I used to got very depressed. As a teenager, as an adolescent. When I was overwhelmed by my first maniacal episode, I thought this was the perfect answer to my prayers.
I felt ecstacy running through my veins without having taken any drugs at all. So much energy and creativity. I thought I was saved untill my brains needed to go back to depression. A moment of silence and non existence. Years I should say.
Bipolar Disorder I had. Diagnosed with it in 1996. Thank God were at 2012! I'm doing very well and I'm very happy. Anyone in the middle of a depression...I hope you'll get out of it as soon as possible though I know a depression takes time. Too much time.