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Before my cousin Alex covered his body in tattoos, he was MY date on New Year's Eve 2007;
I had a "mini-stroke" or, so THEY say;
Honestly, has anyone ever been "diagnosed" by a neurosurgeon whom assures and, dismisses, that my state is due to a "mini stroke" however, I feel that this "mini stroke" is a sheer and DEFINITE connection to a reincarnation of a past life, therefore, I would rather not refer to my "condition" as such, as I am of sound mind and heart;
In any case, I memorized my passport# number (which, I feel is fiercely protected by the military, I feel, or actually, know) and other personal information to "improve my memory" (among other reasons), as my mom believes that my memory requires "improvement"; nope:)
My mom recommends herbal supplements and vitamins to remedy my memory as well as playing "word find" games, writing lists such as grocery lists, "Things Done" and other written lists such as "Things to Buy" at the pharmacy, groceries and what not;
For well over nine (9+) plus years, I have been unable to walk smoothly, physically feels as if I'm enchained from head-to-toe with an "invisible" ball and chain (never mind wear heels!) but I want to wear heels and would love to wear new and very special ones which I have had in my closet for years, which are gold-toned high-heel sandals with delicately inlaid silver rhinestones which my aunt-B once referred to my aforementioned heels as "My Goddess Heels"; I have a picture of myself wearing them at a New Year's Eve gathering in a picture with my cousin Alex on my Facebook profile and in the photograph within this essay;
In the meantime, I have been wearing various colors of Skechers or-Skechers-like shoes, jeans to work (as opposed to skirts and dresses I used to wear before "IT" happened), I gained at least twenty (20) pounds due to a low-dose prescribed medication which is "supposed to help 'balance' me out' which unfortunately opens up the appetite, ugh; I rarely smile as much anymore even though I have always been a very happy-go-lucky person, especially when I was in love, but guess what; I have not had a romantic relationship in nine (9) plus years not to mention that I have not had a drop of wine or champagne to toast to a New Year in nine (9) plus years either; which is very unlike me and, I am definitely NOT depressed; there is a great reason for the aforementioned;
At 37, my life changed completely; believe me, thus, I am very hopeful that I will overcome every "obstacle". Believe it. Think positive, move forward and, MAKE A WISH;
Besides, do I look worried? Frustrated, yes; and, WHAT ON EARTH IS TAKING SO LONG; am open to your thoughts.
I hope, wish and pray that my "meditations" continue to effectively strengthen my mind because I do tend to think very much (in millisecond speeds, much like lightning and oftentimes, in parallel thought :) I recently froze my L.A. Fitness gym membership; basically I am utilizing this blog as a diary, if you will, for my fans;)
I am writing the TRUTH about my personal experience because my group told me that I had to accept and confront that which occurred and, that it would be therapeutic to chronicle the experiences, little-by-little, to the point of not feeling uncomfortable, so I am;
Actually, it took four (4+) plus years to face the group and read this essay. Heck, it took two plus (2+) years to write all of this on the Internet;
Basically, my mother likes to think that I live in "another world" and in fact, had me INVOLUNTARILY admitted into a mental health facility in Hialeah, FL where I needlessly ended up staying for two (2) weeks; after forty-eight (48) hours had passed, I met with several folks because I had a very real and truthful spiritual awakening and felt to have been St. Mary Magdalene (regarded a "mortal human being" whose Gospel was completely excluded from the Bible and was the well-respected, beloved disciple of Jesus of Nazareth, The Sacred Feminine of The Christ whom was Royalty);
Anyhow, I also realized that I awoke to a 'red & black' world, ugh; my mother insisted that I wasn't Mary Magdalene in a previous life (although, how would my mom know whom My Soul believes with conviction that I actually was Mary Magdalene); I was raised Catholic Christian and therefore, do strongly believe in reincarnation and in fact, if I was St. Mary Magdalene, how could I prove it;
I learned that I am gifted with the very powerful trait of telepathy, to say the least; I have tested my telepathic powers--I began to 'test' my inner mind first, by kindly asking many others to buy Little Tree Car Fresheners and noticed that, within one and half years (1½), there are Little Tree Car Fresheners in nearly every other car I see on the street in Greater Miami Florida, especially in Doral, FL; undoubtedly not a coincidence;
Besides, unsurprisingly, St. Mary Magdalene was considered by many to be a 'mere mortal' rather than an extremely powerful and important human being;
