Who I Am? The Struggle for Self-Esteem.
The image in the mirror
A Biblical View of Self-Worth
Did you ever wake up wondering: Who I am? As you look in the mirror, the image staring you in the face is not the reflection you want people to see. And I am not referring to the hair standing on your head or the skin that is beginning to shrivel on your face..I am talking about the seeds supplanted deep within the heart: seeds watered by the hurts of the past: an abusive childhood; a relationship turned sour; or an educational or employment opportunity lost. Every swiping blow only adds a new seed to the desolate field within your spirit. They take root and begin to reap feelings of abandonment, anger, anxiety, depression, and defeat. Overtime, these feelings begin to crop up in the words you say and the deeds you do. You find fault in yourselves as well as others. This is not how who or what you want to be...but the battle continues its rage...you want to break free from its onslaught, but it consumes your every waking moment.
If you fall within this camp, you are not alone! Many people face the same struggles, the same battles, and sow the same seeds. Peoples identities are premised on how others perceive them: from the moment they are born till the time they take their last breath. Would it comfort you to know that even Jesus, at times, struggled with His identity. In Matthew 16:16 He asked His disciples: Who do people say I am? Isn't that interesting. Jesus, the Son of the living God, sought some sort of assurance and acceptance from those most dear to Him...His disciples. Peter, without hesitation, tells Jesus that He is Christ, the Son of the living God.
How is the pertinent to you? The answer may very well come to a shock to you. If even the Son of God had to be reassured as to His identity, what makes us think you are in different. Sometimes people forget or fail to recognize that they too were created in the image of God. They become so consumed with the opinions of others, they overlook the obvious--what does God think about me...or how does God see me.
Please know that God loves you! In fact, He loves you so much that He gave His only begotten Son so that we may become a new creation. In Matthew 6:33, Jesus teaches His listeners this one valuable lesson: To seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and these things shall be added unto you.
What things? The things that sustain us: such as the necessities of life and the things that sows good fruit for the soul. Once our self-esteem is firmly planted in the fertile ground of God's spirit, then everything will eventually fall into place. You will become that person people will trust and turn to: seek comfort and consolation; and find forgiveness and faith.
So tomorrow, when you wake up and look in the mirror, I want you to do yourself this favor...look at the image reflecting back at you and remind yourself that God loves you...and that if you believe in His Word about His Son, you are forgiven and you are free.