OCD - How to Gain Control Over It
Learn ways to take control of your OCD symptoms
What Is OCD and What Causes It?
What is OCD?
OCD is classified as an anxiety disorder. It is also a neurological disorder. Studies have narrowed down the Basal Ganglia- a collection of nuclei found on both sides of the thalamus- to be the source of where OCD originates in the brain. Basically it's like your thoughts and actions are stuck in a loop in the brain. That would explain the feeling of being stuck a lot of OCD sufferers feel at times. Also the basal ganglia controls "error messages" in your brain, or the feeling something is wrong. In OCD the basal ganglia activity is overactive or hyperactive, so you often feel that something is wrong, when in fact nothing is wrong at all.
So you're not crazy, you have a neurological difference in your basal ganglia, as compared with people who do not suffer from OCD.
You have a neurological disorder. Even though most times, dealing with OCD you feel like you're crazy or a mental case, you're not, you're just someone who has a physical difference in their brains from those of non-sufferers. It can be worked with. A lot of the problem with OCD is over the years, as you respond out of fear or confusion to these false messages your brain is sending out, it becomes habit to respond in that way.
When you can identify the problem and break the habit, you gain control over what is controlling you. You will still have OCD, yes, and you may have to be on medications for the rest of your life, depending upon how bad your have it, but if you can gain control, you will be high functioning, meaning you can live a mostly normal and productive life.
Let's start going through the sub-types of OCD shall we?
With Pure Obsessional OCD you basically suffer from intrusive thoughts more than anything else.
With most sub-types you have physical compulsions you use to counteract the obsessions/intrusive thoughts you have. These would be compulsions that can be seen by others at some point. But with Pure O(as some call it) your compulsions occur in your mind.No one may know that you're compulsing at all, even if they're sitting right next to you.
For example, say you randomly have a bad thought as you're trying to carry out daily tasks or just relaxing. It will go something like this:
You're watching tv, reading a book, or even doing dishes(random daily things) and for some reason a thought is triggered in your mind that one of your family members dies or gets hurt, and usually you feel kind of complacent about it which then makes you start to panic. In that one moment your whole life is on pause to try and deal with this awful thought or thoughts that decided to pop out of nowhere and make you question every fiber of your moral being and love for others.
Since the thought popped up out of nowhere, you start to panic and wonder why on earth you'd think such a thought. Then you have to go over it in your mind, over and over to try and figure out whether or not you'd really want that(whatever your thought was) to happen, and/or why you're not responding in a way you feel you should to said horrible thought. Of course in reality you don't feel the way the thought is making you feel, but your mind cannot connect to your true feelings because it is stuck in a loop of this thought, and your basal ganglia is shooting out error messages at record speed.
Now anyone without OCD would think that this is crazy and wonder what is wrong with you. Its just a random thought, move on. But someone who suffers with OCD knows all too well what I'm talking about and may experience this several times a day, or several times an hour depending upon how bad their OCD has gotten.
You can't just move on, your brain won't let you dismiss the thought quickly like non sufferers will be able to. Your brain is stuck trying to make sense of the thought because your true feelings seem to be on lock down and you cannot access them. Sometimes you can get to a point where you can actually feel your real feelings quickly, but sometimes it takes hours..days to get there.
Let's go back to the point of the compulsion. You carried out the compulsion(to counteract the thought)solely inside your mind. No one saw you checking anything, or washing anything. You may have seemed distressed at the moment or in a daze, or not, depending on how good you've gotten at hiding your OCD. People don't see you physically doing anything and they have no idea what anguish you're going through in your head right then. Awful thoughts of death or harm and feeling detached from your own feelings and emotions and feeling stuck in a cold place, trying desperately to find one bit of your true feelings in the chaos, so that you can feel relief, is what you're experiencing. Totally in your mind.
That is Pure Obsessional OCD.
How to deal with it
I have spent MANY years with this awful sub-type. It got much worse after I got married and left home. My father had died when I was 13 and it was just me and my mom, and we were very close. I moved about an hour away, so the adjustment just devastated my thoughts and feelings. Also after I had my child, it got much worse. Because that child was more important to me than life, so every sort of "what if" scenario would pop up ALL THE TIME. It was awful. Somehow I still managed to enjoy my son growing up and thankfully for me anyway, once the years passed I didn't always remember the bad thoughts I had associated with situations. If it was really distressing I might remember years later.
