Release Your Inner Child
Are you suffocating your inner child?
Since I was a small child, I've dreamed of this one moment when my sole purpose would magically slap me in the face. I've played roles in my dreams of being the first female president, and the creator of 'snap your fingers; dinners done', magic trick.
Some would say I live in my head far too often. I agree to an extent. I used to spend lots of time thinking and little time doing. I want to tell you what changed my life and made me a do-er not just a thinker. I used to think about creating a website, losing weight and running a mile.
I've done all those things and continue to do more, but it took a scare of a lifetime to convince me to change. First I had to find what was holding me back. Beyond normal excuses and reasoning to make things emotionally better, there was an underlying answer.
Who holds you back? Look closely at your answer. My answer to that question use to be, "ME!" Ouch!
I played a child to my own inner dialogue. "No! You cannot do that!" No, NO NOO! Soon enough, I stopped considering if I could do the things I wanted, and resigned myself to know I could not.
Thanks internal naysayer for making things difficult!
With triglycerides over 800 and a transfer to the cardiac ICU. I got my wake up call when Dr. F told me I would die someday soon if I didn't change. The fear was overwhelming, but it changed something inside me.
This news came 4 short months after having a teratoma (monstrous tumor) and my ovary removed. Dr. B. thought I would die from that too! But, I had kicked its rear and survived. I'd survive the triglycerides killing my heart as well, but I knew it would take immediate action.
I knew I'd let myself go and weighed almost 200 lbs., nearly 65 pounds overweight. I told myself I couldn't lose weight. That was the largest hurdle of many, but one by one, I began to take control.
Like a trickle of water forming the headwaters of the mighty Mississippi River, I trickled into a raging one woman army to save my life. It was a war and I won!
Today, looking back at it all, I am painfully aware the truth hid from me my whole life. I had it in me all along, but only in a moment of despair did I stand up to myself, and begin to fight.
What changed? I'd like to tell you it was some magic pill or quick fix. Fact is, it was an epiphany after a hospital stay and a good book. The child within saw an open door and ran through it with her arms flailing in the air, screaming, "YES, YES YESSS!", and she hasn't stopped since.
Review of Homecoming: Reclaiming and Championing Your Inner Child by John Bradshaw
John Bradshaw will have you digging deep and some people may not be ready for the way this book hits home. But, I feel you can't move forward if the past is hanging on. If you're ready to find the truth behind what plagues you and release your inner child, this is the book for you.
This book has been influential in my life and I can't thank John Bradshaw enough for the freedom I now feel. I can't think of a single person I know, who couldn't use something in this book to help themselves change for the better.
The most interesting thing about reading the book was realizing my impact on other people before and after reading it. I found things I didn't even know about myself that were affecting people in my life and I didn't even realize it.
Have you told yourself you can't do something you really want or need to do? Are you going to wait for Dr. F and Dr. B. tell you, your world is coming to an end? Stand down and let your inner child shine through. Sometimes finding one small crack in the right direction is all you need to find the motivation to keep moving forward.
Is your rambunctious inner child being held down by your internal naysayer; sitting in a dark room of your mind waiting for that one chance to scream, "YES"?