My life itself has been a difficult experience. There are some things that I don't care to explain in the manner you ask but will still tell you about them
When I was 14 I was raped by a Church brother. I hope you realize that this is an experience that I cannot elaborate on much. I have tried to put this behind me and the only way I could have done that was to forgive the person who did it and heal myself by knowing it was not my fault.
When I was 27 I was diagnosed with severe endometriosis and had to have a hysterectomy at age 29. This was a very devastating experience because I had no children and was looking forward to a life with kids. This experience led to many years of depression, several suicide attempts. The last attempt was December 15, 2005. That last attempt was the most serious as I really hated the fact that I did not die. The other attempts before, I didn't seem to mind not dying I just got on with life. By the time I attempted suicide that last time My depression had obviously taken hold of my entire existence, I could see no positive in life. I hate life and everything in it.
After the last suicide attempt I tried to get on with life. I got a job and it turned out to be a living nightmare. Somewhere inside me I knew I wanted to live so I did not try to take my life again, but I definitely got worse some how as I was thrown into a nervous breakdown, where I did not want to leave my apartment, I started seeing and hearing things. I have a friend who was there all the way for he. He helped me come out of that state. If it were not for this friend, I would have ended up in an asylum. It took me another two to three years to reach a point where I could start seeing the positive in live again.
One of the most positive things I could have done for me was resume my martial arts training which helped make me mentally stronger. It also made me physically strong and I lost a few pounds. I really looked good on the outside and felt really good on the inside.
To tell you anything else would be reveal too much.
I don't know why you ask these questions, but if I see my story any where else other than my own hub I will really take action.