Self-Talk: Getting Chatty With Yourself
I wonder if you talk to yourself. If so, where do you draw the line? Is it appropriate to dialogue with one's self? With cellular earpieces available, it may be difficult to differentiate between a true self talker and a chatty telephonist. At a closer glance, I notice that you posses no cellular device and am intrigued into the depth of your conversation. I admit, I find your behavior a bit peculiar and perhaps insightful into some lacking mental faculty. I've been wrong before, naturally therefore, I pursue a bit of knowledge, however topical, on the subject.
Don't get me wrong, I speak with myself, I am my harshest critic and my best friend. I give myself pep-talks and provide encouraging words when necessary, I am even guilty to a lesser extent of being sharp with myself. I seldom ask myself audible questions and almost never provide an answer. That's where I draw the line. I am fortunate enough to have people in my life, who listen to me and give honest critiques or instructions. I bask not in pity nor sympathy because they are a waste of my precious emotions. The only time you may perceive my self talk is if you should hear me rhyming. I also put my ideas on paper, so I can organize them externally.
Self talk has been demonized by pop-culture through strange and deranged characters on film and in literature that use it as a primary mode of communication. Don Quixote's adventures transcend dreams, and dimensions. The hero's loose interpretation of reality is coupled with frequent self-talk, creating a correlation between audible personal communication and jousting with wind-mills. Certainly not "normal" activity. In Edgar Allen Poe's A Tale Tell Heart, the narrator tries to convince the reader and himself of his sanity. His guilt for killing the old man manifests from beyond his cerebral torture into an audible heartbeat beneath the floor board and ultimately his demise. His descent into madness suggests such thoughts accompany a deep internal conflict. Finally, J.R.R. Tolkien's character Gollum, in the saga The Lord of The Rings, is an excessive self-talker. Being isolated in a cave for more than five centuries, and obsessively protecting his "precious" ring leave the poor creature hopelessly mad. These examples lead one to believe that self-talk is an indication of some mental deficiency.
Some psychologist suggest however, that intrapersonal communication is natural and healthy. Destructive ideas may be internalized and projected in the form of negative self-talk, which is unhealthy. These psychologists find pep-talks and even self dialogue appropriate behavior. I've never had an imaginary friend and am a bit uncomfortable answering my own questions, especially audibly. I may be afraid of posing a question and receiving an answer from some repressed and unfamiliar part of myself. Is self-talk a bit too close to having a split-personality? Yes, yes it is, if you ask me.
P.S. Wilkinson IV