Our Missing Original Experiences in Quantum of Living
"It's only after you've stepped outside your comfort zone that you begin to change, grow, and transform." -- Roy T. Bennett
What do I call original experience?
If you could trace back any feature of your present model of experiencing yourself and your life -- at one point of your past you would face the moment when you experienced it for the first time.
It's like ever since then it was merely coming in slightly different form and intensity, but still recognizable under the scope of your being honest to yourself. Every attitude, emotion, intellectual taste, belief, carries the seed of something that we, for the first time, experienced as very young.
I have no intention of spoiling your mood here, but if it happens, it may be the result of your realization how we have spent all these years basically only reaffirming something, not evolving our life at all.
As if having subscribed to a sameness and slaving to the security of its predictability -- even being proud of our intimate "integrity" which defines us and gives us a reliable character in the eyes of herd we call humankind.
After spending a creative childhood as little sponges that didn't mind junking old information of yesterday for something new and more promising, we stopped, as if suddenly "satisfied" with what we have learned.
Or, was learning about ourselves and life making us more scared than satisfied -- resulting with that satiation? Really, why did we stop? Are we really deceiving ourselves with something like "maturity" -- not seeing how depression, or boredom, or anger at 60 is but a clone of that original experience at 5 or 7?
Health, happiness, and the end of sense of separation are all results of living consciously in here and now, where we insist on overriding the habitual with our conscious choice.
When it's about health, by doing that, we signal our "good" genes and allow their expression, which affects production of proteins which then orchestrate a renaissance of health and vitality in us.
On the other hand, by experiencing our habitual selves we are allowing our bodies to act as our minds with all energies of turbulent survivalism accumulated and trapped in tissues and dictating how we think, feel, what we are prone to believing, and how we process our reality, inner and outer.
The same old crap being continuously reactivated and luring us into a finite identity where we helplessly say "Well, these are the cards I've been dealt". The most of it being so nicely listed down in our doctor's records of "who" we are biologically.
Creating original experiences means living beyond ourselves, being proactive instead of reactive, feeling present at the cause, not at the end of the receiving line. That's when life becomes an adventure and a passion, not something merely "happening to us".
Self-Evolving Reserved for Childhood Only
"Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself." -- Rumi
Indeed, why did we allow ourselves, not only as individuals but also as a race, to follow same patterns of experiencing -- even upon realizing how they were hurting us? And here I mean most of our unholy history repeating itself with just a different concrete aspects of arrogance, greed, violence, territoriality, hunger for a status, misery, deceit -- all crowned with the same tribal fetishism of those more primitive times.
Did you ever stop to ask yourself why our political ideologies never went past republican and democrat -- as if we were unable to invent something that would work without this pathetic circus of antagonism resembling a political civil war?
Let us not be shocked by a simple assertion how we, as kids, were more intelligent than we are as adults -- if intelligence still means an ability to solve problems, to outgrow the previous limitations, to explore and to keep becoming instead of just being and imitating ourselves-of-yesteryear.
I am not talking about solving problems in fields of technological progress, but those which are closer to our most basic values like happiness, love, peaceful and supportive coexistence, health, and spiritual expression. In these areas we seem to have become more and more proficient at creating problems than at solving them.
And you know it's true, it's not that I am making it all up after having eaten something disagreeable which put me in a morbid mood with a wish proving the old adage of "misery looking for a company".
My Gypsy Mind
"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that's all." -- Oscar Wilde
Long before I became a serious student and practitioner following the giants in the science applied to quality of life -- not some New Agers, although sometimes called that by skeptics -- notably Dr. Joe Dispenza, Dr. Bruce Lipton, Gregg Braden, and those alike, I spent my life creating original experiences. So, my own past makes me qualified to write on this particular theme.
Let some simple facts serve as proofs of my mind's "gypsy" nature. In my (almost) 75 trips around the Sun I have lived at some 20 addresses, from those in my native Croatia, to Macedonia, Austria, Canada, California, Oregon -- ending up (?) back in Canada.
