Living with the herpes virus
I have what?!!!!!
When I was first diagnosed with Herpes, I felt like somebody had just told me my mother was dead. A piece of me died. Part of me wished that I had never found out. After all, this is the type of stuff that happens to everyone else,not me...right? I asked the doctor if they could tell me how long I had it. I needed to know exactly whose car windows I needed to bust out. They said they had no way of telling me that and that I could have had it for years without any symptoms. How sneaky is that? The following information was obtained from the Centers for disease control &prevention website:
"How common is genital herpes?
Results of a nationally representative study show that genital herpes infection is common in the United States. Nationwide, 16.2%, or about one out of six, people 14 to 49 years of age have genital HSV-2 infection. Over the past decade, the percentage of Americans with genital herpes infection in the U.S. has remained stable.
Genital HSV-2 infection is more common in women (approximately one out of five women 14 to 49 years of age) than in men (about one out of nine men 14 to 49 years of age). Transmission from an infected male to his female partner is more likely than from an infected female to her male partner. "
Of course I was curious to know how this little invader looked. So I googled images. Bad move. I saw all types of crazy images. I felt so disgusting. I cried all day everyday for the longest time. I had no one to talk to. I was embarrased. I felt alone. Then I got mad at myself. I should have been more careful. Then I thought as long as I wore a condom, and stayed on my meds I wouldn't have to tell anyone. But truth be told, while condoms reduce the risk, they're not 100% risk free. As I researched I learned that the meds don't cure Herpes or protect the other person from catching it, they can stop the virus from spreading through the body and prevent future break outs. But what really smacked me in the face was when I read how stress can trigger a break out. Are you serious? Not only is everyday life stressful, but the fact that I am living with something unpleasant for the rest of my life....equals stress. Have you ever felt hopeless? That's how I felt. I desperately started researching cures. Some people say there is no cure. Others protest that there are cures the government and pharmaceutical companies don't want us to know about because they would loose money. I don't know what to think. I don't have the answers. But I feel sad alot. So i decided to use this blog to talk about my feelings about this very contagious disease and how it effects me. Please protect yourselves.
Centers for disease control & prevention
- STD Facts - Genital Herpes
Genital Herpes Fact Sheet from CDC. What is Herpes? How common is Herpes? How do people get Herpes? And more...