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Depression and anxiety are my Responsibility

Updated on September 4, 2016
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Yes, I get depressed, anxious and fearful. I am one of those who have a mental disorder, condition or illness. I prefer to call it a mental disorder, emotional condition or "this thing in my mind disturbing my life". It must be a disorder because my thoughts can get disorganized and my emotions are all over the place disrupting the way I used to be, the activities I used to enjoy and my professional life. This will be the basic explanation I would give to others.

On the other hand, a mental disorder is defined by the American Psychiatric Association(APA) as "a clinically significant behavioral or psychological syndrome or pattern that occurs in an individual and that is associated with present distress or disability or with a significantly increased risk of suffering death, pain, disability, or an important loss of freedom."

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The APA definition is the generic one we commonly get from health professionals, websites and/or books. This is the basic definition I learned when pursuing my Masters Degree to become a Therapeutic Recreation Specialist for Psychiatric Units. This definition was developed to enable Mental Health Professionals establishing basic criteria and identifying a particular mental disorder. In order to reach a diagnosis, treatment plan and and prognosis, mental health professionals use a guide known as the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM). This manual is published and modified when needed by the American Psychiatric Association.

Read more: www.minddisorders.com

Two ways to define mental disorder; one way being subjective while the other being objective.


The starting points of my mental health deterioration

Although I have experienced, as everybody does, a number of problems and bitter moments, there were specific events that contribute in the development of my anxieties, fears and confusion. The lost of my premature baby girl (2001), the sudden death of a very special friend and co-worker (2003), theft of my identity (2005), having to go to court for a period of two years, and finally, having to endure a very hostile environment in my job. I began feeling a change in the way I reacted, behaved and thought, clearly affecting my life in 2003 just when I was being successful; holding an executive position, pursuing a doctoral degree and engaging in the activities I liked. During this year to 2005, I saw myself in a constant battle to keep going. By 2006 I was not able to handle my life as I used to know it. I decided it was time to resign my position and relocate to another State. At this point I was confused of what was happening to me; I tried to look for ways to run away from everything I was feeling; I tried to search for a fast way to get better in order to start working again; I wanted at all cost to become what I was before. Little I knew, I was fighting something I was introduced to only through books, work and others with mental disorders. Through these years I looked for psychiatric and psychological help. I was lucky to find an amazing Psychiatrist who work with me from 2005 to 2007.

It is important to make clear that I had episodes of anxieties and depression since I was a child. The difference was that at this time, the episodes were strangely taking control of my life in a way I could not keep going ahead. I became overly fearful of losing love ones; afraid of trusting others; apprehensive, fill with bewilderment and confused. I became paralyzed and lost. The first years after anxiety and depression struck me hard, I began looking for ways to ease the pain and get cured by taking medications, joining depression and anxiety groups, and receiving therapies. These were supposed to be the means to return to my own self. I put myself in the hands of professionals and medications as most of us should. I kept believing that having a mental condition meant that it was acceptable to wear a label and as a result, I was a recipient for pity from myself and others.



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Educating myself; a new approach

October of 2008 was the turning point living with my mental disorder. That same month I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital. I spent eight days in a place run by many who were not professionally prepared to work in this kind of environment. Patients were allowed to sleep all day if they wanted to; the quality of group therapies was very superficial, the care in general was lower than efficient and effective for the well being of the patients. By the second day being there I realized that I was not getting the help I needed; this was not the place for me. I spent a lot of time looking around and observing the chaos, poor management and care in this place. Everything I knew and I learned trough my years of studies and career was underestimated in here. Where were the ethics, professional responsibilities and human values in this place? At one point, I determined to get out of there as soon as possible and start a new approach.

Days after being discharged from the hospital, I started the long road towards educating myself about my mental condition, its effect on me and others, and how to develop strategies to manage it. This new approach would mean working hard for my own benefit in a life style I never met before. I had to be willing to accept that: being a successful professional does not define me as a person; I have a condition that triggers other disorders, and that they are part of me; I need to embrace and accommodate my condition into all aspects in my life. Many will say that this approach is a way to give up. I have been, as many others in my situation, conforming with medical ideas or models which main goal is to remove or relieve all patient's complaints and symptoms, and send her/him back to the "functional life in society". It is the process of treating the illness and then, rehabilitate the person. I do not want this method anymore. I cannot allow myself to be the "hopeless patient waiting to see the superhuman healing doctor". I rejected the word "victim" and welcomed the word "survivor"; I will not comply with doctor's orders without understanding WHY.




