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How to change your life, just enough to keep it and not take it.

Updated on September 27, 2013

I have not really experienced long term death.


Believe me you are not worth the trouble. But you are worth the Joy.

Just some random thoughts you may like. I really do not care if you like them, I care that they stir something up in you. You are better than some people. You would be boring if you never made a mistake. There really are people that just go around loving everyone. They love you. That old phrase that "time heals all wounds" does not help today. You will hurt other people if you hurt yourself.

I am not going home again.

I will die not being “home”. I will grow old and die someplace that is not meaningful. This is my life and it is meant to be such a way. But wait! That is not sad or wrong that is if I grow old and long. I really do not like "home" anymore but I will like someplace else.

One day that I love to call Won day, I almost fell off a cliff, no problem it was only 1,000 feet down.It was in the Grand Canyon. My pack straps snagged a Manzinilla bush that kept me from going over.It was a fluke and really does not matter much. Except to me it means very much. I once had cancer and they said I would die. I did not. It really does not mean that much. Except to me.

This article is not about dying it is about living. Sometimes we just have to let go of the notion that life is the final destination. While there is no real "rational reason" to think it is, there is none either to show that it is not. One of those things not provable by man. Yet!

Nice tune to shuffle into the mix

In my darkest hours I made it. After that I was blessed with this cookie monster.

Just as life is the pits it is also the cherries
Just as life is the pits it is also the cherries | Source

Yo sis and bro, been there tried that. don't you.

I been around death and I have saved lives, I have wept, and I have lost faith. My life is a bummer that I would soon end. I am right to take my life and stop causing harm and strife. Really? I don't think so.

No damn way! I am worse than you. I am more pitiful than you. But I am on fire for getting thorugh you. I just love life and must kind of brush off my shoulders and move on and help on.

You may think that you are bad and hateful and not worth existence. You are probably right to someone, but not to me. I love you. Get it? I love you.

The cliff, the bridge, the gun, the drugs and the cars are there to do you in. I am here to take you in. I am not good. But I am here for you and I have been in your spot. Help me by letting me help you.

It is really cool that there are really people out there like me that love everyone. Seriously many of us do. I don't suggest you test that notion because there is such a thing as "tough" love ;-)

Hard telling no knowing. If you can tell me what this is, I would be amazed.

Strange isn't it
Strange isn't it | Source

The point of this whole exercise called life is to live it.

If you step back and really look at things you will come to realize that it is really hard to figure out what kind of life we should lead. It easy to say: "the good life" or "a long life" or a loving life or a Holy life. And I am sorry to tell you that that is highly personal and no blanket statement covers every one. Where would Christians be without Judas. JFK nearly brought us to nuclear disaster. Who destroyed Hiroshima? And do not even read the Old Testament. Drones and water boarding creates interesting issues as to what the good and Holy life is.

So since we cannot ultimately judge we should not think of our purpose as other than to live life. That would mean -- do not end it. Yours or another's. And if the pain gets unbearable, understand you do not have to get through it all cool and great. You just have to get through it.

The job of life is to live it.


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    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      5 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Rolly you saved a mans' life. I do not speak of that one day. I speak of leaving yourself vulnerable and open to a man who needed you, knowing it could cause you great pain. You in essence gave of your life so that he may live more abundantly. Thank you

    • Rolly A Chabot profile image

      Rolly A Chabot 

      5 years ago from Alberta Canada

      Hi Ericdierker... We see it happen all around us and there are those times when the door is opened for us to be there and stop it.

      Several years ago I was in a fairly isolated place and a vehicle was sitting by the river with a hose in the back window.

      A successful business man, two children and a wife who had walked out on him. His pain had nearly ended that day.

      The blessing was I know God placed me there at the right time. He has never missed a Christmas or a Fathers Day to call and we talk on and on. He has come a long way and now knows the grace you write about.

      I love the way you write... very effective.

      Hus from Canada

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      5 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      All we can do is offer our love. All we can be is love. Love is the prevention not any one of us. And even love cannot always cure.

      Sorry for you loss. Thank you for sharing with us.

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      Mary Hyatt 

      5 years ago from Florida

      Suicide has touched my life. I wrote a Hub about Suicidal thoughts. It is a true story of a tenant I had who ended his life. I wish I could have prevented it; I still think about that experience.

      Interesting Hub, and I voted it UP.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      5 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thank you for reading. I think I just made it better. I will keep working on this one because maybe just one person reads it and helps another.

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      Adama Gidado 

      5 years ago

      This is interesting. It forced me to do some serious close reading. It also opened up a world where you wonder what is going on in some people's heads who experience these things.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      5 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      This article you could not get. It is meant for any who suffer with the horrible thoughts. This piece is for someone who might just choose hell, not you.

      I really like your response. It means I got it right. Thank you

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      5 years ago from Home Sweet Home

      i still don't get it... what are you trying to convey? But one thing for sure...don't end your life...your life belongs to GOD. You have the right to live no matter what happens. Ending your life is going to hell not heaven.


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