Into the darkness, I slowly fade
from this life, my masquerade.
Of masks to cover up my shame,
of smiles and laughter to hide my pain.
With drugs and drinking as my vise,
a made-up face was my disguise.
Resolving to turn from this life of wrath,
I choose to ensue another path.
And as my old self slowly fades
from this life of masquerades,
these masks are starting to allay.
I see new life, I find a way.
I have the strength now to let go
Of the pain that I cannot control.
I have more freedom without these masks,
I have no reason to turn back.
Living with physical and emotional pain on a daily basis can become a prison if one allows it to.
To misuse drugs as a way to hide emotional pain leads to an endless cycle of trying to cover up not only the pain but the drug use itself.
If you find yourself in this endless cycle or feel as if you are headed in that direction, there is help. There is hope.
I found my help by trusting God and putting my foot down and telling myself: "Enough!" Once I did this, God gave me the courage. He not only gave me the courage to do this but He's also renewed my hopes and dreams that I had almost completely given up on.
You may not agree with this path that I have chosen and if you don't please do not be afraid to talk to someone and get some help somewhere.