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My High Risk Pregnancy: Dilated Cardiomyopathy & Heart Failure While Pregnant

Updated on September 17, 2018
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Valerie is pursuing a degree in Creative Writing and enjoys cooking, medical topics, flash fiction, fashion, culture, and politics.

God works in mysterious ways.....

"Please bring your family with you to your next visit," is what the cardiologist told me. I was in my fifth month of pregnancy. High-risk, again, I was diagnosed with high blood pressure, cardiac arrthymia and a heart condition called left ventricular dilated cardiomyopathy. I was 37 years old.

For whatever reason, at the next visit, I was unable to bring my fiancee with me so I went alone, having no clue at all what I was in store for. Was it really bad? Was I going to die? What about my baby? I assumed that he would tell me that he would give me some pills and all would be well; just rest. I was wrong.

"Your ejection fraction is 30-35%" he said. My ejection what? He went on to explain to me that the ejection fraction is the percentage of blood that's pumped from your heart with each heartbeat. He also went on to tell me that a normal ejection fraction is between 55 and 70 percent. Obviously, mine was a bit below that. In other words, there was not enough blood getting to my brain, liver, kidneys, etc.

Okay, so that explained the extreme fatigue, which I thought was just pregnancy related. It also explained the dizziness, shortness of breath and palpitations. So, now what?

"It is my recommendation that you terminate your pregnancy," the doctor said. After my mouth dropped open, he explained to me that it was his professional opinion that I would not survive the labor. He concluded that I would be going into congestive heart failure before, during or after delivery. This, he said, was due to the increased blood volume that was being forced into my already weak heart from the pregnancy. With the extra weight and fluid that I would gain and the stress that your body goes through during labor, it looked like my pregnancy was in big trouble.

I asked him to discuss it with my obstetrician. I also told him, through tears, that I did not want to terminate my pregnancy. Didn't he know that I was five months pregnant? Didn't he know that I could already feel my son moving and kicking around inside of me? HOW could he ask me to do that? Keep reading, this next part is just unbelievable (and is also the reason why I no longer see this cardiologist).

Bedside Manner

My cardiologist seemingly gets angry with me. Yes, he does. He starts ranting about how I already have four children and how selfish it is of me to risk leaving them here with no mother - just to have this baby. Did he really just say that to me? Was I really being selfish? Oh my God, was I put here to end this innocent child's life who was perfectly healthy inside of me?

I went home very upset and told my family what the doctor told me, then I waited. The next day I got a call from my obstetrician. She was a pretty good doctor, I thought, who was part of a practice that specialized in high-risk pregnancies. I figured she would come riding on a white horse and save me from this terrible dream I was in. Wrong again. She called me to tell me she agreed with the cardiologist. She carefully explained to me all the risks involved for me and my baby and I ....I just broke down. They basically said that I would die if I had this baby and possibly the baby could die too if I went into congestive heart failure.

Crying uncontrollably (still on the phone with her), I make the decision to go ahead and terminate the pregnancy. An abortion. I hang up after making an appointment to go in to see her in a couple of days. Let me tell you, after already experiencing a miscarriage prior to this pregnancy, you have no idea how something like this wreaks havoc on your family. My kids were telling me that they didn't want to lose me. My fiancee, just turned himself off and said, "Do what you think is best. I don't wanna lose you or the baby." Neither of us believe in abortion. That was, essentially what I would be doing, right?


For the next couple of days I prayed, then I cried. Then I cried and I prayed. Nothing in this world could have caused me more pain than what I was about to go through. Pulling at straws, I asked the OB (obstetrician) at the next visit about delivering the baby early through induced labor instead. Her response was to send me to the hospital to meet with a neonatal doctor so I could talk to them about the viability (or chance of survival) of my baby if he was to be delivered early. That doctor told me about how they are not always successful with saving babies at the point in pregnancy . First problem was that my son's lungs were not developed yet - that wouldn't happen until about the 8th month of pregnancy. Then she showed me the tube they insert into the baby's mouth to breath for them and made it quite clear to me that my baby's throat would not likely be big enough to accommodate the tube and that it would be very fragile. Okay, so basically, you're saying you can't save my baby, I thought to myself.