I also had another paranormal experience (in a Biblical sense) in which I felt that I saw, and heard, the spirit of Jesus of Nazareth as an apparition but he soon proved to be Christ-not; I recall that whomever he was, he told me to pray to myself ; which made me question, "whom was that evil male 'spirit' after all"; when I was 36 years old in 2006, his apparition told me to drive to Miami Beach one (1) night and park and walk on the beach with him; it was a lovely evening and, of course, I was personally alone, wearing one of my pretty gowns (size 6) and My delicate gold "goddess" heels which matched the gown perfectly accompanied by a string of pearls; we (the apparition of 'Christ-not' and I) spent about an hour or so on Miami Beach; it was near midnight and I felt sleepy; he told me to sleep in my car, so I did, until morning;
The next day, I drove to my mother's house whom seemed worried and insisted that I live in "another world." Anyhow, the bottom line is that, I lived, and heard, his apparition for one (1) year where I experienced many more incidents which I may explain personally one day, if asked; I was completely unaware that he was Christ-not and was convinced and, very disappointed, otherwise;
By the way, North Korea's president is 'trigger happy' towards initiating a nuclear war, to say the least;
At this point, I am on a journey or, a mission, if you will, of healing and recovery and, am open to any help or suggestions;
In any case, my mother had me "Baker Act-ed" which is a colloquial term for being peacefully arrested by the police whom drive you to a mental health facility against your will; I never did anything even slightly crazy nor, had any symptoms of a mental illness, however, my mom insisted in having me diagnosed by a psychiatrist for her own reasons, I suppose; I even became avidly religious for one (1) year and went to many 'holy feast days' all around Miami and had a paranormal experience before I lived with my mother while I lived alone in my Coral Gables apartment with someone whom I thought I 'knew' and believed to be the spirit of Jesus of Nazareth; he soon proved to be Christ-not (again), in a Biblical sense; which is proven well beyond a shadow of a doubt; HubPages reader, you decide and feel free, therefore to comment on this Hub (besides I am an open-book, in the truest sense of the word, I have absolutely nothing to hide nor to lose);
Currently, I live with my retired mother within a gated community in Doral, Florida; I didn't figure that my mother would be supportive at all, however unsurprisingly, my immediate family is strangely too supportive, which includes my younger sister (for a reason obviously);
To be specific, my only half-sister (whom is a stay-at-home mom and even home schools her son) has a completely different biological father and we truly are nothing alike but we grew up together, so be it;
Not too many years ago, I remember having a bad 'dream' or 'vision', shall I call it where my younger sister actually told me, "now I am YOU, Consuelo De Bilbao Luzárraga", which sounded like something out of a bad science-fiction movie or, a very bad horror film; can you imagine such a rude awakening; it felt very real, though, as if my body were possessed by her spirit, to say the least;
Anyway, my mother keeps a calendar to keep track of twice-a-month meetings as "group talk therapy" where I have come across individuals whom I clearly dissect as being cursed with mental illnesses; truthfully, I am not like them, so I do count my blessings;
Admittedly, I am extremely creative, I think in millisecond speeds, in parallel thought, telepathically (even in the 3rd [third] person); I have even learned that I am quite prophetic, I 'remember the future' but not any of my 'past lives', even though I do believe in reincarnation, as I AM HUMAN (and not a robot, nor a 'captcha', nor even an alien);
My personal aura is extremely bright and, visible in photographs, especially:) It would be amazingly cool to prove as I know that I have truly clear telepathic powers, in person, as seen in science fiction films where computers record 'mentally spoken thoughts' as proof of an extrasensory, specially gifted person;
My life took a sharp turn when I moved in with my mom (which was a true Polar Shift in personal power and independence); it was an adjustment moving to Doral, FL with my mom;
We are nothing alike so we put up with each other as roommates because I have not been able to afford living on my own for years, believe it or not; My younger sister is more like my mom, actually;
I was happily living in Coral Gables in an apartment with my two kittens named Bella and Dio (which I adopted from the Cat Network);
I used to go out once or twice a week, mostly in downtown Miami and in central Miami but haven't been as active as I once was;
Actually, I haven't been to those places in well over nine (9) plus years;
I suddenly quit my great job in an agency in Pinecrest, South Miami, Florida where I worked as a Marketing Consultant and spoke with my family about what I believed to be true and my mom became very worried and nervous; what I do not grasp is, why would my mom and immediate family become so nervous and worried rather than being elated, being that my Soul remembers being St Mary Magdalene, which is a very good thing, as St Mary Magdalene has always been held in very high regard by many for well over two (2) milleniums;
