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Sending out an SOS/Message in a Bottle

Updated on May 4, 2012

Gone

Nobody knows...

The times are hard for sure and when they are bad, sometimes they are worse. If you have recently lost a job (within the last three years) and perhaps have become depressed from the whole affair, you may have found yourself staring at the bottom of a glass or a bottle. This in turn leads to further depression, because unfortunately even though alcohol has a temporary euphoric effect, it is also a depressant.

Been there too?

Yes, I have been there before. My choice was alcohol predominantly, but hey, when you lose yourself to that one, you tend to not discriminate against any other euphoric stimulants or behaviors and that includes sexual behaviors.

Once upon a time, we all had such innocence of thought, similar to man's best friend, the dog. Always trusting and even when hurt, returning to those who have mistreated us. The problem is, when enough mistreatment or a lack of self-esteem has reached the critical stage, we want escape and that opens us up to even more defeat, yet in the stage of self-doubt, it seems why should we care any longer.

What Was I Thinking?

and then...the guilt

Yes, the morning after and all the shame that comes around once we have sobered. We realize the harm we have done to ourselves and perhaps others. That kind of thought and guilt can have a negative impact on how you will handle not only your life, but that of your childrens too. The consuming nature of guilt was causing me to consume drink after drink and once again escape the negative thoughts. Too bad I had not realized earlier, that all I had achieved was to defer my pain and shame.

The past had caught up with me and others were becoming short in their patience with my erratic behavior. They had decided collectively to let me know how bad off I had become and now, although not then, I am thankful they did.



Hope?

Message

The real message is there is nothing in a bottle, a pill, a bed, a syringe or a pipe that will heal the part of you that has been wounded. If you feel you are missing something in your life, then you may have the best chance of overcoming whatever is in control of you right now. Sadly some will not admit or realize this til they have lost everything, perhaps even their will to live.

My story, even though it is still unraveling, has been one of triumph over addiction, but the road is still full of surprises and we must put up our guard. One addiction battle may be won to only concede the war to a addiction left unchecked. There is hope and there is a future, but you have to become an active participant in your own recovery.

My biggest ally in the war of addictive behaviors has been God. This is God the Father, God the Spirit and God the Son for me. The little faith I had has strengthened in my weakness of flesh, but as a lover of life and a celebrator of the gift therein, my purpose in this hub and my hope for you if you seek help, is that you will overcome!

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    • noturningback profile imageAUTHOR

      noturningback 

      6 years ago from Edgewater, MD. USA

      Thank you PDXKaraokeGuy, I have done really well at karaoke while drinking or so I have thought I did. This terrible condition, alcoholism, is not given as much attention as it needs.

      In a society that has condemned pretty much anything tobacco, I, for the life of me can't understand the continuance of TV ads and the like to promote this product.

      Again, thank you for the nod, and I do hope for any who fall prey to this 'social killer' to find hope and help, sooner than later.

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      Justin W Price 

      6 years ago from Juneau, Alaska

      Brilliant and inspirational writing. This is applicable to so many, even those who suffer with addictions not of a chemical variety. i also loved the way you used the reference to a bottle of booze or pills as a metaphorical message in a bottle for help. Well done and best wishes in your battle!

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      Robert aka (noturningback) 

      6 years ago

      Dee42 and Michele, your compliments are greatly appreciated.

      Thank you all for commenting and for your compassion towards others, those who have been literally ripped apart by addictions.

      Marsei, perhaps I should do just that, writing more and from my own experience.If it would help even one to overcome, I shall do just that.

      Absolutely correct rahul0324, God is our greatest ally!

      God be with you and all others who visit this hub. ?

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      Jessee R 

      6 years ago from Gurgaon, India

      In a Nut-shell: I am glad you moved out my friend with the greatest ally of man himself, God

      I have been there, smoke and booze... drained in your own and unknown vomit...

      I moved out of it with the same help... God

      Amen to your story of realization and an effort from my side by sharing it all over :)

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      Sue Pratt 

      6 years ago from New Orleans

      This hub touched me in a way few have. You have made your experience real with your words. I encourage you to write more on the subject.

      There are so many lost souls on the planet. You have a gift for writing and perhaps writing about your own experience in more detail would save someone.

      marsei

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      Michele Travis 

      6 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio

      Voted up. Wonderful message to people who need it. I pray for people, and hope more people read this hub.

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      Dee42 

      6 years ago from Beautiful Arkansas

      Ahhh, I loved the ending! It just grabs ya! So inspiring, great writing. Voted up and across.

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