One thing you probably need to do first is get on a medication to aid you in balancing, depending on how bad your OCD is. Mine was bad. Once you are a bit more balanced you can reason better. I have realized your ability to reason correctly or at all is pretty much GONE when these situations occur. When I can reason, I have found that pretty much EVERY SINGLE TIME this would happen to me, and a thought would come up about something horrible, it was the complete opposite in nature to how I really felt all the rest of the time. It's almost as if OCD takes your feelings and shows you a polar opposite of them and tries to convince you this is how you really feel. Which is VERY distressing. Especially when you don't have the ability to immediately correct the thought with how you really feel.
So for me I became aware of this fact and when these thoughts came, it became easier to tell myself, it's just OCD and has nothing to do with how you really feel.
Now that sounds like it's an easy fix, right? Well with OCD it isn't. Your brain is going to persist because of the error messages flying around your brain like a tornado.
Consistency in telling yourself this is not me, and trying to refocus is going to be what eventually breaks the habit of prolonged panic. It does get easier, and eventually most times you can shake it off in a more reasonable amount of time. After a while it becomes almost comical in a way when these thoughts just fly out of no where expecting you to lose your mind and you actually can recognize them for what they are.
There will be days where you're worse though and you can't recognize it or deal with it as easy, so expect that. But for the most part you'll be in control of your mind now instead of those error messages.
To me being able to learn to realize that these thoughts are NOWHERE near similar to anything I feel personally in my heart and mind, was a huge relief. You realize you are not a bad person, you're not crazy, you brain is just physically different than non OCD suffering people, and it glitches. You can recognize the glitch and act accordingly.
Ok I have had this sub-type as well. There are generally two ways this behaviour starts to manifest itself.
First, it can start from a feeling of not being able to complete a task the "correct" way. So you would repeat the action until it feels right. This can happen with many more things than just hand washing too.
But if it happens to occur during washing your hands or even your body in the shower, than you're more than likely going to get in the habit of washing til it feels ok to stop.
Second way is from germ phobias, which are kind of like a sub-type of their own.
Either way it begins, it will devastate your hand skin and usually if you have germ phobias, you'll start washing up past your hands onto your arms as well. I did. I had raw hands and the inside of my elbows were pretty raw too. I had lacerations all over my hands and my skin would peel in tiny strips.Gross right? And it was painful too. But I couldn't stop.
It's funny because along the lines of washing because of germ phobias, you're trying to wash off germs so they won't be on you or enter your body, but by making your skin raw and lacerated by compulsively washing, that is actually exactly what you're doing, letting the germs in. So you're defeating the purpose really. It's an awful mess to be in. But it can be stopped.
How to stop it?
For washing until it feels right:
I have had this type of washing. First thing you need to try and come to grips with is you're never going to be able to do anything perfectly. No one is able to do that.
By thinking you can you're already setting yourself up for failure. You need to try best you can to accept that it may not always feel right when you do something. But that is just how things are sometimes, and rewashing your hands is not going to make it better. What will make it better is to walk away and know that you rewashing your hands will not prevent something bad from happening to someone or something somewhere else.
You know when it's necessary to wash your hands to prevent disease spreading to someone, that would be an exception as far as "hurting" someone..even then our bodies are so strong. If you have basic hygiene down, you're good.
Feeling as if you can prevent something from happening by washing your hands over and over til you feel it's ok or feels right actually makes yourself believe you have the power to control unforeseen occurrences. None of us have that ability as humans. That is part of magical thinking, another sub-type of OCD. To get into the habit of believing you can control things like that is a ridiculously heavy burden to bear and it is not logical. Which I know logical thinking isn't really a strong suit when OCD flares up. But, with practice you can start incorporating this knowledge into these situations and be able to walk away. You may feel upset and panicky still for awhile after you walk away, but nothing will happen. You sometimes have to sit with the uncomfortable feeling for awhile. Sitting with the uncomfortable feeling is a form of cognitive behavioral therapy. Over time the uncomfortable part will fade more and more each time you walk away from a compulsive situation.
For germ phobia washing:
I suffered from this for at least 2 years non stop. And then struggled with it at other periods of time for awhile too, but not as severe. I had fear of blood, and especially of hepatitis, and then of course germs, thinking every little thing was going to kill my family and I, if it should happen to be on us or on something we ate. It's funny because I am such an outdoors person and love nature, so this thinking was so out of character for me. It destroyed me.