Rather than being supportive, my mother and immediate family regarded my memory of being St Mary Magdalene as a psychiatric condition which, it is NOT, in my best opinion; have you ever felt betrayed or, told that no one believes that which you honestly feel to be very true;
In addition to being to experiencing a "mini-stroke" as diagnosed by a neurologist, I decided to get braces because one (1) upper tooth protruded; I had braces from the time I was eleven (11) until I was nearly thirteen (13) years old; then, at forty-four (44) years old, I had braces again; luckily, the braces came off in the Summer of 2014;
Further to my career, I mostly worked within the field of Marketing & Communications; for seven (7) years, I worked within the cargo (import & export) industry; I worked at steamship lines, an airline, a consolidator (or, NVOCC), a freight forwarder and as an import cargo supervisor;
At the university, I became intrigued about the field of Marketing and decided to pursue a fledgling marketing career as a freelance temporary administrative assistant and/or receptionist until I was hired by BACARDI USA as a New Products Assistant; I even worked at a dental office when I was 14 years old because my mom was the Office Manager and hired me;
My next job was in New York City was at a public relations firm where I was hired as an Executive Assistant; after one year, I moved back to Miami and decided to travel to Europe (Italy and Paris, specifically);
After spending some time in Venice, Italy, I was hired by PARBEL Inc (a subsidiary of L'OREAL) as an International Trainer for Biotherm; I was promoted within L'OREAL to New York City as the National Training Director for Biotherm after one (1) year;
Nearly two (2) years later, I returned to Miami and was hired by SHISEIDO, a Japanese cosmetics manufacturer as their Latin American Marketing Manager;
I worked at SHISEIDO nearly four (4) months until I was hired on the spot by ALFAPARF, an Italian cosmetics manufacturer as a Marketing Manager;
After one year and a half (approximately), I was promoted by my boss to live in Bergamo, Italy and to work in their headquarter office in Dalmine to co-develop a hair care line;
My boss at ALFAPARF had promoted me to International Marketing Manager; he told me to hire an Assistant; I hired my younger sister;
At first, my younger sister seemed almost magical, however, after a few months, I was driven to resign due to my sister's very persuasive tactics whom seemed to manipulate me and others somehow; it was very strange, to be quite honest;
As usual, I kept to myself rather than gossip with others and was very dedicated and focused on my career, however, I suddenly became the opposite once my sister was also working within ALFAPARF, the Italian hair care and cosmetics manufacturer; I spent four (4) years working with ALFAPARF;
Some time later that year, I decided to work with a temporary agency as an Executive Assistant, Receptionist, Secretary or any open position available for which I qualified in the hopes of securing a new job due to very high unemployment rates;
I applied for an Advertising Executive position in Miami Lakes and was pretty much hired on the spot; I worked with that agency for a little over seven (7) months because I sought better pay and a more professional environment; therefore, I interviewed at another agency whom offered me a salary of $20,000 more than I was making whom, hired me on the spot as well, as a Marketing Consultant;
While working with the agency, I was very happy with my work, the graphic designers, the printing division, the traffic division, my bosses and my clients;
It was precisely then that "it" happened while I was working at that agency and living in my apartment in Coral Gables with my two (2) beautiful kittens Bella and Dio;
Stay tuned, feel free to comment and/or lend me your insight;
Thank you in advance;
By the way, there is an Operation Reassurance that I must say I salute the military and NATO as well as the other many agencies that work in tandem with them; in fact, I look forward to learning of the outcome-
"Love is patient, love is kind, love does not envy nor boast";
8 Love never fails-BibiLuzarraga.
The definition of Divine Love:
Love is blind, Love does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. Love does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, Love is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth-BibiLuzarraga.
May 13, 2016-Now immediately, times Infinity times three (3) squared, I hope, wish and pray for Peace, Justice, Balance, Beauty and Love in the Universe this Summer of 2017;— BibiLuzarraga.
May 19 2016: "5 Things you should know about Mary Magdalene";
"New shocking evidence points to pole shift;"-
- New shocking evidence points to pole shift | Your News Wire
Is a reversal of the earth's magnetic poles taking place? Volcanoes, earthquakes, strange noises from the sea. New shocking evidence points to a pole...
