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Release Your Inner Child

Updated on April 7, 2012

Are you suffocating your inner child?

Since I was a small child, I've dreamed of this one moment when my sole purpose would magically slap me in the face. I've played roles in my dreams of being the first female president, and the creator of 'snap your fingers; dinners done', magic trick.

Some would say I live in my head far too often. I agree to an extent. I used to spend lots of time thinking and little time doing. I want to tell you what changed my life and made me a do-er not just a thinker. I used to think about creating a website, losing weight and running a mile.

How I managed to run a mile!
How I managed to run a mile! | Source

I've done all those things and continue to do more, but it took a scare of a lifetime to convince me to change. First I had to find what was holding me back. Beyond normal excuses and reasoning to make things emotionally better, there was an underlying answer.

Who holds you back? Look closely at your answer. My answer to that question use to be, "ME!" Ouch!

I played a child to my own inner dialogue. "No! You cannot do that!" No, NO NOO! Soon enough, I stopped considering if I could do the things I wanted, and resigned myself to know I could not.

Thanks internal naysayer for making things difficult!

With triglycerides over 800 and a transfer to the cardiac ICU. I got my wake up call when Dr. F told me I would die someday soon if I didn't change. The fear was overwhelming, but it changed something inside me.

This news came 4 short months after having a teratoma (monstrous tumor) and my ovary removed. Dr. B. thought I would die from that too! But, I had kicked its rear and survived. I'd survive the triglycerides killing my heart as well, but I knew it would take immediate action.

I knew I'd let myself go and weighed almost 200 lbs., nearly 65 pounds overweight. I told myself I couldn't lose weight. That was the largest hurdle of many, but one by one, I began to take control.

Like a trickle of water forming the headwaters of the mighty Mississippi River, I trickled into a raging one woman army to save my life. It was a war and I won!

Today, looking back at it all, I am painfully aware the truth hid from me my whole life. I had it in me all along, but only in a moment of despair did I stand up to myself, and begin to fight.

What changed? I'd like to tell you it was some magic pill or quick fix. Fact is, it was an epiphany after a hospital stay and a good book. The child within saw an open door and ran through it with her arms flailing in the air, screaming, "YES, YES YESSS!", and she hasn't stopped since.

Release your inner child and start having fun in your life again!
Release your inner child and start having fun in your life again! | Source

Review of Homecoming: Reclaiming and Championing Your Inner Child by John Bradshaw

John Bradshaw will have you digging deep and some people may not be ready for the way this book hits home. But, I feel you can't move forward if the past is hanging on. If you're ready to find the truth behind what plagues you and release your inner child, this is the book for you.

This book has been influential in my life and I can't thank John Bradshaw enough for the freedom I now feel. I can't think of a single person I know, who couldn't use something in this book to help themselves change for the better.

The most interesting thing about reading the book was realizing my impact on other people before and after reading it. I found things I didn't even know about myself that were affecting people in my life and I didn't even realize it.

Have you told yourself you can't do something you really want or need to do? Are you going to wait for Dr. F and Dr. B. tell you, your world is coming to an end? Stand down and let your inner child shine through. Sometimes finding one small crack in the right direction is all you need to find the motivation to keep moving forward.

Is your rambunctious inner child being held down by your internal naysayer; sitting in a dark room of your mind waiting for that one chance to scream, "YES"?


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    • Sonya L Morley profile image

      Sonya L Morley 5 years ago from Edinburgh

      Brilliant, inspiring hub, well done! Thank you for writing it and for sharing it here.

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      tbipub 5 years ago from Kansas

      Wheewwwww!!!!! SNAPS SNAPS SNAPS!!!!!!Wonderful that is beyond wonderful, I love it and I related so much to that self destructive thinking but once you say enough is enough, then you best believe it's enough!!! lol!!! Keep writing you really inspired me yet again!!!!

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      Tams R 5 years ago from Missouri

      Thank you Sonya! I am glad you enjoyed my writing.

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      Tams R 5 years ago from Missouri

      Thank you tbipub!

      I've come to learn changing your thinking is the only true way to gain the change you seek. Sitting around waiting for things to be different simply does not work.

      I'm glad you were inspired by my hub. That feels awesome to know.

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      Bronwen Scott-Branagan 5 years ago from Victoria, Australia

      You're so right. They say, God helps those who help themselves. If we're going to achieve anything, we need to get up and start moving.

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      Tams R 5 years ago from Missouri

      BlossomSB,

      Thank you for commenting. That's right. Just like a baby learning to walk, they will never run if they don't take the first step.

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      BeyondMax 5 years ago from Sydney, Australia

      Such an inspiring story, Tams! But so scary, scary. I'm glad you are through with that hospital stuff!

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      Tams R 5 years ago from Missouri

      Thank you BeyondMax!

      I'm glad I made it through that ordeal as well. It just kind of struck me after reading the book - If you knew you were going to die you'd want to live so why not live until you die?

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      Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

      Oh yes Tam I can relate(not to your health problems) to finding my inner child;

      I was old before my time and feel younger now at 53 years old than I did at 23 years old.

      I have never spoken to a psychologist or counsellor;my choice;my inner child has been released slowly but surely through my writing.

      I now know who I am and that is the greatest feeling ever.

      Thanks for sharing this gem;take care Tam and I wish you a wonderful day.

      Eddy.

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      Tams R 5 years ago from Missouri

      Eddy,

      I'm glad you have your writing to help you. Sometimes I feel like my writing is so sad and negative, but truthfully it is all a way to move through the past and into the future and release my inner self.

      I know who I am and that is the most important thing. I remember being in my early 30's thinking I'd never know what I wanted in life.

      Thank you for taking time to read and comment.

      Tams

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Fascinating my friend! What a great battle you have waged, not once, not twice, but three times. I love this story and I'm going to share it with another hub friend who needs a to kick her inner negative voice to the curb! I'm proud of you and I'm proud to be your friend!

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      Tams R 5 years ago from Missouri

      Thank you Bill. Share away.

      The story of my life is to keep kicking the monsters ..well you know.

      I'm glad to have you as a friend, an educator and inspiring force in my life.

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