The Thirty Day No Junk Food Challenge | Day Seven: Going Crazy
Well it's day seven and I haven't lost any weight, but I do now feel inordinately guilty about everything I put in my face, which is nice. Seriously though, whilst cutting junk food is a noble aim, the attention to food detail it requires does inspire a certain level of neurosis.
In discovering more about the food I eat, I've discovered that pretty much everything I eat is bad for me. Everything except the vegetables of course and though some vegetables are nice, eating a diet restricted to vegetables and meat proteins is somehow depressing. I used to think that my rice and salmon lunch was fairly nutritous and healthy, now I know it's packed with both sugar (from the additives that make the salmon taste nice) and carbs (in the rice.) I've even started feeling guilty about having a little sweet potato.
I miss sugar. I miss it so much that I cheated and had a teaspoon of nutella. (And a few pieces of milk chocolate.) I can't even begin to pretend to rationalize that away, it was cheating. I did anticipate this cheating when I started, what I didn't anticipate was how exciting it would be.
It's difficult to explain the way I felt when that chocolatey sugar hit my stomach, but I think I wouldn't be exagerrating if I called it transcendent. A weight was lifted, probably as that chocolate and sugar hit the reward centers of my brain. I felt my entire body relax.
This is the problem with junk food. It feels good, no it feels amazing. Sure, eating total rubbish to the extreme is bad for you, and it's even possible that any excess sugar at all will send you into a never ending cycle of insulin based eating and fat production but in those few moments of bliss, it's very hard to care.
I look towards the future and I wonder if a life without ice cream is a life I really want or indeed, need. Junk food is bad for you, the clue is in the title, but then again so is television and even the Internet has been blamed for rewiring our brains and making us have shorter attention spans than ever before.
Is this all one massive cop out? I'd say so. It's going to be interesting to see how this 'no junk food' challenge goes forward. Turning food into an issue might backfire I think, as I overfocus on what I eat and thereby leave myself a) hungry and b) open to temptation by merit of attention.