Til' Heaven Do Us Part
Forever and a Day....
April 16th, 2013
On this day, I lost my mother, who had been battling breast cancer on and off for the past eight years. It has been rough, but I've been getting along better than what I originally thought. The process of seeing my mom deteriorate from such a strong woman to someone who could barely walk, no longer speak. and no longer feed herself was the hardest thing in the world to me. Now that I am thinking back on this particular day and the past few months, tears are being brought to my eyes. All she cared about was me and making sure that I graduate college. Even in her last days, weighing 109 lbs and barely breathing, she found time to sass me about my grades and how I was doing in a particular class, never once speaking about how much pain she was in or how uncomfortable she was. She was a beautiful person and spirit, who was there for me no matter how much of a rebel I was. I should have listened to her more and been more respectful, but I wasn't and I have to live with that for the rest of my life. This was due to my upbringing and the environment I lived in. I was brought up a spoiled brat and always getting everything I wanted. As I reached, my teenage years, I began to rebel against both of my parents. Nonetheless, despite my attitude, my mom stuck by my side. I never brought her Christmas presents, birthday presents, took her out to eat, or anything of such nature. I was selfish and only was looking out for myself. It wasn't until right before she died I brought her a purse and an entire outfit. She never lived to wear it... Sensibly, in the state that she was in, I broke down in tears in front of her and apologized for everything I ever did and said to her even how I treated her and begged for forgiveness. She looked at me shed a tear and said she forgived me and that my mom would be okay...
Forever in Heaven (A Poem)
Dear mother, dear mother
where are thou now ?
You have missed breakfast and lunch
Nowhere in the house to be found
Im getting scared no more games
Come out of your hiding place please
I know that things will remain the same
As long as you come play with me
Im making breakfast your favorite foods
I know you do enjoy
It'll brighten up your mood
And fill you with so much joy
The sunshine peaks through the window
And dad shows me his sad face
Realization has sunken in, once again
That you are in a better place
Forever in My Heart
Jackie Michelle Hicks
March 06, 1960 - April 16, 2013
Have you suffered from a painful loss from a loved one ?
Suffering from a lost such as that of a parent is a painful and extremely difficult process to go through. I encourage anyone that is going through such a lost or a lost of anyone, should speak to family members about their feelings and the pain that they are suffering from. The best way to cope is to try to maintain a schedule of being active, instead of being alone and antisocial. This way you avoid becoming depressed and harming yourself or others. A week after losing my mother, I thought of suicide and even tried to stop eating. My family members stepped in immediately and saw to it that I didn't injure myself or others. They made sure that I ate, talked to me about my feelings, and that I stayed with someone each night after my mom's death. I hope this helps others to express who they are, what they have gone through,and what they are currently dealing with. Whether it is depression, a disease, or a dream, every voice counts.
The point of this hub was to express my feelings and emotions about my recent loss. I honestly do care and love my mother. I merely suggested that my actions and words may have showed otherwise and that I might have unintentionally previewed otherwise. I hope this helps others to share their stories about their incredible or hard lives. The creation process may be a difficult one, but with a little inspiration and motivation, it will be worth it in the end.