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Now That I'm Getting Older, I'm Running For My Life

Updated on January 25, 2019
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I believe in the greater good of humanity. That we all struggle sometimes, but our way out... is what lies within.

I always tell myself when I'm working out, that it doesn't matter how fast or slow you go, you just have to GO.

Runners high is no joke! Although, as a kid I could never understand how one could achieve this great feeling. I always wished I could actually enjoy running without an effort or dreaded feeling before actually getting to the gym.

I am 34 years old, and have had some pretty scary health issues already in my life. A lot of fainting spells due to stress levels in my life being way to high for me. I had a lot of career changes, and a lot of moving across the united states in a somewhat short period of time. Within the past few years, what should have been a once in a lifetime kind of a thing, became my existence. I began to live a world complicated by packing up everything I had, and "running away" to start a new. Whatever I was running away from, definitely caught up with me. In the summer of 2018, my fainting spells took a turn for the worse. At the young age of 34, one night my fainting turning into a small seizure. It terrified me and my wife who witnesses it happening.

From there, I went to doctors getting blood checked and a full on physical. Everything looked good from those charts. You might dare say, everything was "normal". Even though I knew that there was absolutely nothing normal about those episodes happening. None the less, only being 34 years old, I didn't know where to turn.

So just short of before the new year hit, my wife and I already knew that we had wanted to get fit together. We began going to the gym the second week of December. I thought that was a great way to start a new years resolution, don't wait for that clock to strike new years, just start when you get the thought in your head to do so. So, we walked into our gym at the apartment complex, and I just decided to hop onto the treadmill and find out what I was capable of doing. I ran a mile with ease. But what I found even more powerful, was that I had a lot more in my head than I realized, that I needed to figure out.

Step by step, I began to find comfort in each stride. Feeling chills of a release both mentally and physically. I am able to de-cloud my mind from past hurts, anger, fears, worries, regrets, I am freeing my soul. It is in these moments that I come to a deeper understanding of myself and this world around me, and I realize that I am not just running anymore, but that I am running for my life. It is only now that I can understand the truest meaning of the term "Runners High," and I am so glad that I found it!

The year of 2019 for me now has a life filled with goals and achievements that I will knock down one by one. The Tough Muddier, The Warrior Dash, a Half Marathon, and a fun Black light 5k run in the dark. I am now excited more than for the future to come.

One small step...

I started out small. Telling myself every time that I get to the gym, "just run a mile and see how you feel." So I would, and then I'd go and lift some weights.

After a few weeks, a mile just seemed to easy. "Ok, lets do two", and I would. The photo above is of me moving my mile marker to 3 miles for the very first time. Of which I will continue to do as my base, until I strive for 4, and the for 5.

Never Stop.

Although running is what I have found to keep me going, I know that it is not for everyone. But whatever it is that you find in this world to give you mental clarity, or physical, I encourage you to keep going. To never stop. Keep making goals for yourself and don't let yourself get the best of you.

Someone once said, that you are capable of doing anything for 10 seconds as long as you set your mind to it. Just imagine, all of those 10 seconds turning into minutes, and then hours, and then days, and years of your life.

Never stop.


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