Why am I a cry baby...?
I know how it feel in a lot of ways not to be able to cry. I've had three friends die in a car wreck that I should have been in too. My favorite person in the world passed in front of me. So many other things that should have punched my heart into tears but no. I think its because I don't have a heart at all. Or is it because I had to see everyone else around be so much more ...more sad. I mean I loved these people so much. I wanted to be with them. I just wanted. I wanted to feel like those people who could show it with their tears. BUT There is something that we can do. We can live. We can be happy.(as hard as it sounds). It's not easy. Things happen in life that we can't stop. I couldn't cry. Everyone around me did. I felt it . The tear glands doing something but not their jobs. Someone one told me that I was OK. I've been told that I was a jerk for not crying. (that made me wanna cry), but then again, I didn't. I hated myself. Back then I did something called "go in my room and sulk over my not crying". But think about it. Mad about my not crying? There was so much out there that was really awesome. Like air. Or the life that I am still living. My Beautiful wife and wonderful kid. I think I am too manly to cry sometimes but, then I got hitched. I cried like a baby. Man I love that lady. I find that I cry because of the happy things in life. When I am sad, I can't bring myself to let go of that sadness in the way of tears. But when my son was born and I held him for the first time I cried more than he did. (I think I scared Him). I have never been so happy. I am the happiest guy around. And I cry alot. Maybe instead of crying over the sad and bad stuff we all could just cry over the good stuff. But Its not that easy for everyone. But there are some things that I have learned to do when I can't cry about bad stuff. I read the comics , I ride a bike, Call someone that I know is a friend of family member. Those are all given I know, but If there is something that you do to laugh or something you love to do like writing, taking pictures, or just sitting in a park checking out all the happenings. Everyone has a heart but not all of us know how it works. Tears don't have to cry. It's just the way we are...............or is it? There are some many people out there are just like you and me. and that's cool 'cause that means that those guys feel the same as we do. And they have the same feelings and question. And their around us. You may not know it by the looks of other but we are out there............I'm one( when happy stuff happens) not bad stuff. It's cool. Look up, down and side to side. People are crying everywhere...just about different things.