I left the hospital still upset, still crying (even more so after viewing tiny little babies with millions of tubes in them in the NICU unit). I decided to proceed as BOTH my doctors suggested. Back at the OB/GYNs office, I sat way on the other side of waiting room. Alone. Away from the pregnant women sitting there with their husbands rubbing their bellies. Away from the happiness of childbirth. They were happy. Yes, they were at a high risk pregnancy office, but they weren't there that day to sign papers to end their babies' life. I was.

The termination was scheduled very quickly. If I remember correctly, it was about two or three days later. I arrived at the hospital, checked in at admitting, broke down at admitting and then got ready for the procedure.

Time is Up

I was given a private delivery suite, for obvious reasons. The nurse came in and welcomed me and gave me a gown to change in to. By now, my eyes were bloodshot red and I was still sobbing. She knew why I was there. Seemingly, the entire staff did. She asked me if I needed anything and I said no. "The doctor will be in shortly," she said and left. She looked upset as well.

The doctor came in and introduced himself, explained how the procedure would work and then asked me if I had any questions. "Please, if there is any way to save my baby, please try and do that," I said. I continued on, "I know that his chance of survival may be low and I know there's a chance that you can't get the trachea tube down, but can you please, try?" He looked at me oddly and said, "You sound like you're not sure about this". "I'm not," I replied, "but my cardiologist and my OB both said that this is the only way and that I wouldn't live through the delivery."

He sat there for a few seconds and said nothing as he looked at my chart. "I'll be right back." And then he left. A minute or two later, the nurse came back in and tells me that the doctor was on the phone with my cardiologist. I'm thinking to myself, what's that all about? She says to me, I think he is trying to help you. "What do you mean? I asked her. "I don't want to say anything or get your hopes up but let's just wait and see." She stayed in the room with me and we chatted to help me remain calm. Ten minutes later, he came back in.


"After speaking to you and seeing the shape that you're in, I decided to talk to your cardiologist and my co-worker; I gotta tell you after reviewing everything, I don't agree with either of them. I actually think that we can keep you pregnant, watch you closely and get you to about 32 weeks where the baby will be more viable." the doctor says.

"So, I don't have to do this?" I asked.

"No, I really think we have a good chance to get you to 32 weeks; you'll have to come to the office weekly until delivery, but I think that your heart is strong enough to make it if you want to make that decision." I called my fiancee and told him to come back and pick me up...we were keeping the baby. "Yay! I'm on the way!" my fiancee screamed.

The next three months were tough; weekly visits to the obstetrician and biweekly visits to a cardiologist that was upset with me for not taking his advice. I stopped seeing the initial obstetrician and saw other doctors within the same practice. I think she was hiding from me at one point. In the end, I surprised everyone and made it to 36 weeks instead of 32 weeks. I went in for an induced natural labor.

After more than 12 hours in labor, I finally dilated to 8 cm. But my water didn't break. The doctor came in and broke my water and the labor got moving again. But something was wrong.

The nurse came in to check on the baby because his heartbeat was slowing down. Oh no, what now, I thought. After checking my cervix and feeling the baby's head, she calls another nurse in and asks her to contact the doctor. What is wrong? The doctor comes in and checks my cervix. "I'm sorry," he tells me, "I know you were hoping to have a vaginal delivery, but the umbilical cord is stuck in the vaginal opening and the baby's head is pressed on it. We'll have to do an emergency Cesarean."

Oh, okay. Is that all, after everything I've gone through to keep this baby, NOW I'm scared. It was my first surgery...ever. Nonetheless, it went through quite well and my son was born healthy, except for not being able to hear good in one ear.


The next day, my cardiologist came to visit me at the hospital. The nurse was in the room checking my vitals. I was in bad shape. My lungs had fluid in them, but I didn't care. My baby was here, he made it and I would make it too. I knew that was God's plan. The doctor told the nurse that I was lucky to be here. He came to my bedside and shook my hand and said I did a good job. "You did remarkably well, you surprised all of us. Your heart was stronger than we thought." A thank you, and a smile was my response.