The fear of germs though from an irrational glitching brain, is VERY real and very intense. It's like everything you've ever known gets wiped out of your mind and just replaced by fears. Or worse yet, you know what you're doing is irrational, yet you watch yourself freak out knowing it's ridiculous and you can't stop yourself.
I would say first things first, DO NOT google diseases. DO NOT DO IT. That will be your downfall. It won't help you, it'll just feed the fear, because there are a lot of bad germs and diseases out there and you're going to be reading info on what they can do to your body. These articles are usually written in a worse case scenario kind of way, so you're not going to find relief there. Best thing to do is remember how wonderfully our bodies are made and you and your family have survived thus far, and you're living in the same world with the same germs that you were living in before you developed this phobia.
In fact when you're a baby it is actually better for your immune system to put all kinds of germy things in your mouth as it builds your immune system and you grow into a stronger person, as opposed to a baby whose mother (who maybe has germ phobias) keeps everything that has not been thoroughly sterilized away from her baby. That baby's immune system will not strengthen properly.
Just try to remember if you don't already have a compromised immune system, it takes a lot to kill the human body. It is well equipped to fight germs and infection. Another fact too, is we have good bacteria on our bodies that fight off the worse bacteria should we come into contact with it. So if we're frantically washing ourselves all the time in fear of bad germs, we're washing off the good germs in the process, setting ourselves up for a worse situation. Again defeating the purpose.
It is going to be very hard to break this cycle. As much as you can stand it, resist washing after every little thing you touch. I went from basically washing every time I touched something, to being able to eat something that slipped to the ground for a second. That is normal. I have not gotten deathly ill, nothing bad has happened. Everything is fine. The fear is just that, a fear, it's a delusion in your mind. And you will succeed if you just keep making yourself wait in longer intervals after every time you do wash(and I'm not talking about washing your hands when it's necessary, like after the bathroom).
You will still have times where you want to wash excessively after you've overcome the majority of the problem. Stay strong, it will pass and you'll be fine.
I've had this one sub-type too. What happens with this sub-type is you start believing you can cause things to happen just because you thought about it. It's fear based and the fear is so strong you start actually irrationally thinking you can some how control events just because you thought of them. And the way you control them is through whatever you did to make yourself feel like everything was safe again when the problem first emerged. But let's face it, thinking you can control situations with your mind is completely illogical and cannot happen. But when you're brain is glitching and you're freaking out and panicking, it feels so believable. Whatever stops the fear, right?
A person with this sort of sub-type of OCD is not one to think he is special for thinking he can do this "controlling" either. What he feels is an overwhelming sense of responsibility toward everyone and everything that could be in harm's way from this thought process. He wants it to stop and if he can't make it stop, he feels responsible. So the compulsing continues on.
How to stop it
I think what actually happens in the beginning of this sub-type's emergence, is you are already in a panic mode from whatever triggered you, and you randomly did something that made you feel better(compulsion) and you realized you felt better, so then in the fear of the thought coming back that started the whole thing, you cling to whatever the compulsion was that helped you feel better and associate that with the ability of being able to stop "harm".When in reality all this harm is is just a fearful, misfired thought from your glitching brain.It's all about controlling the fear.
So this is where the term "magical" thinking comes into play. It's like this compulsion can magically fix the situation when the thought comes back and threatens to kill everyone and everything you love. That is until it stops working..but by that time you probably have several "magical" compulsions that ease your mind.
This is going to keep happening until you are so overwhelmed with all the different compulsions that you have, that you end up never feeling ok even while engaging in the compulsions. And then you realize you never had the power to control anything at all. YOU in fact are the one being controlled. The only one being harmed is you.
When you can finally come to that conclusion it will be easier to mentally walk away from the urge to compulse once your mind goes into that dark place again. Trust me it will get easier. You may need medication to help too. Most of us do. But medication only does so much. You need to also learn how to control what's controlling you. Once you can do that, you'll be on the high functioning end of having OCD.
This is also an area I struggle with.
Checking to me is like this:
I see that the door is locked, but my brain won't comprehend it and process the fact. So I have to keep checking until it finally clicks for me and my brain excepts what my eyes see. I used to spend a long time checking things everyday. It got bad enough I put a nail polish color on all the locks on the windows and doors for extra confirmation they were locked, so then I could see they were locked by the position of the lock and I could see the color double confirming it. Did it work? Not all the time, because the problem of my brain not accepting what my eyes saw was still there. Sometimes I would have to keep checking. One time I made a checklist up of everything in my house that had a lock. I checked everything on the list every night, ticking the boxes off as I went. Then I had confirmation in writing. That didn't always work either. Soon after I'd complete the check list, I'd start doubting things were really locked again.