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Taking responsibility for my own recovery regardless of the state of my condition

Taking responsibility for my condition has been and still is a difficult road, but an interesting one. I use health professionals and medications as outside resources, but I am an active participant in my recovery. I have planned, developed and practiced many different strategies to overcome deficiencies:

  • Reading, researching and understanding about my mental disorder.
  • Exploring everything that triggers reactions, behaviors, thoughts or fears pertaining to my conditions.
  • Acknowledging my rights as a patient and an individual fading away stigmas.
  • Accepting and embracing my condition as part of who I am, but that I am not a permanent victim... I am a survivor.
  • Adapting and coping with mental conditions that have incapacitated certain aspects of my life.
  • When appropriate, educating health professionals, family and friends about my conditions with assertiveness.
  • Learning to see myself as the only one responsible for what is going on with me; Others can be amazing resources if they approach without pity.
  • Acknowledging the existence and value of others around me.

There is a lot to be discussed and work on. We as patients, need to learn and teach. We must take advantage of the good days to be content, active and alive in order to face the bad days.

Now, in 2013, I look back and I am so proud of myself. I have found ways to be who I like to be; happy, content, doing what I like and coping with those triggers that bring up the anxieties. I learned and accept that I survive OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) which is the mayor factor for my anxieties and depression. I am happy to say that the depression has not been present…I can crush it down. I have so much to offer, I love life and I am so satisfied with what I have done in my life and what I am experiencing now.

Living with a mental disorders is not what I had in mind. Not all days are easy, but I cope. I like myself and will never turn my back for the worst. I believe; I am smart and beautiful; I am successful my own way.

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      AnnaCia 2 months ago

      Thank you all for visiting my pages.

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      KrystalD 23 months ago from Los Angeles

      AnnaCia,

      I am glad to hear you have found such a wonderful support community. That is so important! My mother is having Her own journey and I am being as supportive as possible while still taking care of myself. The more I deal with my various issues (surface), the more I discover the causes (inside). The recovery feels like a long road but day by day it's more than doable with support and a spiritual practice. I know my triggers and there are less than their used to be. My biggest struggle today is dealing with deadlines (anxiety/procrastination). I try to remember how far I have come and I work to accept myself.

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      AnnaCia 23 months ago

      KrystalD. I thank you with all my heart for your comment. I am doing good...surviving. I work few hours at a Learning Resource Center, which are groups of people who meet each other to talk, have coffee, and teach or learn from each other. The percentage of hospitalization drops significantly. These are Peer groups; run by individuals with mental conditions or dual diagnosis. No medical insurance, no psychologists, only us. I am so sorry about what happened to you and your mom. Get educated, try not to isolate a lot. Know about your rights as a patient and start knowing yourself and the triggers. Step by Step.

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      Bren Hall 2 years ago from England

      I hope you are staying strong and on top of things Anna, we women can cope with anything and just when we think we can't things change. Upvoted x

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      AnnaCia 2 years ago

      tsmog: thank you very much for the comment. Every day I learn something new and take a small step forward.

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      AnnaCia 2 years ago

      Hi KrystalD. When in darkness, I like to see what's going on asa challenge. There are a number of resources for us, but we can do our work, and be determine to get the strength to look for that balance. So proud of you and your mom. Thank you for visiting my hub.

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      AnnaCia 2 years ago

      manatita44, thank you so much for your comment. I wish I can help others who are survivors.

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Thank you for writing about yourself, AnnaCia.

      Your approach to taking responsibility seems an excellent one, as many dark shadows seemed to have come your way. You appear to be a sensitive Soul. Be as gentle to yourself as you can. This will allow inner healing to continue to flourish.

      I have many videos in my Hubs and many topics that should be of help. Things like Fortitude, Gratitude, Yoga, meditation ... still, be gentle. Never push and continue to love yourself as you are doing. Pray when you can and read some decent motivational books. You have my love and support. God bless.

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      AnnaCia 2 years ago

      Hi Flourish. Each person with mental conditions must learn to take responsibility of his/her illness by educating themselves and walking with their heads up. I do have control of my own recovery and use the resources available to me. Thanks

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      FlourishAnyway 2 years ago from USA

      It was brave of you to be so open, and I think your candor will help others. I like how you take charge of your own life rather than simply accept doctors' orders unquestioned.

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      AnnaCia 4 years ago

      Hi Richie; i really appreciate your comment. Having these types of conditions are difficult and an everyday issue to take into account. I keep growing and learning more and more. I wish you the best.