I had searched for baby names after I was diagnosed with my heart condition. I wanted to give my son a name that meant something. I decided to draw on my Cherokee roots and give him a Cherokee name. His name means "friend" or "ally". "What did you name him?" the doctor asked.

His name is Lakota.

Baby Lakota

Baby Lakota
Baby Lakota


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      4 years ago

      It looks like Lakota is about 5 or 6 years old now. I'm so thankful for the doctor who was willing to intervene on behalf of both of you.

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      Linda Crampton 

      4 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

      What a touching story! I'm so glad that Lakota was born and that he and you survived. Your bravery and perseverance are impressive.

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      Sima Ballinger 

      8 years ago from Michigan

      Wow! This is an awesome story. I'm glad you hung in there. Hope all is well with Lakota. You told this story in an excellent way.

      Take Care!

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      Valerie Washington 

      8 years ago from Tempe, Arizona


      Thanks so much for stopping by. Yes, he was definitely my human saviour! And I am so thankful for him, I never got a chance to properly thank him after my emergency c-section. I was drugged, exhausted and thrilled at the same time. But I think about him from time to time and hope one day, our paths can cross again and I can tell him how much he saved me and my family's life. God Bless!!

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      Violet Flame 

      8 years ago from Auckland, NZ

      Dear stayingalivemoma, what a very incredible story! Your heart might not be the best pump but it is a beautiful heart, a big heart, and an exceedingly Brave heart! I was so extremely relieved when I got to the part that the amazing doctor decided to step in and help, changing the fate and saving the life of your precious baby. If he had not the heart or the wisdom and courage to go against the advise and the wish of his fellow colleagues, the story would be very different indeed. He was indeed your human angel! And you, your family and your precious son were so miraculously blessed! Thank you for this most moving, courageous story. Many blessings xoxo

    • stayingalivemoma profile imageAUTHOR

      Valerie Washington 

      8 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Thanks so much specialK, I am also very happy that he came into our lives. My son just celebrated his 3rd birthday on 9/26!! God is soooo good!!

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      Karen Metz 

      8 years ago from Michigan

      I too have had to go against doctor's "recommendations" during pregnancies! I get so upset with doctors who think they are gods. I know that God is the one who allows pregnancies and He is the one who is looking out after us. I am so glad the second doctor came to yoru rescue and you now have a beautiful son!! Congratulations!!

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      8 years ago

      I am part cherokee also iloved this brothe name this broght tears to myd eyes.

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      8 years ago

      What will I say? congratulations and God bless. I admire you as a beautiful mother in and out.

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      Audrey Hunt 

      9 years ago from Idyllwild Ca.

      What a beautiful little guy Lakota is! And what a beautiful, courageous mother he has. Your story is so full of love. It is so touching. I'm so glad you decided to follow me so that I could meet you and follow you too!

      Voted up and across.

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Yu are too kind!! Thank you, many blessngs!

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Thanks so much for your kind words. He is a little cutie, isn't he?

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      Jo Alexis-Hagues 

      9 years ago from Lincolnshire, U.K

      Your are one remarkable lady, your little miracle 'Lakota' Isn't bad either. I wish you both all the best.

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      9 years ago from AUGUSTA, GA

      This is an amazing account of the unfolding of a miracle of God! I love your writing style; you are an excellent writer! Thanks for sharing.

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Thank you MsViolets, he is very special.....and continues to be especially mischievous!!

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      9 years ago

      Wonderful story! Thank you for sharing, you have a very special little boy!

    • stayingalivemoma profile imageAUTHOR

      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Aww, thanks, molometer!! I could use a break...unfortunately, motherhood does not afford such luxuries (even when you're very sick) I'll just keep licking my wounds and chugging along until my maker is ready for me. Be blessed and thanks for commenting!

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      9 years ago from United Kingdom

      I think you are very courageous and hope that everything works out well for you in the future. You deserve a break.