I would ask others if the door was locked to hear it from them. That would make me feel some better. At some point you have to just lock it and walk away. You know how to lock a door or window. It's just that your brain won't process the action because it is glitching. So you're then stuck in repeating the action until your brain decides to break through the glitch. Sometimes that just won't happen for you. It does help to have someone else be in charge of locking up, but sometimes you have to do it.
To me I really realize now that instead of being nuts, it really was just my brain malfunctioning. Think of your brain as the center of communication that it is for your body. Your eyes are lines that take info back to your brain. To do this they must pass through cables. Now imagine some of those cables are partially blocked, or short circuiting. The info is not going to pass through smoothly and in an efficient manner will it?
How to fix it?
Our nervous system also has a coating called the Myelin Sheath.
It is a white fatty substance that insulates the axons of some nerve cells. That sheath forms an electrically insulating layer. Nerve impulses are electrical, so it would make sense that if you had a good myelin sheath, you'd have a healthier and faster functioning nervous system right? The myelin sheath is supposed to be quite thick and cushy.
Well a lot of people with OCD have a thinner myelin sheath. So this would also contribute to that blockage when info is trying to go from the eyes to the brain to confirm we see something or have done something. Some things that help build your myelin sheath are:
- Vitamins B5, B9, C, D, K2
- Fish/DHA Oils
- Choline and lecithin
I took a B vitamin supplement and it helped quite a bit. I also took B12 in bilingual tablets that go under your tongue. Those I think, helped the most. But all of the items above help build up the myelin sheath. Building up that myelin sheath is going to help you tremendously with checking behaviours. It may take a while for it to take affect, but it's well worth it.
Germ, Blood and Poison Phobias
This is another sub-type I have dealt with.
I've gotten really good about the germ phobias and the poison phobias. The blood phobia still has me slightly.
Most people with OCD will at some point cycle through to suddenly being irrationally afraid of poisons, germs and blood.
Germ phobias are horrific and really do interrupt your life. I was afraid to use public restrooms, touch stuff at stores, touch things other people touched and so on. It is a crippling thing to have happen to you. You start washing your hands and panicking over even petting your pet because they may have some trace of their poo on them. You can't enjoy anything. Your world becomes smaller and smaller until you just sit in a chair and wait for the day to be over.
How to fix it?
Phobias on germs
This area is really tricky and once you're needing help to get away from the fear of germs you're usually already in too deep to be rational about it. At this point you're probably afraid of public restrooms, even trying to rebutton/zip your pants after using the toilet is probably a struggle because of what might be on your hands right? Then you have to touch the door..
What you have to do in these instances though is keep feeding your mind with thoughts like this: you have lived on this earth in these conditions your whole life before OCD struck and nothing happened before. These are the same germs you've come into contact with your whole life, it's just now your brain is hyper sensitive to every little thing. It's like you are able to remember every little detail of what could happen in a bathroom, instead of mindlessly just using one like you used to. And when you do think of everything that could be in a bathroom as far as germs and blood go, it really is disgusting. BUT it's always been this way and you weren't bothered by it before this sub-type of OCD started affecting you. Also think of everyone else who does not have OCD, doing these things too and no one is sounding out alarms of danger. Because there really aren't any.
With poison phobias it is usually centered on the kinds of poisons we do come in contact with everyday that don't really harm us, such as ant poison and the like.
I for one was absolutely terrified of mouse poison, which can actually be dangerous to humans too as it is a blood thinner, but a human would have to eat very large amounts of it to die. Like cereal bowls full. So the amount that is in a D-Con packet is not going to kill you, though you shouldn't eat it of course. But I'm talking more about having it in or under your house and fearing one little pellet is going to touch you and then you and your whole family are going to bleed to death internally. That's just not going to happen. That was the fear I had. I have slowly gotten better with meds enough to actually clean mouse droppings with the dye of the D-Con in it without completely losing my mind, and having that panic adrenaline rush feeling for hours afterward. It took years..about 5 to get there, but I did get there.