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      Richard J ONeill 4 years ago from Bangkok, Thailand

      Yes,

      We are alike in that we are both HSP and suffering from some form of mental condition, call it social anxiety, or depression, PTSD - it boils down to the same thing - we have simply lost control and need to take back the reins.

      This is our brain, our body and what has happened is we have unwittingly programmed ourselves to be this way, through a series of repeated actions, thoughts and behaviors etc.

      However, just as you are. I am also getting out and taking back my life with authority.

      Keep fighting, girl, you are so talented and creative.

      Good day to you.

      Richie

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      AnnaCia 4 years ago

      Hi agaglia. It is my believe that every illness we endure belongs to us. In order for me to understand what was and is going on with me, I had to learn, research, accept and embrace. If I do not take responsibility for my condition, I would never be able to look and ask for the resources available. Thank you so much for visiting my hub and commenting. Ill be around.

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      AnnaCia 4 years ago

      Rolly, your words are so special. Sometimes I think that by speaking the truth is what gets me in trouble. You know, at times it gets old trying to communicate with others in a truthful way, but I talk to the trees and they seem to be ok with that. I carry with me a condition I saw and was familiar with when I was a Therapist. Now is when I understand the difficult road, that at the same time, has given me the chance to rely more in God. Thanks for reading.

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      agaglia 4 years ago

      AnnaCia, you are a courageous woman - and well-educated. I too have struggled with depression. You are the first person I have read who talks about our own responsibility to heal and recover. thank you. I believe we are the key to our own health. this is an important issue.

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      Rolly A Chabot 4 years ago from Alberta Canada

      Hi Anna... speaking and writing the truth of where are in life is so very important to our healing and well being. You have written an inspiring message of hope for others, you have a gift and you use it well. Thank you for allowing us into your life.

      We all have struggled to some extent with depression and anxiety. You have had more than most could handle and I commend you for taking the steps you have to be where you are today.

      Voted up and shared and bookmarked for certain.

      Love and hugs from Canada

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      AnnaCia 4 years ago

      hawaiianodysseus, welcome to my hub. Thanks for the time and the wonderful comment. It is a long journey but the good thing is that I have the opportunity to take others with me; I can embrace others with the same conditions. I can understand better.

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      Hawaiian Odysseus 4 years ago from Southeast Washington state

      Congratulations, AnnaCia, on your road to recovery that isn't so much based or dependent upon APA standards (I am vehemently against the labeling of others as a recognized medical model) as it is upon your own journey of self-discovery. I like how you refer to yourself as a participant in and a survivor of that process. I am so impressed with the diligent effort and perseverance you demonstrated in achieving your academic milestones, all the while dealing with special challenges. Finally, I want to reinforce any notion you may have had regarding writing as an integral part of your healing. With that in mind, I look forward to being a fellow traveler with you here in the HubPages community.

      Joe

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      AnnaCia 4 years ago

      MissJamieD, I am glad you read my hub. Yes, it is very difficult to be positive in the middle of an episode. I am learning everyday to find myself while in a crisis. The process takes time and energy. I hope you are doing good.

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      MissJamieD 4 years ago from Minnes-O-ta

      I have also suffered with several different mild to severe mental conditions in my life. When you're in the middle of an "episode", it is so very difficult to be positive and have the mindset to get yourself out of the "hole". I understand that pain and I hope you are doing better today. Things always get better. I'm living proof. Thanks for this great hub:)

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      AnnaCia 4 years ago

      Spongyollama: Thank you for visiting my hub and leaving your comment. With any condition, it is imperative to get educated. How would we understand what is happening to us if we do not take time and make an effort to take command of the whole situation.

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      Jake Brannen 4 years ago from Canada

      It's very nice to see how you admit to, embrace, and work to deal with your pain. I think it's a terrible shame when people expect medication to take care of all of their emotional problems.

      I also find it immensely therapeutic to research my condition and understand exactly what is causing my distress.

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      AnnaCia 4 years ago

      Aww! you are so kind. Thank you for passing by. Your message is very well taken to do the best I can for myself.

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      Dr. Gary L. Sidley 4 years ago from Lancashire, England

      Hi AnnaCia

      Just stumbled upon your hub and I truly admire your approach to mental health problems. You are the expert in your own mental health for only you know exactly what you are thinking and feeling, and what life experiences you have had.

      My overarching message (from a mental health professional, 34 years in the business) is: "Go girl, go!"