    • stayingalivemoma profile imageAUTHOR

      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Oh, God bless you Mary615. I believe that too! You have your hands full as well!! lol!

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      He is a beautiful little boy! And so full of life--Sometimes me and my fiancee just look at him and say how happy we are that he's here and that it didn't go the other way.

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Everything happens for a reason dear. Our paths have not crossed for nothing! Be blessed.

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      Mary Hyatt 

      9 years ago from Florida

      As a Mother of 7, I can only imagine what you went through to bring this wonderful baby into the world. I'm glad he is well and healthy. I like to think there is a special place in Heaven for Mothers. My best to you.

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      9 years ago from a room of one's own

      Great story,

      Big ups to such a couragous momma and such a beautiful little boy.

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      Sharon Smith 

      9 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA

      Hi S.A.M.,

      Thank you for finding me, so I can find you. This is such a beautiful story. I look forward to reading more of your work!


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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Oh, Yes!! I probably hugged him a million times throughout the process!! And I was so thankful that he was there with me every step of the way and got the chance to deliver my baby, even if it was an emergency c-section!

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      9 years ago from University Place, Wa.

      what a beautiful story, were you forever grateful to the doctor that told you you could make it to 32 weeks? I guess it pays to get 3 or 4 opinions..Very inspiring story!

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      O-M-G!! That is probably the nicest comment I have gotten...ever. Thank you so much! Be blessed!

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      9 years ago from Here, There, Everywhere

      I don;t really have anythoing to say. I am undecided whether you are more of a good writer or more of a great mother.. or both?

      Thanks for sharing

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Thanks, Grinnin1: that really means a lot to me. I am having to much fun with him! He's a little bully to his older brothers! Imagine that!

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      9 years ago from st louis,mo

      I have goosebumps. You are a courageous woman, compassionate mother and a wonderful writer. Thank you for sharing your story-

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Imagine That! I was tearful while I was writing it! Thanks, Swift!!

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      9 years ago from Rayle, GA

      Praise God! I was tearful throughout the story! May God bless you all!

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      I had to inject myself with Heparin in my stomach every day until 2 weeks before my delivery so that I wouldn't get blood clots (I've had them in my lungs before). Apparently, people with heart conditions are prone to getting blood clots, and they wanted to cover all the bases. We do what we have to do, ya know?

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      9 years ago from Los Angeles

      What an amazing story. You stuck to your guts and made difficult choices and suffered through some emotional pain. I had to have a painful injection in each cheek of my butt in 24 hour intervals to strengthen my son's lung at 35th week, so I can imagine how fragile Lakota's lungs were at 5 months.

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Wow!! What a sweet comment!! Thanks so much!! I really appreciate it!

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      Brandon Lobo 

      9 years ago

      A very touching story. Really glad that he's grown up into a big bully :-)

      Happy days at last.

      I was writing my hub, I said lets read one para; but I went through and had to read it fully.

      Voted up and awesome.

      Truly awesome - your determination, perseverance and love. I can only say - Hat's off to you

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Thanks so much!! Yep, he's 2 years old now and quite the bully over his older siblings!!

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      9 years ago from Fuengirola, Málaga, Spain

      Hip, hip, hurray for Lakota! May he live a long, happy and prosperous life!

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      9 years ago from The Lone Star State!!

      Omg what an adorable little baby boy, you are truly blessed and God bless you and your family. I can't even imagine how hard that was on you, but I do believe God got you through it and will always. Such an emotional and touching story:) ge

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      Tricia Mason 

      9 years ago from The English Midlands

      Hello Stayingalivemoma :)

      What an incredible and amazing story!

      I am so very pleased for you, that you were able to cope with the pregnancy and birth ~ and save your lovely baby!

      You were lucky to meet those helpful doctors and nurses, just when you needed them!


      Well done and congratulations. That's fantastic :)

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      Stephanie Henkel 

      9 years ago from USA

      This is quite an amazing story! I'm so happy for you and your family that it all worked out well and that both you and Lakota are fine.

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      L M Reid 

      9 years ago from Ireland

      Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful baby. He is alive in this world because of your love and desire to bring another soul in to this world.

