- Mental Health
My Worst Enemy
Have you ever thought about your enemies; how many you have; where they are; why they hate you?
Today I was pondering about all the enemies I have had during my days here on Earth. I was thinking about why they were my enemies. I was thinking about where they are. I was thinking about many things that related to past, present and future enemies. I really started wondering about who my worst enemy was or is or even will be.
I started going through the list and I remembered something written in the Bible. It is in Matthew and also other places, but Matthew 5:44 says: But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despite-fully use you, and persecute you.
My first real enemy in my life was an older kid who had my same first name; Greg. He stole my lunch money, beat me up every chance he could. I somehow survived all his attacks and when I saw him the last time, he was drugged out. I was in my 30's and I kind of felt sorry for him. I decided to Google his name and felt even worse. The link is below.
I pray for Greg. I hope he found Jesus. I pray for his children and his family.
Yea, he was an enemy, but the way I look at it, his bullying made me tougher.
My next enemy was my step-dad, Lyle.
I will not go through everything that happened between us, but I will say I left home at 15 years old and I never would have if he would not had been in my life.
After I accepted Jesus in my heart, I made a point to visit Lyle. I told him I forgave him. My mom had divorced him long before that.
Lyle died a couple years ago. I hope and pray he found Jesus too. You know, I wouldn't be the man I am today if Lyle wouldn't have been in my life.
I sure made my share of enemies when I was doing time in prison. If you don't make enemies while your in prison, you are for sure doing favors upon favors for other inmates. I didn't do any favors.
God carried me through prison. His angels kept me alive because there were many there who wanted to kill me since I ran with a certain club.
I pray that the Holy Spirit will invade prisons across the world and inmates will fall on their knees and accept Jesus in their hearts.
There are more enemies.David Olson who killed my Grandson. Angie Hemphill Wright, the prosecutor who wouldn't do her job.There are more; the list goes on and on; but I need to get to the point.
My Worst Enemy Is
let me think
It surely is
Yea, you heard it right. I'm my worst enemy.
When I sin, I'm my enemy.
When I fear, I'm my enemy.
When I doubt God, I'm my enemy.
When I'm negative, I'm my enemy.
When I don't read and study my Bible, I'm my enemy.
When I don't forgive, I'm my enemy.
I praise God that He had Matthew write those words in chapter 5. Most men would say to kill, maim and destroy our enemies. No wonder people commit suicide; they are their own worst enemy and they listened to man instead of God.
Yes, we need to love ourselves and pray for ourselves too. We are our own enemies.
Father God, thank you for loving me, even though there are many times I don't love myself. Please help me to take care of myself and do what is right and pure in Your eyes Lord. I praise you for giving me life and all the other blessings you have bestowed upon me. Help me to forgive all the enemies I have had, do have and will have. I ask Father, you give me strength to love them even when they don't love me. May your will be done Lord; in Jesus name I pray. Amen.
© G.L. Boudonck
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