On Being A Victim
Short Story on Living It
“One’s real life is so often the life that one does not lead.”
I can actually talk a very long time about this subject, since I lived it for such a long period of my life. Little did I realize when I was growing up that I could have been the poster child for the entire dysfunction known as “victimization.”
People who are victims in life are usually those who have low self-esteem, low self-worth, no plans for the future. In most cases, as children, they lacked the attention and affection and love that we all need from our parents. I had some attention and some affection given to me as a little girl but it was rare. Being the oldest of five kids left little time for my Mom to shower me with the attention I thought I needed. I learned some children need more attention than others and I found out I was one of them.
Drowning in the Shallow End
THOUGHTS ON MY PAST DYSFUNCTION
People always run away from me,
Physical pictures of my past choices
Always running, trying to hide due to fear,
The “ultimate illusion.”
My past choices were dragged forward,
Conscious of how it serves me,
Angry that I cause this result,
Determined to release the fear,
Then using other “excuses” to not let go.
Excuses—“reasons with lies inside.”
And again, how does it serve me?
Keeps me in solitude and some perception of serenity,
Reading and learning how to “evolve”, yet not growing
As fast as I “should” be,
Then I remember—I am not supposed to “should”
All over myself!
I’ve spent my life falsely imprisoned by shattered dreams,
Misguided truths and false images of
Who I thought I was supposed to be
Based on everybody else’s expectations.
Being falsely imprisoned in this way
Leads to a total lack of self-worth and self-esteem.
It causes emotional pain, mental anguish, a self-imposed
The greatest Truth we need to remember is
How truly valuable and unique we are,
How much strength we truly have,
How many goals and dreams we can accomplish.
Never again do we need to allow others
To determine our worth or to crush our spirit.
Power is only available to others if
We give them permission to have power over us.
Always remember – we teach people how to treat us.
**No problem can be solved from the same consciousness that created it.
**We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same.