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WHO IS TOM WHITWORTH-PART-1
A TRIBUTE TO MIKE MY NEPHEW
I am writing this Hub to explain to all of you my recent lack of writing Hubs and decrease in comments on some of your hubs. My friend Susie emailed me the obituary of my nephew Mike shown below on Sunday November 21, 2010 and really threw me for a loop. The loop started a quest to find myself and just who I am and this journey continues to this day and for eternity if God sees fit to honor me, his humble servant, by selecting me to join him in Heaven above despite my unworthiness!!!!!!!!
The obituary below is Mike’s and during his life in the 1980’s he had told me he was battling a demon that I have also had to battle all my life and I offered him my help in any way possible, but unfortunately he died one year to the day of his mother’s, Maryann Koci Whitworth, my brother Kimmie’s wife’s death alone and probably still suffering.
November 19, 2010
S., age 46 of McMechen, died Friday, November 19, 2010 at home.
He was born June 25, 1964 in Glen Dale the son of the late Kenneth and Maryann Koci Whitworth.
He was a former taxi driver.
Survivors include one brother: David Whitworth of Moundsville; two nieces and one nephew.
Private services and interment will be held at the convenience of the family.
Arrangements entrusted to Grisell Funeral Home & Crematory, Moundsville
THIS CHAPTER OF MY JOURNEY
I think I know who I am and also who I was even though I have trouble remembering things that happened during parts of my life. This particular part of my journey began when my pet cat Spooky died in July of 2009 and I was devastated as chronicled in my Hub linked below.
This Hub revealed a part of the vulnerability that I have had all my life and that is anxiety/panic disorder. The hub above assuaged my pain and along with past psychotherapy made me think that I was cured from this disease.
Over the course of my life I have battled anxiety in various forms in various ways, some positive and some negative. My purpose in writing this series of hubs is to warn all of you that we all have various vulnerabilities and personal demons we fight forever and never take yours for granted like I did mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I learned an important lesson that Sunday in November that my foe never leaves me alone and I must keep my guard up as long as I live in order to function productively and I intend to try and do just that as long as I live and I hope that’s a long, long time if God is willing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MY MISTAKE LANDED ME IN THE HOSPITAL
I let my guard down and on this past Thanksgiving I landed in the hospital in the place of my birth, Glen Dale, West Virginia due to a horrid anxiety attack that convinced me I was dying of a heart attack. This is my purpose to warn all of you don’t ever take your personal demons for granted or they will return with a vengeance and bight you when your guard is down.
I let this happen to me and it was no fun at all so beware. I hope in future installment to divulge my personal struggles and both positive and negative results obtained and as of now I am battling my demon along with kicking my 45+ year addiction to cigarettes as a result of my struggle to better myself and trying to make a lemon into lemonade!!!!!!!!!!!!
TO BE CONTINUED-WITH GOD’S HELP
I want to thank all of you for assisting me in my educational quest from the beginning of my Hubbing until this moment.
If you are interested in my struggle with my demon it might help you in battling your’s so feel free to join and comment your thoughts and I’ll appreciate you feedback!!!!!!!!!!!!!