I got little diplomas in general art, psychotherapy, and yes, something like machining that had nothing to do with the other two -- having read over thousand books on human nature in some dozen different approaches. Never satisfied with what I "knew", learning to ask smart questions rather than showing off with smart answers, and adding to that mind-style some disciplines and practices to fine-tune my instrument of processing reality.
As a teenager I would wake up in the middle of hot summer night, quietly dress up, sneak out of the house and take the streetcar ride to the foothills of a mile high mountain -- to climb it to the top.
By the way, that was the same teenager who at his age of 16 wrote a little essay and titled it: "Nothing Has a Suchness Until We Give It One".
To cure my childhood fear of dark places, in my early teens I visited our huge cemetery at midnight, sat on the bench in front of someone's grave, gazed at the neon cloud of the city below, and transcended that fear into a philosophizing about life and death. I just couldn't allow myself to stay emotionally locked inside the confines of a crazy fear that would affect the computation of everything else in my emotional repertoire..
Driven from within, I couldn't stay still for long, couldn't stand the idea of having to face the verdict behind the question : Is this all there is to having a life?
It's Up to Us to Choose Between Common and Original
"I will not be a common man. I will stir the smooth sands of monotony. I don't crave security. I wish to hazard my soul to opportunity". -- Peter O' Toole
I believe in that Law of Attraction, not because I found it just "intellectually appetizing", but because I got countless proofs for its existence by observing my own life and the one of others, including the whole mankind.
A certain tenet of it is particularly relevant to the title of this article -- the fact that we keep attracting more of the same in life, unless we change something inside.
More precisely, as long as something is on a level of original experience, it unfolds into its benefits, because it touches the quantum field of infinite possibilities. But, as it becomes an "old news", it slips into realm of Newtonian causality, perpetuating itself and merely re-generating its different aspects. In terms of physics, we become run by chemistry, not by consciousness and vibration.
For example, I kept beating my father-in-law at a card game right after he taught me how to play it. I kept getting ridiculously good cards which were superior to his expertise.
Hey, don't they call it "beginner's luck".
Years later when my daughter took me to casino on my birthday and gave me my birthday present in form of some money to play with -- I instantly won several hundred bucks. Fast-forward some decades, while in Las Vegas and thinking that the luck might repeat itself, of course, Lady Luck made a fool of me.
Isn't it true that anything good in life -- as long as it's a novelty -- tends to be felt like a blessing, but depreciates greatly as the time goes by and it has become a sort of a habitual way of experiencing.
And isn't it like the life is trying to give us a message about a need to create original experiences -- in any which way possible.
New Life Is Waiting
"Maturity is when you stop complaining and making excuses, and start making changes" -- Roy T. Bennett
Now, for my final words, I am not suggesting a change in life style -- providing that it's been working for you -- just in mind-style, in case it hasn't. Namely, the quantum field is always catering to our dominant thoughts, emotions, beliefs, and attitudes, and if we consciously choose to override our pissed disposition with gratitude, it is bound to serve us REASONS for being grateful.
Thus, you don't have to do anything in my style in order to create original experiences -- like changing addresses, countries, jobs, friends -- just for sake of doing something different. Your new frame of mind will make the whole difference, which will trigger manifestation of changes in your circumstances of living.
It's still a big mystery how exactly we are receiving those blessings from the quantum field. We don't have to understand it in order to apply it. After all, nobody knows what electricity is -- we just like calling it "energy" because we have names for everything what we do know and what we don't. And yet, without understanding it, we can use it to cook a dinner, or to electrocute ourselves.
The same is true about the quantum field. Somehow, by utilizing our imagination, our thoughts, emotions, beliefs, and attitudes for original experiences, we trigger manifesting the material equivalent in our life.
Looking around us now, we can see what we have been choosing so far -- consciously or unconsciously. It's up to us alone what we will be choosing from now on.
Will it be the familiar sameness -- or a brave surrender to the temporary- unfamiliar?
© 2019 Val Karas