- Mental Health
Do you have reoccurring dreams or nightmares. I have a version of dreams that have plagued me for years. These dreams began when I was a small child and followed me into adulthood. In fact, I have two versions of dreams that seem to rotate over the years with the exception of the one I have now. I've had this dream reoccur over the last 12 years, it began after I bought my home.
As a child the dreams began when I started to feel the stress of having a learning disability frustrated me. I thought I was dumb, the teasing from other kids added to those feelings and the teachers saying I was stupid didn't help. As an adult they crop up when I am off my medications for depression, ADD and bi polar disorder. Combined with stress at home or work. Then if there is a death in my family or friend's lives, if someone is sick or seriously injured. My state of mind is usually restless or my life is unorganized.
The dreams that began in I had as a child relate to being lost and not finding my way home. In this dream, I always find myself, walking and walking. I would be going the way I took when walking home from school or so it seemed. Every time I thought I saw a familiar landmark or street yet when I reached them they would change into something I didn't remember. This caused me feel in a state of panic. I would continue and would once again reach a point where I recognized a street or landmark the excitement would creep up on me and as before when I arrived they would both change.
A different version with the same results has me flying in the sky like I was Superman. I would turn towards the area where my house was yet never was able to find it. I just kept flying, looking, flying looking and never finding my way home. Then there's one where I am on a train that would pass every city and never mentioned mine so I just kept my seat on the train looking out the window hoping to see something that looked familiar, nothing did.
The dream I have now, has me surrounded by various obstacles, I'm on the bottom floor looking up, I see words, people, colors, signs, animals and I am trying to swim up where I see the light so I can break the hold the dream has on me. It's almost as if I was high, in the middle of a acid trip or drowning and the moment I break the surface, I bolt up in bed in a pool of sweat.
I began analyzing dreams and I have learned quite a bit about the secrets that we hide away in our sub consequences. Our dreams symbolize our hopes, dreams, fears, wants and are even a reflection of our past. It's obvious that those dreams of being lost is my fear of being overlooked by others, people thinking less of me and in fact, causing me to think I have failed, of not being in control of my life. There are quite a few books out there and information on line about the symbolism of our dreams, what specific words might mean.
I initially became interested in dreams and their significance when I took a psychology class years ago. Our teacher asked us to write down one of the dreams we had between that class and the next. At the time I was in a relationship and wasn't sure where it was going because I kept getting mixed signals. During that week I had a lost dream and felt this was a symbol of my relationship because I was lost in my feelings, not knowing what I wanted to do, stay with my boyfriend or move on. My teacher agreed that it seemed to believe it was my sub consequences telling me it was time to find myself, let go and move on.
While working this hub I am once again in awe of the human mind, how we think, react, behave, we processes our thoughts and react. The fact that our sub consequence buries the memories we choose not to face and yet our dreams may relate to others things we may not even be aware of. Our mind is more complicated that we ever knew or will ever know.