Nobody will want to date me
Tyra Banks talks with Michelle Landry about her herpes
The Doctors talk about herpes on one of their shows
The Doctors continued....
Will I ever find true love again?
It's already bad enough that I have this virus that I can't get rid of. But what's even worse is how easily it can be spread. I recently met a guy that was really cool and fun to talk to. I'll call him "Mark" I really hate meeting new people because I know eventually I will have to tell them about my condition. Some people that I told were cool and appreiciative that I had enough respect for them to tell them.
Mark had wanted me to come and visit him. His intentions were obvious. He wanted sex. I kept putting it off. I even told him when I came to visit we weren't going to have sex. But in the back of my mind I was scared. He was sexually aggresive and after a few drinks I didn't want anything to get out of hand. So I took a deep breath and told him. He asked questions, which I answered truthfully. Let's just say I didn't end up going to visit him, and I haven't heard from him since. The truth really does hurt but rejection feels worse.
I feel dirty, sad, alone (even though they say about 70-80% are infected and don't know it) I try not to think about it. I don't want to tell EVERYBODY my business and end up with NOBODY. And then I feel like if I go on one of those dating websites made for people with incurable diseases, not only am I settling for the wrong reasons but....I don't like that whole online dating thing!!!!!!! *breathe* It's just so unsettling, ya know. So many nights I pray....
"God please....please help them discover a cure or heal us."
Even through my sadness, I try to stay positive and stress free.