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The Boy Teacher and the Father Student 12 (Home From School Early. Parkland Shooting)

Updated on February 14, 2018
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Holding degrees in philosophy and Law. Formal studies or certificates or degrees in business, theology, insurance and security. Ex-preacher.

Need To Hold

2 thousand miles away but I have to get my boy early.
2 thousand miles away but I have to get my boy early. | Source

The Craziest Thing

I have to go get the boy early from school. It makes no sense at all. I just need to hold him. I need him to be safe with me. A school shooting almost a continent away. Praying is just not cutting the pie for me. I will just assume he will not know what is wrong with dad. I will assume he knows nothing of the tragedy in Florida. We will be consumed by the fun of school today and all the stuff he learned or did with his buddies and girl friends.We have a little rain today. We will jump in puddles and wash our face looking up at the sky.

We will sing a song or two and we will do our tap dancing. Dinner will be great tonight. And yes he will get extra dessert. We will brush our teeth and go to bed early and giggle away. But when I put him in his bed I will just lay there and hear his breathing and be comforted by the life that lays ahead for him. Reading a story or three will take on new meaning. Holding his hand will be a special delivery of love.

I will not sleep much. I will stay up and look at drawings of his and other art and notes. I will cherish his Legos and smell his clothes.

I will weap.

Now it is time to go get him. Let us see what lessons he can teach us about an abundant life without knowing horror.


The Day The Music Died

What Was I Thinking?

Are we crazy to bring a child here?
Are we crazy to bring a child here? | Source

So Do You Feel Safe?

F: Son do you feel safe at school?

B: Always, except when we do fire drills.

F: Have you ever felt scared at school?

B: No, we have all the adults to take care of us.

F: Why do you feel unsafe when you do fire drills?

B: I don't know, maybe because a fire is scary.

F: Do you know why I picked you up early?

B: No but you sure hugged me tight.

F: When you talked to mom on the phone was she upset I picked you up early?

B: No dad she sounded happy we were home and playing in the rain. But I do not get it, she usually gets upset when we play out in the rain. Seemed like she was happy we were home.

F: Sorry son, I hope you feel safe here at home with me.

B: Dad you are asking silly questions, are you OK?

F: No I am not, I hope that is OK for you.

B: You just make we wonder what is going on in that tiny little brain of yours.

F: Hey that is my line!

B: Give me another hug, you seem like you need it.

F: Ten four and roger on that my little soldier.

F: Hey buddy do you mind if I keep secrets from you?

B: Dad I do not want to hear bad stuff, especially when I have candy to eat on Valentine's day.

F: So life just boils down to how much candy you have?

B: Not always but for today yes.

Worry, Worry and More Worry. I Can't Help It.

One Second is Too Much To Miss

We get to chose our roads, I sure as hell hope I pick the right one.
We get to chose our roads, I sure as hell hope I pick the right one. | Source

Dad Are You Going Away Again?

F: Son why are you getting all worried?

B: Because of you dad.

F: What do you mean?

B: When your eyes get all red like that it means you are crying but you are a tough guy so when you cry it means something bad happened.

F: Do you know why we do not have live TV?

B: All my friends do and they tell me bad stuff that happens. Really dad it is yucky, I do not want to see it.

F: Reporting truth is important.

B: My teacher Ms. Nguyen told me there are bad truths.

F: We have each other and that is the natural absolute truth.

B: But what if we didn't anymore?

F: Maybe I am not strong enough for that.

B: I am dad.

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    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      8 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thank you much Hari. It is always good to hear from you.

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      Hari Prasad S 

      8 months ago from Bangalore

      Eric.

      The conversation is so good. It is full of wisdom and wonder.

      - hari

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      8 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      You and me both Frank. I am lucky to have children who keep me in line.

    • Frank Atanacio profile image

      Frank Atanacio 

      8 months ago from Shelton

      You know Eric I keep reading and I just keep tripping over basic fundamentals.. I really find this series helpful... bless you

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      9 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Mr. Hutchison it always makes me smile to hear from you and then I buckle down to your message and it always gives me some light.

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      manatita44 

      9 months ago from london

      Your full introduction was a really fine piece of writing and flowed easily as fine pieces of writing do.

      The engagement with your son was especially sweet, cute, charming ... for me today. The veiled message -intended or not intended - was necessary. We are needed more than we sometimes think and yes, there are a lot of good souls out there. Peace!

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      9 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Hari I know just what you mean. I gave up work for consulting and I do not have live TV.

      I know what is going on but is because I check in for headlines and then run away.

    • shprd74 profile image

      Hari Prasad S 

      9 months ago from Bangalore

      Empathy is missing in our people, like nutrition in our food. Everything is polluted.

      We are getting secluded everyday by our own society by these acts of violence.

      - hari

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      9 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Linda there was something of a surprise. You know that a 7 year old boy does not want to hold hands with dad. Fair enough. Independence comes in small increments.

      But yesterday we held hands a bit. In second grade his hands are the same size as his mom's. Each day is precious.

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      Linda Lum 

      9 months ago from Washington State, USA

      Oh my goodness Eric. My girls were in high school when the Columbine tragedy occurred. I can honestly say that since that day we each hug each other when we say goodbye. You never know if that time will be the last.

      Life is so precious, and can change in literally, a heart beat.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      9 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Bill I hope and pray for victims. I imagine it touches you very deeply after teaching for years.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      9 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Thank you Brian. We are lucky/blessed everyday I suppose. I think today I will pay more attention to the little things.

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      Bill Holland 

      9 months ago from Olympia, WA

      I could wax philosophically right now, but this hub says it all. We have love to keep us warm at night and keep the screaming banshees at bay.

    • B. Leekley profile image

      Brian Leekley 

      9 months ago from Kalamazoo, Michigan, USA

      The fundamental fact is that whatever has a beginning has an end. Sometimes the end is unexpected. Some years ago my sister lost her eldest to an accident when he was in his 30s, and it wasn't any easier for his mom than if she'd lost him at age 3. He left behind a wife and a preschool son. Hugs comfort and the walls of home and school protect, temporarily, maybe. Cherish every moment.

    • Ericdierker profile imageAUTHOR

      Eric Dierker 

      9 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      I was just talking to a buddy and he asked me how many people that I knew who have rode a horse bareback? Less than a handful that are alive. I suppose he suggested that there are a lot of new years to come.

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