      A lot of the time, too often, people allow themselves to be bullied by Doctors, Surgeons etc. because they believe they must know best.

      Thank God for yourself and your son that the Doctor in the delivery room listened to you enough to save a life.

      Lakota is now 2 years old I see from a comment you made. A lovely age.

      Thank you for a heart warming story

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Thank you so much. Writing it brought back so many memories. He'll be 2 this month!

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      Barbara Bethard 

      9 years ago from Tucson, Az

      I was crying the whole time but the tears turned to joy!! what a wonderful blessig and what a testament of the Lord's Love!

      Now. You pinch Lakota for me :)

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      9 years ago

      I have MANY comments!

      I will, however constrain myself to only two or three subjects at a sitting (Call me scatter-thoughted...).

      I applaud your single mindedness in desiring to bring another mouth and soul into the world... I'm certain, as your fiance and your blood family members as well, expressed in a perfect world...or even a semi-perfect world, the termination of pregnancies should NOT be decided frivolously...we WANT both mother and not-born to survive (that could be the one to discover a cure for some form of cancer, or re-enameling teeth).

      Many will scream at my next comments, and may take issue with my previous remarks.

      The avoidance of an UNPLANNED/unwanted pregnancy should become a goal also, as well as avoidance of cervical cancer, and other preventable and curable diseases...if detected in the early stages.

      It is incumbent on BOTH( YES MEN, I am talking to YOU!!!) people in the bed to take steps NOT to concieve a fetus which may present itself at a time that may be "inconvenient" and increase physical danger of further reduced health to the mother and SERIOUS socioeconomic problems to the family unit.

      Presidential candidate Perry issued an Executive Order as Governor of Texas (the state with the highest number of state authorized executions, coicidentally)to have young girls (age 12 and older) innoculated with an antivirus PROVEN to prevent cervical cancer if one is exposed to it following the innoculation (through introduction of the virus, of course, during sexual intercourse).


      The Tea Partie's Darling Michelle Bachmann stated that these pre-(WE HOPE)sexually active young girls should be allowed the possibility to be exposed to this death sentence, because her POLITICAL view is that government should NOT interfere (despite CERTAIN, PROVEN, knowledge based on PROVEN logic, science and medical experience) with a person's right to expose themselves to imminent death. Her position is that ignorant(MEANING young girls WITHOUT KNOWLEDGE)12 year old girls or with the consent of their equally ignorant parents, should be allowed to become sexually active and possibly expose themselves as a matter of CHOICE!!! I agree with the rights of parents to "OPT IN" to that process.

      I do agree that Perry was PROCEDURALLY incorrect to mandate the innoculation, according to Bachmann, because of his relationship with Merck (the manufacturer of the antivirus), which appears to have been "improper".

      Here's another thought for the lucid and thoughtful.

      During the "Tea Party " debates, the (hypothetical)situation in which a relatively young man elected (FOOLISHLY, or out of economic or starvation)to NOT pay $200-$300/month for healthcare insurance and found himself in a life threatening situation with death as the outcome without someone, possibly GOVERNMENT, paying huge medical costs to save a precious life.

      The Republicans' response, including a Medical Doctor, was...essentially and from some literally..." That was HIS choice,LET HIM DIE".

      Hooray for freedom of choice!!!

      The Federal Government is supposed to be the LAST safety net, when friend, family, Church, employer, insurance companies and state and local POLITICAL structures cannot (OR WILL NOT!!!) do their job.

      The Republicans in Congress, and the "Tea Party", would have folks standing in floodwaters in the East coast(as they did with Katrina and New Orleans) fend for themselves, while they occupy themselves with endless and issue avoiding debate or concern for their re-election chances.

      Many states, while weeping crocodile tears, are willing to throw hundreds of thousands of poverty stricken people off Medicaid, and defund FEMA to...balance some budget.

      People who are experiencing difficulty should be aware that the Office of the President of the United States of America CANNOT unilaterally pass laws. That office can only "advise and consent". The Constitution of the United States reserves the DUTY of creating and passing LAWS, spending and collecting money and funding our safety nets to the CONGRESS.

