, it still is a daily struggle to battle such an evil disease. I to was just plain old sick of getting up sick and tired so I got sober 20 years ago after 30 years of very hard drinking. Just keep believing in that higher power and living one day at a time.

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thanks "R", I guess I don't need to tell you again how much I value your opinion...means a lot to me!

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      rmcrayne 8 years ago from San Antonio Texas

      Well done Wendi. Congrats on HubNuggets nomination. Well deserved.

      I'm certain you will inspire many who will read and say to themselves "maybe there's hope for me too".

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you so much EVERYBODY for all of the wonderful comments. Sharing this story was difficult, but at the same time, very therapeutic. I can't express how much it means to me to know how accepting people can be.

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      Putz Ballard 8 years ago

      Thanks for sharing Wendy. Recently a new friend started playing the upright bass with my son and I. He is a super individual and told us right up front he was an alcoholic. He's been sober for 18 years and attends AA regularly. God bless.

      Robert Ballard

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      Laura du Toit 8 years ago from South Africa

      It takes a lot of courage to admit to yourself that you have a problem. It takes 1,000 times more to admit it to the world. Congratulations for being so courageous and for sharing this with your readers. Well done on the well-deserved nomination. Hold thumbs for you

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      Michelle Simtoco 8 years ago from Cebu, Philippines

      Wendi, thank you for sharing so much of yourself here. I honor you for that. And for making it through, that itself is an inspiration to others. May you continue to help others find their way to healing Wendi. Create ripples of love and light and I just wish you blessings and blessings. I have this sudden urge to give you a hug (((hugs)))..take care of you!

      The Hubnuggets House of Wax indeed has an interesting set of hubs this week. Congratulations! This hub is one of them. To vote: Enjoy promoting and sharing. :D

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      I love the fact that I have my sister in the program with me. I also love the fact that Kimberly started this forum.

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      Susan Reid 8 years ago from Where Left is Right, CA

      Wow. So glad my new friend Lyricsingray started this Forum for addicts/alcoholics. Great idea!

      Wendi, glad you made it through that overnight and found your HP (Higher Power, not Hub Pages -- but that, too!).

      You've written your story with honor and truth. I do hope it can help someone find recovery sooner. Somehow, I don't imagine it will prevent an alcoholic from drinking, but at least could help someone recognize the signs.

      And how cool to have your sister in the program!

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thanks "R", this is all free therapy for me!

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      R.Edwards 8 years ago

      Okay, I'm in no way endorsing marijuana use...but a drive from Connecticut to Alaska? Wow! I'm an herbal user and I've always wondered why such a negative light on ganga and accepted/ridiculed when it came to alcohol.

      I used to drink heavy before I stopped because of alcohol poising, twice!

      I never liked the taste of alcohol but fell in love with the affect and it had a hold on my mood at times. I was so edgy during the day when I was at work.

      I didn't start smoking because I quit drinking (which I still have an occasional beer here and there)it just felt better. I've gotten in so much trouble because of alcohol. And like you said, those social gatherings aren't the best place to display your addiction...tell me about it.

      This was a great read...thanks.

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you Drifter and Kimberly. It feels good to know that other people understand what you're going through...doesn't feel so lonely that way!

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      lyricsingray 8 years ago

      Thank God for July 26 and for you. I'm so grateful your sober and able to share your story with us. It must have been very difficult to do and I commend you as it will no doubt help others, many others. I have much respect for you and congratulations on staying sober this long. Thanks again, Kimberly

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      Drifter0658 8 years ago from Carlisle

      Excellent, but sad read. You do know exactly what I was talking about when I wrote about the courage it takes to make the journey.

      Like Lori mentioned, the complex thing we do to fit out live around our addictions. Incredible.

      Huge hug for this Wendi.

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      LOL, you cry Cheri? No way! Love you too!

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      CheriAmalfi 8 years ago

      OMG - You made me cry. What a surprise, huh? Again - I love you so so so much!!!!!

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thank you Alicia, I love you too!

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      Alicia 8 years ago

      WOW... seems like yesterday we were sitting on the front porch waiting for cheri to come pick you up... yet its been 3 yrs!!! congrats mom!!! we love ya

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      Wendi M 8 years ago from New Hampshire

      Thanks Lorlie...if I can keep (just 1 person) from having to go through the agony I did, it would be all worth it.

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      Laurel Rogers 8 years ago from Bishop, Ca


      Your honesty is thrilling to read. I absolutely loved reading it, remembering my 'bottom' in 2008. All the effort it took to drink, it's still hard to believe we planned our very lives around it, risking so very much.

      Well, congrats on 3 sisterly years!


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