Ant poison as well is not going to hurt you in the amounts it comes in from the store. Once again, never eat it intentionally, but even if you did, one whole can of ant spray(like raid) has only a 50% chance of killing a 2.2 pound animal..so you're good. Most other insect poisons are going to be the same way.
When it comes to poisons from cleaners and such, of course don't eat or drink these cleaners intentionally, which I am certain you have no intention of doing and avoid them like the plague....even so, think of the chemicals and "poisons" or harsh things in our environment our body's are used to being in contact with already. We even breath this stuff in through the air, which is pretty much unavoidable. And you are still here right? You've always been ok, nothing has changed there, just your mindset is what has changed and we can get it back to a level place again.
How to fix it?
Phobias on poisons
What I already mentioned above about the odds of getting hurt by these poisons is what you're going to be feeding into your mind to help you come to terms with the fears.
I had an exterminator tell me what I've told you about the ant poisons, and that a big can of it has a 50% chance of killing a 2.2 pound animal. The whole can. The animal would still have 50% survival rate. Not even full term newborn babies are 2.2 pounds. So think of that statistic and realize, while yes you shouldn't put this poison in your body willingly and on purpose(like spraying it in your mouth), it is not deadly in the amount you'd be using it for in your house. That helped me get through it. It took a while, but I got there and you will too.
As for mouse poisons and stuff like that, they can be dangerous, but again you'd have to eat bowl fulls to kill you. I even had a poison control dispatcher tell me you could rub it on your skin and it wouldn't hurt you(not that I recommend that, just showing you it's harmlessness outside your body). One little pellet of D Con touching you or getting in your mouth is not going to kill you. It's active ingredient is actually a blood thinner that they prescribe to people who need their blood thinned. It's all in the amount that makes something dangerous.
Salt and sugar in large amounts can kill you too, even water can. But none of us ever take in enough in our daily diets to kill us. You would know if you did that. I used to be afraid of salt because I read that they use it in lethal injections! I mean seriously I was afraid of salt! I couldn't reason. The amount they'd have to use in a lethal injection would be far more than any human could unknowingly eat.
Then of course there are the household cleaners that most of us start becoming afraid of out of nowhere. True they could have(and lots do have) harsh chemicals in them, but so do half the foods we eat nowadays. Think of the preservatives they put in food to make it last longer. We eat that, and while it isn't good for us, it doesn't kill us. Most stuff in the world we come in contact with everyday isn't good for us. That's just the world we live in.
But back to the household cleaners, I have gotten them in my mouth before from my hand, or in my eye, I didn't die(I even accidentally shot liquid terro ant bait in my eye once..nothing severe happened, I just washed my eyes out). I mean I would not intentionally eat these products and neither should you, BUT we're talking about the occurrence of transfer here. Transfer from our hands or something else to our mouths. It's just not as serious as our glitching brains are making us believe it is. It's everyday life. With OCD and these phobias, our brains are making us believe that the full strength of a poison or chemical in a product is going to harm us even if we get a trace amount near us or on us. And that is just not logical. Scientifically that is impossible.
The blood phobias usually come from a sudden irrational fear of diseases that can be in the blood, like hepatitis(which is the fear I had mostly) and AIDS.
Back when I had my fear of hepatitis they didn't have a cure for the C virus, and I was scared to death of it. Hepatitis A comes from food poisoning and once you get it, and it lasts about 30 days or so in your system, you are then immune from it.
Hepatitis B can be acute or chronic and is said to be able to turn into the C virus after it's been chronic for awhile in your system. It lives about 7 days on surfaces. Hepatitis C virus can also be acute or chronic. But now, even if you did get it, they have a cure now, so you're fine! Hepatitis C last anywhere from 16 hours to 4 days on surfaces.
If you fear AIDS, and you fear getting it from dried blood or even fresh blood left on a surface, relax. The AIDS virus is very fragile and as soon as oxygen hits the blood it is in, it dies. So no worry there.
How to fix it
Phobias on diseases from blood
Now if you have the fear of getting hepatitis, think about all of the people everywhere you go, touching the same things you do, and you know somewhere there has to be a person who had a cut on them and a little blood may have rubbed off on something you have touched or will touch.
BUT, even if the person who bled, had hepatitis, think of the fact that you never hear of anyone getting hepatitis from shopping or handling something someone else has handled. You just don't. I knew this when I was under this fear, but I just couldn't rationalize enough to let the worry and fear go. You probably cannot either, so trust me on this, I have been there before.