      Remember that when you decide who is NOT helping and supporting the PEOPLE...NOT the RICH...and NOT creating job opportunities. Just as with any other job..."if they ain't doing it, they should be FIRED.

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      9 years ago from USA


      Wow Congratulations on the birth of your son. Lakota is a lucky boy.His parents love him very much which is the way it's supposed to be. Thanks for sharing your incredible story. You named the baby well. I love a name that actually means something. Congratulations and be well.

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Shanda Renee, please keep God in your prayers and don't give up fighting! Thagt is exactly why I started writing online, because I know someone out there could benefit from my story, a listening ear, an outlet to scream into. I wish nothing but eternal blessings and peace upon you and your family.

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      Shanda Renee 

      9 years ago

      You left a comment on my blog page and I am in return leaving one for you. I have only begun to read a little about your story, already I see all we have in common, just different situations. As it goes. You have been able to use your writing/ blogging to share in the tragedies and miracles along side the tragedies, touching, it appears many people. I have yet to be able to share mine in it's fullness, but the time is coming. I started because I had asked God to give me a creative outlet, giving him the glory, allowing me to use my passions and talents within my disabled restrictions. As you, I was completely disregarded by my surgeon, whose neglect, failure to diagnose and treat me.. has left me permanently injured for life. My life and my sons life altered forever. I now suffer daily from pain, restrictions, fatigue, and all the above you can imagine. I lost so much I will never get back. It is an ongoing legal/medical nightmare and they are all trying to annihilate me and erase me, trying to brainwash me and get me to break. God's will and strength I will not. I am a single mother, and everything you wrote on your other page about utilities, food, insurance, car problems, government.. etc. I also endure the tiresome process of seeking help. You seem to have had better luck and have more faith in the system..maybe Arizona is better than experience has been more tragedy jumping through hoops and performing circus acts to get help, still getting very little to none. It's all a bloody nightmare and like living someone else's life. I have many, many, many books coming. My hopes is to eventually get somewhere better, as you say, to greener grass - and when I do, my mess will be my message and my tragedies will be my fuel to make a difference. I have visions of change for single mothers and children, suffering from abuse, neglect, disabilities, etc.. I pray for the day the Lord allows me to join with woman like you and set out to make drastic law changes, living options, child care options, benefit options, protection and emotional support - when the rest of society says, "do it all, alone, broke, fighting all odds, while we beat you down, be responsible, be good moms, have 100% involvement in their schools and pay for everything on no income.. etc etc etc.. " - there will be real help and real hope because I was able to create it. Thank you for your comment on my page. My prayers are with you and your children. I hope to learn more about you! In His service, Shanda Renee

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      Jason Menayan 

      9 years ago from San Francisco

      Wow, this was really moving. Your son will always appreciate your perseverance and strength. Congratulations!

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      thanks, Nell! That means the world to me!

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      Nell Rose 

      9 years ago from England

      Hi, as everyone else has said, Wow! what an amazing, heartwarming story, and what a beautiful baby! I hope you are okay now, and I just wanted to say how brave you were, take care nell

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      9 years ago

      Wow. Just wow. Amazing story. Very well written.

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Thanks so much for the comment. I am thankful for everyday I am still here.

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      9 years ago

      Such a miracle and a blessing for you. How are you now?

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      9 years ago from Pacific Northwest

      All I can say after reading this is, "Oh, my God!" And apparently God did intervene in the way of that OBGYN who gave you hope. Little Lakota was meant to be here. What a brave mom that baby has. Incredible story, written from the heart. Thanks for sharing.

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      Valerie Washington 

      9 years ago from Tempe, Arizona

      Thanks so much for the kind words!!!

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      9 years ago from Nebraska

      Amazing story! So glad you AND your son are healthy. How brave you are and how blessed he is to know how hard you fought for him.

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      9 years ago

      Very touching story and very well written. I couldn't stop reading until I got to the end. Thank you for sharing something so special and also something that was obviously very difficult for you.


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