In a prophetic dream;
In April 2015, I felt that I would lose my biological family; haunting in a way; of course, I did not tell my mom nor anyone in my family and nearly dismissed that vision however, I cannot forget it; anything could happen to my biological family>>>from a car accident or a health issue or somehow, SOMETHING BEYOND COMPREHENSION-BibiLuzarraga.
Have you heard of Reptilian Aliens and a Lizard People Race on tv programs such as "Ancient Aliens"-BibiLuzarraga.
My personal signature-
Amazing Grace: A beautiful song;
Amazing Grace Amazing Grace, How sweet the sound; I once was lost, But now I'm found. Was blind, but now I see-BibiLuzarraga.
I finally read this essay aloud;
Some may call it 'brave', however, I finally mustered up my strength in reading this essay aloud at a group therapy session; I had never mentioned that I was "Baker-Act-ed" by my own mother or felt a paranormal experience and definitely never mentioned my spiritual awakening in feeling that I was St. Mary Magdalene (you know, "the beloved disciple of Jesus of Nazareth"); I didn't receive too many comments, except from the facilitator of the group whom said, "thanks for sharing; sometimes, we feel 'delusions of grandeur," (blah blah blah); I basically nodded my head and insisted, "well I KNOW I had paranormal experiences and truly saw, and heard, The Soul of Jesus of Nazareth and I was NOT hallucinating"; I have only smoked pot in this lifetime and have never done any other kind of drug so no, I was NOT, NOT, NOT hallucinating); ??Has anyone heard of having an Invisible Soul-BibiLuzarraga.
October 10, 2017 - "At the crucifixion", to say the least;
Living in the Looking Glass-
My beloved Venice - at night
At the time I was in Venice and dated a Venetian, my "boyfriend" (the Venetian) had a best friend whom owned a busy restaurant near the Rialto Bridge; this is where I learned about Limoncello!
Juniper trees align the villa, a stone pathway gives way to the front entrance of BellaDio-BibiLuzarraga.
The Omnipotent Unicorn is Reborn :)
Off the topic, decidedly exploring a low-carb diet :)
I found a neat recipe for Kale Chips and would like to share it with my HubReaders:
- 8 cups of loosely packed curly kale, torn into 1-1½" pieces, tough stems removed;
- 2 Tbsp extra virgin oil, melted;
- ¼ tsp salt, to taste;
- Preheat oven to 325 degrees;
- Wash & thoroughly dry kale leaves;
- Place kale in a plastic container or large bowl;
- Pour warmed oil over the kale;
- Close lid on container and shake to coat kale well;
- Spread coated kale onto a large baking sheet;
- Sprinkle with salt, to taste;
- Bake 20-22 minutes, until crispy;
- ENJOY LIGHT & CRISPY FRESH FROM THE OVEN :)
July 18th, 2017;
Have you heard//Eve (The Genesis) was framed-BibiLuzarraga.
July 19, 2017 Have you ever heard of CODE RED in the military;
Remember that movie, "A Few Good Men" which starred Tom Cruise and Demi Moore whom were military lawyers which investigated a Code Red; lends insight into a quite urgent CODE/RED, CODE/RED, CODE/RED which is happening on Planet Earth today (listen to the news)-C Luzarraga.
July 20th, 2017; Kind tattoo-BibiLuzarraga;
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August 1st, 2017:
Today is my 48th birthday :)BibiLuzarraga!
We should meet :)
(April 17, 2017)-Follow me on FaceBook if you'd like and by the way, it's a good thing that my HubPages.com://@bibiluzarraga is linked with Google Analytics, a reporting program; all of my essays on-line have gone viral worldwide unsurprisingly so; therefore, if you are a fan of my website, please let me know and feel free to comment; or, if you have any questions, or should prefer/require any clarification, ask me in person;)-BibiLuzarraga.
August 16, 2017-Police officers in Doral, FL;
Lately, I have noticed many police officers lined up around the corner from where I am employed as the one & only receptionist for a small office distributor of wholesale cellular phones-BibiLuzarraga.
What do you believe in-Bibi.view quiz statistics
Which country calls to you :)Bibi.
Do France and Italy call to your heart?
February 26, 2017: The DaVinci Code;
To my HubPages fans: Did you happen to watch the film, "The DaVinci Code"; I did-
April 25, 2017: The website: Halexandria.org :)
Dear Hub Readers:
I would like your opinion/thoughts/comments regarding Mr Dan Sewell Ward's knowledge on the theories he discusses on his website; also, if you know of a way in which I may contact Mr Dan Sewell Ward via email, I would greatly appreciate your input; thoughtfully and kindly-BibiLuzarraga.