      Best wishes

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      AnnaCia 4 years ago

      Hi DanaTeresa, I appreciate your comment a lot. Educating myself has being a great tool in order to be able to cope better when I have episodes of depression or anxiety. At least, by being proactive in my own therapy I I have less chances to be hospitalized. I also with you the best.

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      Dana Strang 4 years ago from Ohio

      My goodness you have been through a lot! So very brave of you to share it. You are so right about being proactive and educating yourself and taking responsibility for your life. Many people go through their whole life and never learn that lesson. You are wise beyond your years.... I wish you strength and health.

      See you around the hubs!

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      AnnaCia 4 years ago

      cynthtggt, thank you so much for visiting my article and leaving such an inspiring comment. I am glad you are doing a lot better. I do not really know when I would be able to say, "I am better", but I certainly can say that I understand my conditions and make sure to take care of myself. Searching and looking for the answers by myself has given me the opportunity to be able to handle episodes better. Take care

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      cynthtggt 4 years ago from New York, NY

      AnnaCia, you write beautifully and it reflects the journey of the inward self which is so important. I too was at an abusive job, involved in legal dispute and struggled with depression. I was fortunate in that I found a good doctor. Today, I am better and those years seem so distant and in the past; but what you say is so true about searching. It is finding too the balance between body and mind. In China, they call it "Tang." I am now free of depression and pain and the things that bothered me in the past I can let roll off my back. I am fairly certain today too that had I sought the balance and found it back then - sooner - I would have handled things differently. But there is always hope and so much ahead and so much to look forward to. Bless you for writing this, and sharing your search for the answer inwardly. It is so important. Looking outside for it always brings strife.

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      AnnaCia 4 years ago

      jimmy, i am so sorry you are going thru so much. Please take care of yourself and learn about what is going on in your life. It is very difficult to try being in control of something we do not even see. Be strong and plan your days. Take one step at a time.

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      jimmy 4 years ago

      hi anna. i enjoyed reading your article. you are a strong person and i wish u the best in life. i too, suffer from depression, anxiety and to top that off addiction. i am currently out of work for the 3rd time in less then a year on std trying to get my head straight and get back on track; seeing a dr 1/week and a therapist 2-3/week after a 12 day stay at an outpatient care unit that is well know in RI. again, ty for sharing that as it means a lot to us.

      jimmy

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      Mekenzie, I appreciate your words. Breaking a stigma like mental disorders takes a lot, and maybe it will never be conquered, but by strengthening survivors' education, attitude and acceptance, we will win some self-assurance. Thanks for stopping by.

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      Susan Ream 5 years ago from Michigan

      Anna, Your authenticity and intelligence is amazing. There are many who hide behind the stigma of mental illness ... you, my dear are breaking through the stigma and helping pave the way for those who are trying to cope.

      I like how you accept this as part of who you are and that you research and learn the best ways to function and fulfill your life with it's limitations and ups and downs.

      I too have struggled with depression and anxiety. NO FUN! But learning to accept that this is where I am and understand that this too will pass ... gets me by. Knowing that God loves me as I am and that He promises that He will never leave me or forsake me gives me comfort.

      May God continue to use you and the experiences you have walked through to touch peoples lives and offer hope.

      God Bless!

      Mekenzie

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      Thank you flbo. If people with mental disorders do not help themselves by learning and taking control, they will never find at least a little light in their lives. I struggle everyday, but I have more knowledge, and that helps.

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      fibo777 5 years ago

      Hi AnnaCia. I am happy that you are such a thoughtful person and do a thorough analysis of your problems. I believe that is the best way to tackle them. Nice hub. Voted up as useful. Have a nice day.

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      Lilleyth, thanks for reading my hub and commenting on it. Ill be visiting your hubs as well. Take care.

      Marsel; If my words can help at least one person who battles with a mental disorder, then my work has a real purpose. Ill be around.

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      jacqui2011, I appreciate your time to read my hub. One thing all people with mental conditions like mine should do is to make a change, to teach others and live a better life. Another aspect is not to wait for others to carry us, but to know how to ask for their hands at times.

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      Sue Pratt 5 years ago from New Orleans

      This is a wonderful article and you are very courageous.

      I believe that speaking out as you have done is so very important. There are so many of us who struggle through rough patches and it's important to know we're not alone.

      Thank you for your article.

      Marsei

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      Suzanne Sheffield 5 years ago from Mid-Atlantic

      Your hubs are very touching. Keep up the writing, it helps.

