My Little Angel's Death/Birth Day
Today is the birthday of my little angel and her first death anniversary, the day that supposed to be the happiest moment in my life...but turned into a nightmare. All the joy I had with her during my eight months of healthy pregnancy was replaced with excruciating pain that will last forever.
While I am writing this in my office, tears fall down from my eyes. I really can’t help it. I am crying and crying. I missed her so much. I feel deep sadness and longing for her. There is no single day that I could not remember her...crying is always my outlet...to alleviate the pain that strikes me within. It’s been already a year after her death, but still memories seems so fresh.
From the time my little angel appeared in my dream, I never had another one until today.I was always hoping to have another dream because only by this way I can see her and be with her while moving on with my life here on earth.
For this special day, I can only offer prayers and light a candle for her as I could not visit her grave back home. I flew and worked outside my home country one and a half months later after her death, to move on with my life because I couldn’t stand the pain of looking her stuff and thinking back of why it was happened.
Though I’m miles away to visit her grave, my heart will never fail to remember my love for my little angel. I love you baby...