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Two Months of Psychosis

Updated on May 10, 2017

Two Months of Psychosis

I have been diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar Type, which is on the schizophrenia spectrum. Basically, I am both schizophrenic and bipolar.

This article will be about what it is like to be psychotic for months at a time.

While I am not psychotic continuously, I have symptoms every three or four days, which last from minutes to hours.

This is very hard to deal with, and induces extreme anxiety to the point of anxiety attacks that can last for hours.

I have been having psychotic symptoms on and off for six and a half years. I was diagnosed bipolar first, and then more recently schizoaffective. My psychiatrist is now thinking schizophrenia.

But despite what my diagnosis is, I experience psychotic symptoms. These include hallucinations, delusions, and periods of derealization. Derealization is where I become confused, can't think, and nothing seems real.

I have gone long periods of time without symptoms. This is mostly due to the fact that I take very high doses of antipsychotics. I take both Abilify and Seroquel, as well as meds for anxiety, insomnia, and depression.

But the last two months, my meds aren't working. I've tried new meds to no avail. Every 2 to 4 days I have a psychotic episode and usually a derealization episode. They normally happen on the same day. It all started when I did a specific mudra. I did the mudra, and was instantly shot into another reality. And it hasn't stopped since. I feel my chakras exploding with energy. I feel the prana trying to reach my head. So far it has only reached my throat chakra. Although I feel snaps of electricity in my seventh chakra, which hasn't opened yet.

This is what I've been dealing with for two months. I wouldn't wish this on anyone.


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