If you are trying to get over your past, then you must regret it? If so then obviously you have repented from that way, if it is then in your past? God forgives you even before you forgive yourself.
Take this story:
Two kids playing in the yard together while the mother is watching them from her kitchen window as she washes the dishes.
One of the kids has a slingshot.
The one with the slingshot shoots up at the tree.
Then suddenly a bird falls to the ground dead.
The other child says to the one with the slingshot, lets bury it and mom won't know.
So they bury it and go on with their life, but the child who accidently shot the bird feels bad inside.
All the while the mother saw the entire thing.
Later the mother tells the other child to take out the trash. Being that she has dirt on her brother she tells him "take out the trash for me or I am going to tell on you"...so he does.
Next she is blackmailing him to clean her room, and clean of the table, do her chores. Finally the little boy cannot take it any longer and runs to confess to him mom in tears.
And she said, I know you did this, I saw you do it. I was waiting for you to come to me and tell me, I was waiting to see if you were sorry.
GOD forgives us before we can even begin to forgive ourselves. Remember that. Your past is the past, your future is a blank canvas that you can fill with whatever you like. Make it beautiful! Because thats what GOD wants you to do.
And my answer would be NO to hypnotism, its leaves your mind TOO OPEN for suggestion and although everyone has a right to their own opinion, I believe that evil does exist and I wouldn't want my mind to be open for ANYTHING to get into it - JJ