I'm waiting to discover a way in which i can use my true potential. The though of such a possibility as happiness in distant future is what makes me get up, but i definitely don't have any specific motivation or inspiration. Just myself and i'll be glad when that changes.
On the other hand, this does not make me completely lost, or even sad. I'm just not happy because i have too many ideas to fulfill, too many ideas that aim too high for me to achieve. Did i say i wasn't happy? Well, that's not completely true either, the ability to have ideas makes me both happy and sad, which by itself makes me happy, in a way probably hard to perceive by other people.