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      jacqui2011 5 years ago from Leicester, United Kingdom

      You really are a survivor and work so hard to help yourself. There is such a stigma attached to mental disorders, normally by people who don't understand the stress and depression that comes with it. More people need to be educated as it is a medical condition and deserves to be recognized. In my 46 years, I have experienced several bouts of depression. Your hub is an inspiration to others, and I include myself in this. Voted up - useful/interesting.

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      onlooker, Thank you for your words. You are very sweet. Yes, it is difficult working on controlling or coping with conditions like mine. My hope is for others to take more control of their conditions, because we cannot sit and wait for others to fix our lives for us.

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      onlooker 5 years ago

      Beautiful and useful hub AnnaCia, thank you! You are a survivor. Support from loved ones is so important. It must be difficult to be you and at the same time also control yourself from feeling the depression and anxieties. Your determination is commendable. Writing can help express and release so much. You can always write to me. Good day!

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      50 caliber. I appreciate your message a lot. To tell you the truth I am not such a strong person, but I need to survive. Survival and knowledge are aspects that keep me going. I had the need to step away from Passively accepting the decisions "mental health professionals" have made for me. Also, as a person with anxieties and depression, I have the responsibility towards the ones around me and the ones I love. There are many things I cannot do yet due to my condition (like crossing the street alone), but I am content and I play an active part in my daily life.

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      Charlie 5 years ago

      Well, now that I know more about you, I hope you enjoy my writings as well. Be well sweet woman.

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      50 Caliber 5 years ago from Arizona

      An interesting writing that you have presented, I see more indications of "strength, will, determination and a target you seem to be engaging as a goal" more than anything I would call mental illness.

      Do not all of us face this at times in life at some point?

      Are you approaching this in a complete secular manner?

      At some points in life I can identify the rail you are traveling, I need to read this several times to engage you in an intelligent manner over all. Like seeing and understanding your goal and how you measure your successes and progress.

      I find that strong willed people can assist and provide thought and action outside the box stamped normal. Then we have to evaluate them to see if they fit in our toolbox and are useful toward our goal. Do they engage us in spiritual thoughts, I find meditation a spiritual activity that foe me has lead to painful and then later to peaceful outcomes, both different in feelings and different in origination culminating in the aura that one reflects upon others.

      Again, I'll have to read this a few more times to absorb it and see if I feel things I may relate with.

      Nonetheless, I voted it up as a useful, awesm work I find quite interesting.

      Peace and Blessings on your journey,

      50/Dusty T.

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      H P Roychoudhury, thank you for your words. There are still so many things for me to face, so many, but at least I acknowledge that I live with a condition I own. I embrace myself and I with to send the message to others who are struggling.

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      H P Roychoudhury 5 years ago from Guwahati, India

      I am fascinated by your wonderful hub. Who said you are mentally disturbed. You are a genius; I salute your courage and determination. You are a rarest of rare among the persons of the Sicko who could overcome all odds and stand on her own feet. It is happenings of incidents one after another that had made you seek. It is nothing but destiny. If you believe yourself and could restore self confidence, no force on earth can undermine you. I feel proud to see you following me. Self help is the best help and restoring the self confidence is the best treatment. You feel sick as everybody had made you sick.

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      Billy, I am learning so much in a different way how to live my new life. It is amazing the good feeling of working toward a better way to face changes.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Bravo to you Anna; what a great story of courage and determination. Thank you for the invite on Facebook and I look forward to our new friendship.

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      sandra, I will be around. Thank you for your comment. Make sure to place your hub in a group if it is still orphan.

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      Sandra Busby 5 years ago from Tuscaloosa, Alabama, USA

      AnnaCia, Now I have read your inspiring hub on taking responsibility for your life. I was looking for "responsibility" in the title. What a wonderful adventure you have ahead of you. I will certainly follow your process. You were one of the first ones to welcome me to hubbing. If you find something helpful in my hubs, I will be pleased. Sandra Busby

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      Jasper. Thanks for reading the hub. I had to learn modifying my path of thought on defining myself the hard way. But every day gets better and better. Keep going forward. Take care.

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      jasper420 5 years ago

      Wow! powerfull! I can relate great tips for recovery this was very helpful to me as I to define myself by professional success I suffer from Bipolar disoder I found this hub to be very inspiering!

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      Thank you so much grinning. I would be visiting your hubs soon.

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      grinnin1 5 years ago from st louis,mo

      Beautiful hub. The honesty in your writing comes through every word. Look forward to reading more- keep writing!