Eventually I did get to a place where I could rationalize this fear. A lot of it came from learning about statistics and such, but I do not advise looking for statistics because at the moment you will be looking for them, you are going to be panicking and irrational, like I was. You will indeed find all of the bad stuff that can happen to you from the disease and it is going to make you very distressed, and just make the problem worse. You have to remember these sites online that list info on diseases are doing just that, listing all of what it could do to a human body. So it isn't going to comfort you much when you already feel like you have it or could get it from just touching something and going through the motions of everyday life.
What you need to do is take in the kind of knowledge I'm giving you here. That would be that it is not easy to get these diseases. People do get them, yes, but hepatitis is usually gotten from sharing drug needles or from a sexual partner that has it. AIDS the same way, usually one gets it from needles or sex. So if you know you're not doing those things, 99.99999999% is you're not going to get these diseases.
I know it's hard to just leave it at that, but that is the truth and you just need to keep reinforcing this into your brain until it finally accepts it. It may take awhile, but once you get there, you will be so much freer in life! It's worth the hard work and time put in.
Counting and Ordering
I have had this sub-type as well.
For me, the counting is always related to keeping something bad from happening. Or I'd find myself counting in my head when I was stressed or freaking out. I'm not obsessed with numbers, it just became a way to comfort myself somehow.
I don't do it that much anymore, but when I think back on when I did, it was a compulsion I used. Sometimes too you'll find yourself branching out in other ways with counting or numbers, like you'll come up with some number (probably you got relief from a thought when you happened to be counting to that number) that you'll then start to view it as your 'go to' number. Then it'll be like you have to do something now that many times to make everything ok.
You may have more than one number. Or you may have a number or numbers that you avoid because you associate it with something bad. Like maybe you avoid 3 because someone you loved died on the 3rd of a month. Or if you've become scared of so called bad numbers, like 13. Whatever the case, this is slowly going to drive you insane if you keep giving in to it. And it is SO hard, I know.
For ordering things, or needing things lined up straight or at a certain angle, I have found the same theory with the counting applies(at least in my case). I would do it to feel like things would be ok, someone would be safe or something similar. Or a bad thought would run through my mind as I was putting something down, so I'd have to keep picking it up and putting it down until I could think a better thought while I was doing it.
For me it wasn't because I needed everything just so. One thing I HATE is when people say 'oh I'm just being OCD' when they have to have something straightened or situated a certain way. That is NOT what OCD is. We're not just neat freaks and anal over everything, it's the underlying issue of fear that is causing us to irrationally do things like this, not because we're perfectionists.
Actually OCPD is what they're thinking about, not OCD. OCPD is Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder, and is a totally different thing. Those with OCPD usually enjoy the way they are and aren't distressed by thoughts of harm and death or danger, they just like their things the way they want them, and they will go to great lengths to make them stay that way. It's totally different.
Anyway, I digress.
How to fix it
One thing to know when dealing with this sub-type, is when you think about it, OCD is VERY superstitious. Even if you aren't a superstitious person, the actions OCD cause us to do are in the nature of being superstitious.
Superstitions are not real. There has never been a case of someone being harmed by a superstitious thought. Unless they harmed themselves because of the distress or fear..but it never took place solely because they had the thought and didn't compulse on it. It's really ridiculous. And it'll never stop until you stop giving in to it. This is going to be hard as well.
Have you picked up a theme yet with OCD? LOL It's SO hard. It's hard living with it and it's hard fighting it. But it can be done. You've already proved you're an amazingly strong person just by living with this mess. You can do this!
When this sub-type comes up for me, I've gotten to where I like to think 'ok, OCD says to do this, then I'm going to do the opposite of what it said', and you do this by ignoring whatever OCD is urging you to do.
When has OCD ever been right about something? Never, because the OCD is just your brain glitching. It is NOT some unknown, higher power controlling your brain and able to affect outside things, like other people and situations. It's just not.
When you try to look at it from a scientific standpoint and not a superstitious one, it becomes more harmless in your eyes and really starts to look like a brain misfiring, because that is all it is.
Your Journey Begins
Just keep feeding your mind these facts. It will be hard but the knowledge paired with your effort to stop washing because of these fears, or stop panicking and avoiding things because of these fears, will get you where you need to be: a more balanced and level place where you can live normally again.
Hopefully all of this info can help you to become a high functioning person with OCD. It has helped me to get a grip on myself and start taking my life back.
© 2017 Lindsay Scribner