Taking off with Wings-Part one
I'm sticking my neck out here on this. Not sure how it's all going to work, but I love a challenge. See, I'm going to start working out, mainly because I hurt all the time, I weigh too much, yes I work, and stay on my feet all the time, but that's not same as really eating the right stuff and working out the RIGHT WAY . The thing is, you guys are going with me. Yes, I'm a little warped, but it might be interesting. Maybe I won't feel all alone.
Anyway, this is really motivating me to move forward. I am doing 2 jobs, helping my Mom and my Dad at their home with health problems, and working at the Nursing Home. Love both, but it all stresses me out, and exercising helps. I am going to try to write a journal on what I am doing. Any feedback is most appreciated.
The Pulse Oximeter, my pulse is on the right, the bigger ;98' is the oxygen in my blood. This was AFTER the work out.
Tuesday morning, June 5th,2012
This was after my workout.
Well this really sucks! I mean really, working out with pain in my knees. Where is the Ibuprofen? Then I'm afraid THAT will eat my liver up. Now, 15 minutes have passed and I'm sick to my stomach. Uh!
Where's the cheese with my wine? I did almost 1600 steps, like in around 20 minutes, not sure, just kept walking and looking at my pictures. Where you ZONE out and GAZE at a cool or pretty painting,well, that's what I do. I was going to buy some new ones, but too broke, already had these. Having some great music helps. But I'm a perfectionist so the 'treadmill playlist' needs more editing.
I don't trust the Pulse reader on my treadmill either because it's been awhile since I have been on the DREDMILL, so I ran and got my handy Pulse Ox from work, sure enough, it was different than my machine. It cost around 40 bucks, I really like it.
My feet and my two dogs.
I'm really sweating this time too. Plus here I am drinking my bottles of water (nothing in it- freakin' hooked on crystal light and the Mio stuff, I took all the yummy Mango-tea-junk and put all of them in it,so I wont be tempted. I think it was adding to my Gut!) ha but here I am just burning up....wonder why. Ever heard Pigs in a Blanket? Well, here are some Dogs in a blanket on my lap! I love my babies. Actually, this seems to help, it's my own sweat lodge. Ha.
My husband really supports me, but I get stuff on the sly. and I talk myself into this
I deserve it thing' so I stop by the MacDonald's and bought me the Frappe Mocha, large please.That is heaven in a cup,also a million calories.
He asked me if I wanted pork chops and baked potatoes for supper I said “No, honey, I got to clean out my cupboard." That's an inside joke. If ya eat a big Mac, it will stay in your cupboard, and STAY and STAY. He said just a minute ago that all he wanted to do is make me happy and take care of me. I'm lucky, that I have such a good man,but also past 200 lb mark.What can I do? i wonder if there is such a thing as a enabler but with food?
I had 3 bites of wonderful pork chop and tomato soup and a orange and 4 whole wheat crackers, and I was full. But I felt guilty for not eating his food.
** As I edit this, it is 9:55 pm and I'm hungry!**
My one pound wrist weights
I know this is backwards, and it is,but I had this wrote down like this, so here it goes.
Yesterday was okay, worked out twice. First around 6:45 am( before my husband came home,he works at night, need privacy). Then again at 6:00 pm. Now that was a RUFF work out. It was scary, I got in the floor, which took some skill, and did some crunches, with my wrist strap-on weights that weigh only a pound, but when you try to walk for 30 minutes, I can tell that they help my tone my arms. I hate those 0'flabby arms, when you wave,you stop, your arms still are moving.
- We are like angels with just one wing. We can only fly by embracing each other-by Acoustic Soul
See, I used to work out a long time ago, lost 50+ pounds. So here I am, big again and I hate it. I don't ever look at myself unless I have too, I can't stand it. Even when I go cash my check at the bank, there are big glass doors. I always look down from the reflection.
That's just how it is for me.
There was something that was interesting that happened to me, I tend to seek out OMENS... Just little things, life are a learning process, and I find solitude that there is guardian angels that are guiding me. I need all the help I can get.
Anyway, I had worked out, and right then at the same moment I'm thinking; ' this is stupid, why do this, it's all useless';
I knocked down a business card as I was 'trying' to some pushups on the bath tub( yeah crazy,right?). I keep business cards up in a trim of paneling by the tub, there is like 6 cards up there. The one I knocked down was the 'Diet Center' card. In my mind,it was too ironic plus all the gals at work joined Diet Center and lost a lot of weight, they wanted me to join with them, I felt it wasn't for me. When the card fell to the floor, I felt better of what I was doing just then, I was accomplishing something. I grinned. Now to me, THAT was an omen.
Goals for next week
Buy some scales to weigh myself
Do some yard work (for sunshine)
Think of some yummy healthy snacks.