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      Thanks for the messages. My goal of sharing is to reach others with or without mental conditions. The process of taking a condition in your hands is hard. It takes commitment, but if I do not make this condition as mine, I will be a puppet for the rest of my life. This struggle might never end, but at least I will keep fighting against a vicious game we have in this society: stigmas and a systematic health (under) care.

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      Rose 5 years ago

      Thanks for sharing it, its great! I'm really proud of you, Brave Woman!

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      spg 5 years ago

      My dear sister, thanks for sharing. Proud of you! It is a great article.

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      Ana 5 years ago

      Hay veces que tenemos que alejarnos del "mundanal ruido" para poder entender y luchar contra nuestros "molinos de vientos". Me alegro que hayas encontrado el nicho de paz que the permitio escuchar tu verdadera voz interior. Admiro tu ferrea voluntad para tomar, tu misma, control de tu vida. Gracias por compartir tus vivencias. Como mencionas, queda mucho camino por recorrer y no es facil el trayecto. Recuerda... "Caminante no hay camino...se hace camino al andar". Tu vas haciendo tu propio camino. Ahora al compartir tu experiencia dejas huellas para ayudar a otros que vienen detras a caminar el suyo propio...Exito!

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      Karanda, thank you for your time and your comment. I already began feeling so welcomed here. I will also be reading your hubs. It is my intention to write more articles regarding this topic due to the fact that we all need to learn about our own conditions and share with others as much as possible. Many wishes to you too.

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      Karen Wilton 5 years ago from Australia

      Good for you for walking your own path, which is a hard road to travel. I can relate to the series of tragedies you describe and have an understanding of what you have experienced through trauma but I can’t begin to imagine what it must be like for you to live with a mental condition that has come from such a young age.

      I absolutely love that you are taking responsibility for your own recovery and am looking forward to reading many more of your articles that share your life and experiences. Welcome to HubPages! I hope you find writing therapeutic because this is a very good place to vent your thoughts. There are many of us only too willing to read, listen and respond. Good health and many wishes!

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      Dr. Katar: What a wonderful surprise. Thank you so much for taking your time to read what you already experienced with me. Dr. Kayar never showed pity, never carried me; instead, she shared powerful stories about her life and family, and presented me with ways she would handle a situation You see, in times like these, having a positive and strong person by your side helps you go forward. I am so grateful and honored to know her. Happy life to you too. I send my love to you and your family.

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      Srilakshmi Katar 5 years ago

      I worked with Anna in Puerto Rico when she was going through most of it. i experienced her pain when i was with her and now iam reading it. The only change now is she battled the illness and iam happy for her.we meet many people in life and only few people leave an impression on you . In my life Blanca(Anna) is one. Have a Happy life..... love you.Nice article...

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      Thanks sfosok. It is imperative to share stories if the information we share can help. Have a good day

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      sfosok 5 years ago

      thank you for share it.

      keep it up BRGR

      @LA

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      pharuk temmy t 5 years ago from Lagos

      Thank you for responding. Of course you are right Anna, its always good to have events either good or bad ones because without events there is nothing like history and without history NO STORY.

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      Yes, pharuk, everyones has a story and we need to see what we can make of it. In my situation, I have to wake up and apply myself to continue believing in me. Everyday is a challenge. It is also my responsibility to invite others to take charge of their lives.

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      pharuk temmy t 5 years ago from Lagos

      Just like everyone has a story to tell, you have really given it all about yours here. Its not always easy when the road is your driver but with self determination one can make it out,the road to success is always rough and tough but if you believe you can achieve. You will find you BELIEVE where you put it.

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      tsmog, thanks for your comment. have a wonderful day everyday.

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      AnnaCia 5 years ago

      Thank you so much KrystaID. We all need to create an awareness of these kind of conditions. When we educate ourselves, we can work against stigmas. This is something we are forced to go thru while trying to cope with an illness. Hope your days are full of peace

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      Tim Mitchell 5 years ago from Escondido, CA

      Awesome! I applaud your decision and action toward accomplishing your goals. My perception is you discovered that balance is a key to wellness. Thanks for sharing the steps you have taken and look forward to more writing adventures of all kinds.

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      KrystalD 5 years ago from Los Angeles

      oh, and WELCOME to hubpages! You are off to an amazing start!

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      KrystalD 5 years ago from Los Angeles

      Excellent hub! Thank you for sharing your life experience. I sometimes struggle with "that thing in my head" as does my mother. She struggled going in and out of mental hospitals most of my childhood. Today she also has found help and balance. Your story was inspirational and tears at the stigmas surrounding mental illness. Thank you ao much for this. Voting up and awesome!

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