- Mental Health
Scenery, Vision, and Outlook...Lots of Things Have Changed
Maybe some of you have noticed... maybe you haven't. It's been a while since I've posted a hub or shared anything at all. Maybe you missed me, maybe you didn't, but it's fine by me either way.
Being gone has given me time to think about what's next. Allow me to update you on what's been going on with me.
Columbus or Bust!
Exactly a year ago I decided to head north and hit the big city. Moving to a largely populated area when you have lived in the middle of nowhere all your life is a bit of a shock to say the least. Now technically I don't live IN the city, because that would be crazy... I live just outside the city in a part of the city that is also a city. Are you confused yet? I believe it's considered an annex of Columbus or something to that effect, but if you want to be technical it turns into Columbus two miles down the road.
Moving to such a large area really can cause a bit of culture shock to the senses, but all in all it's nice here. Trying to adjust to such a huge change in your surroundings can be difficult. Sometimes you just have to try your best to pull yourself together and take that all important first step.
Even after being here a year I am not 100% comfortable, and that's okay. Don't let the stress of being in a new area get you down. Take your time to look online and see what is in your area. Try to find something that interests you and check out transportation systems to see about travel. Maybe check out the local hot spots or historical sections of town on a day when you have nothing better to do. If that's not your thing maybe hit up the local library or the park.
What do you do if you suck at directions or you aren't confident enough to roam around endlessly? Make a friend. Say hi to your neighbors once in a while, ask them what they like to do. Making a friend is always a good idea.
Take a walk and enjoy the scenery...
I Can See Clearly Now.... or not
So apparently I have terrible vision. The past year I have spent a large chunk of my time at the eye doctors. "The eye doctors?" you say, with a quizzical expression upon your face. Yes, the eye doctors. Where most normal people visit the the eye doctors once every 1-2 years, I have been 14 times in the past year. "FOURTEEN?!" you say, alarmed. Yes, fourteen. After 8 eye exams it's starting to become comical really. I have been to an ophthalmologist twice, as well. I'm sure it's only the beginning.
Out of this whole experience I have learned a few things. One, I'm legally blind without correction, or without my glasses on. Two, I have an abnormal shaped astigmatism. And Three, I was informed I have Pseudotumor Cerebri. The idea of possibly receiving lumbar punctures every month for the entirety of my life or possibly losing my vision is a scary thought, but they are the extremes of the situation. The ophthalmologist assured me it wasn't emergency status yet, but to make sure I get it taken care of asap.
I won't really go into much more detail, but pretty much it's causing the dizziness, constant migraines, vision blackouts and all the other fun stuff that has been happening. I won't really know much more until after I see the Neuro-ophthalmologist though...no need to panic.
What I really learned though is sometimes you have to learn to find your coping mechanism. You have to push aside all the bad feelings that are being caused by bad things and learn to find the good in a situation. That won't always be easy, but you can't grieve for yourself forever. Sometimes you just have to let go and give yourself up to whatever higher power you believe in ( if you do), and just relax for a few minutes. Finding yourself stressing about things constantly that you have no control over will only cause chaos in your already stressful life. Sit and enjoy a cup of tea outside in the sun, curl up with a pet and just enjoy your time together, take a walk or just stop and smell the roses...literally. Sometimes you just have to remember you are human, life is short, and you shouldn't take anything for granted.
Which fork in the road will you take?
Sometimes you have to embrace change in order to really be happy. Sometimes you will lose people from your life, sometimes you will gain some new friends and sometimes you move to a new place, but if you don't accept and embrace those changes you make you will always feel like you regret them. Making major changes in your life can be jarring, but sometimes you have to shake your foundation to the core to get out of that slump you are in. Embrace your new life, embrace the smell of the flowers floating through your window on the back of a warm breeze and embrace the changes you make for every fork in the road leads you somewhere new, you just have to take that first step.