Celebrating Two Years Of My Sobriety
TWO YEARS AND GOING STRONG
October 27, 2011, I will be celebrating two years of my sobriety. The time has gone by so fast I can not even believe it has been two years I have been clean and sober. I have to say though, many of those days I did have my ups and downs through this recovery process.
I had many moments that I was filled with anxiety and on edge big time do to many things that have gone on in my life over the period of those two years. I made it through by the grace of God and by continuing to tell myself that I can do this and I will not relapse after I have gone this far being clean and sober.
I had, as I said, some things that would of made me drink back two years ago, but the promise I made to myself two years ago is that I would never, no matter what happens in my life , pick up another alcoholic drink, and I will continue to keep that promise to myself to the end of time.
Once I decided to surrender to my addiction to alcohol everything seemed so peaceful in a sense that I was now controlling my own life and not my demons anymore. I felt free, as if all the weight was lifted off my shoulders as I carried my addiction with me for many years. As I said before, there were many times I would of loved to have a beer and possibly more than one when things went belly up on me on some occasions, but I stood strong and never gave into my alcohol demons.
I must say, I am really proud of myself for what I have accomplished since I quit drinking alcohol two years ago. I have made my wife and I dreams come true, for if I were still drinking, our dreams instead of being a reality now would of still been just a dream and a hope for something better in our life. I not only changed my life, but I have changed my wife's of 30 years and my two beautiful children's lives that worried sick about my drinking habits for all the years they were growing up.
I feel horrible of what I have put my wife and children through and in fact even my Mom and Dad which are now both deceased, that also worried sick about my drinking and my addiction. All that is in the past now and I must and will make good of my life and give my wife and children the life they so deserve.
Even with all the ups and downs through those two years I can honestly say that the majority of the time things went well for me and my family.
As many people that know me and my wife, our life long dream was to live by the Ocean were my wife and I grew up in the summers and where we met some thirty five years ago. I truly believe that our dream would of never been a reality do to my drinking alcohol. I had many great ideas, but they never panned out and I think that they never panned out because I didn't want to change my life. I wanted the best of both worlds, meaning still being able to drink and have our dream come true with no effort on my part to change my life for the better.
Life, most of the time doesn't work that way. You have to want to help yourself before God can help you. I wasn't willing to change at that time so I continued to just dream and wonder why my life was a mess and nothing was working out the way I had wanted it to.
Now being sober, everything I dreamed about is now our reality. We sit on the beach and gaze at the waves crashing onto the surf telling our selves, "we have finally made our dream come true." I have finally realized that life is wonderful being sober and no one needs to drink and abuse alcohol to have the life and the fun they think they deserve. I was self destructing myself and never even realized it. Thank God I took action and stopped the demons from totally destroying me and my family before it was too late.
If you are willing to change your life for the better than God will indeed reward you with a new and wonderful life, but as I said, you must want to help yourself first.
I look forward to October 27th of each year and being able to tell myself and everyone that knows me, that I have made it clean and sober one more year and darn proud of it.
I love myself more now being sober. I love my wife, my children and I love all of the people that have supported and stood by my side through my recovery process. Family and friends like all of you reading this, are what life is all about, and not having that so called fake or false drinking friends that really are only friends because of what you have in common with them, which is drinking and abusing alcohol.
God Bless all those that are suffering from any kind of addiction and always remember that there is always hope for sobriety, you just need to want it bad enough to achieve it. Never give up on yourself and continue to believe in yourself and our Lord our God and you will experience a new found life as I did and be giving the power and the strength to get and stay sober.