September 6, 2017-Hurricane Irma;
HURRICANE IRMA, a Category 5 storm headed for Florida this coming weekend, is the largest and strongest hurricane ever recorded in history and, is borne from the warm, September waters of the Atlantic Ocean; perhaps it was a harrowing vision, however, Hurricane Irma, was forecasted to sweep by south Miami's coastline; should I be concerned and keep it in my thoughts (I think so), considering that which Hurricane Harvey left in its wake in Texas, a Bible Belt state, not even two (2) weeks ago-BibiLuzarraga.
September 19, 2017: I Am a Victim of Identity Theft;
In speaking with the IRS this afternoon, it has been confirmed that I am a victim of Identity Theft; now I must notify the IRS, other government agencies, the police and other institutions that my identity has been stolen (I just knew this would happen); ugh; BibiLuzarraga!
October 12, 2017-Bruno Mars is coming in concert to Miami, Florida :)
Silly or, not; I awoke this morning with Bruno Mars' song "Champagne on Ice", lol (smiles); and, the "Champagne on Ice" song is sooooo stuck in my head all day, which is very cool-BibiLuzarraga.
October 13, 2017: Sunday dinner menu:)
Sticky Asian Glazed Chicken served with 'Once Upon A Chef's" recipe of Thai Cucumber Salad with (salted) peanuts, thinly sliced red onion, fresh chopped cilantro and jalapeño pepper; sounds scrumptious; you should not miss it, lol-BibiLuzarraga.
October 16, 2017: What is your guilty pleasure;
Mine is indulging once per week in a Wendy's Single Cheeseburger with no onions; usually I buy the sandwich while, at times, I buy the combo with french fries and a diet Coke:) BibiLuzarraga.
October 24, 2017-Apparently, I have fans in Edmonton, Canada;
Doral, Miami, San Francisco, in the DOD, the AF, the USMC, etcetera and in many other places around Planet Earth; I wish, hope and pray that I will meet them or, know whom you are by the end of this month, especially personally:); should you have any questions regarding my short non-fiction blogs or, on-line essays, feel free to contact me; thank you in advance:) BibiLuzarraga.
October 25, 2017-Feeling especially creative since yesterday;
drew a makeshift rainbow, hearts and a peace sign yesterday with a few highlighters in my desk at work; not to mention that I also printed a few other images at work today (such as tarot cards, the Victoria's Secret logo and models, etc) which hold a deeper meaning to me-C Luzárraga.
November 6th, 2017: Hogan-Lovells Brickell;
I personally had a "mock" interview, it seems, for a well-paid Receptionist position with Hogan-Lovells located at 600 Brickell Avenue, Miami, FL in mid-August 2017; I remember asking two different women at Hogan-Lovells, "is the Pentagon or, military, a client" and the women simply shrugged their shoulders and said, "maybe or, maybe not";
Furthermore, I was so excited in meeting with Hogan-Lovells, that I absentmindedly left my resumé in my car; luckily, I met with the Office Administrator, whom had already seen my resumé whom printed the same beforehand; what did seem strange, however, is that the woman did not provide me with an Application Form nor asked me for any IDs nor, mentioned a background check which, is regularly the case in many job interviews; also, I was contacted via LinkedIn from a Hogan-Lovells recruiter in Washington and being that Hogan-Lovells is an extremely professional and an upscale global law firm, I was surprised at the fact that the Office Administrator had scheduled my meeting with her for the very next day ,near to 12:30pm (lucky me); in any case HubPage fans, please inform if you have a key contact person at Hogan-Lovells on Brickell; if so, it is very well-appreciated-BibiLuzarraga. https://www.hoganlovells.com
February 12th, 2018: YouTube;
I have personally been viewing uploaded videos by some of my favorite (and recommended) performers such as Adele, Evanecence, Brendan O'Hara while also, viewing/researching intriguing videos regarding The Illuminati, The Illuminati Agenda and Propaganda from several individuals and groups [such as the CIA, the FBI, Hollywood celebrities, famous musicians et al] whom may, or claim, to expose The Illuminati; check it out-BibiLuzarraga.
Why does the Hooked "X" come to mind-BibiLuzarraga.
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