Self Harm. What Is Self Harming? Part One.
Self-harming behaviours can refer to a wide range of behaviours such as drug use or drug abuse, smoking, starving, (anorexia), bingeing, vomiting after meals, (bulimia), compulsive eating, over exercising, excessive alcohol intake, unprotected sex, risky behaviours such as fast driving, staying in abusive situations or not taking care of oneself. For the purpose of this paper, self-harm refers to behaviours that people do to themselves, in a deliberate and usually hidden way.
I am a survivor of sexual and physical abuse. Although I do not self-harm now, I self-harmed to deal with the extreme emotional distress and sheer frustration I often felt. Hurting myself would shift my intense emotional pain to a physical pain, a pain I could cope with, knew how to cope with.
Self harm can include: Cutting, burning, scalding, banging or scratching ones own body, hair pulling and ingesting toxic substances or objects.
Self-harming is an expression of distress. It is an act done to oneself, by oneself, with the intention of helping oneself rather than killing oneself. Damage is done to the body as an attempt to preserve the integrity of the mind. Self harm is a way of expressing and coping with emotional distress and the intent is to make life more bearable. It is a way of communicating what cannot easily be verbalised. In essence, self-injury is the act of attempting to alter a mood state by inflicting physical harm serious enough to cause tissue damage to one's own body.
Self-harmers are often misunderstood and it is often thought that they must be suicidal, yet we often find that self-harm is about staying alive. Although there is a relationship between self-harm and suicide, and some self-harmers do go on to commit suicide because of their need to escape severe emotional distress, suicide may not have been the intention. The following definitions show that:
"Self-injury is a compulsion or impulse to inflict physical wounds on one's own body, motivated by a need to cope with unbearable psychological distress or regain a sense of emotional balance. The act is usually carried out without suicidal or decorative intent". Sutton (2005)
"While self-injury is usually done to help a person cope and get through a difficult situation (a life sustaining behaviour) suicide is performed as a way of ending life". Sutton (2005)
Self-harm is about exchanging unbearable emotional pain with bearable physical pain.
Why do young people self-harm
It is important to recognise that self-harm is a symptom of underlying mental or emotional distress. Research shows that young people who self-harm have often endured extremely traumatic or stressful life situations and for many there may be multiple triggers, rather than on significant change or event in their lives that leads to them self-harming.
Factors that can lead to self-harm can include, feeling isolated and unsupported, academic pressures, suicide or self-harm by someone close to the young person, family problems including divorce and separation, being bullied or rejected by peers, low self-esteem, sexual, physical or emotional abuse, neglect or deprivation, losing someone close, being pressured into self-harming by friends who do the same, being homeless, being unemployed and having no money, being pregnant or being alone with a baby, fear and shame about sexuality, racial harassment and oppression.
Sutton J. (2005) Healing the hurt within. 2nd edit.
Learn To Love Yourself
I stopped self harming many years ago. How? I learnt to love myself.
When I was harming myself, I did not love myself. I had no idea how to love myself, to care for myself and find ways to deal with my inner turmoil. I had to learn.You can learn too.
I self harmed because I felt worthless, not good enough, ugly, stupid, unloved and other reasons. My reasons were my negative limiting beliefs about myself and the world around me. I realised that most of my inner negativity and my reality was a result of these beliefs I had of myself.
Learn about your negative limiting beliefs and how they affect you. Make a list of your negative beliefs. Here are a couple of examples from my negative beliefs list.
I am not worthy.
I am stupid.
I am ugly.
I am ....................
Make a list of the positive beliefs you would like to have about yourself and life. Imagine how you would feel if you believed a new belief. My new beliefs,
I am worthy.
I am accepted.
I am loved.
It has been proven that a belief can be changed by repetition. By repeating your new belief to yourself, first thing in the morning and last thing at night, and as much as possible in between, you will eventually believe. Your life will reflect the change in belief.
Focus on your new belief every time you feel your negative belief trying to surface. You know you are in the emotion of a negative belief when you feel bad. As soon as you feel your mood changes or you feel anxiety kicking in, stop whatever you are doing. Take a deep breath and tell yourself that you are having a negative thought. When you do this your anxiety calms down and you can refocus on a better feeling thought.
If you are self harming is to learn to love yourself.
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