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Celebrating Two Years Of My Sobriety

Updated on September 10, 2011

TWO YEARS AND GOING STRONG

October 27, 2011, I will be celebrating two years of my sobriety. The time has gone by so fast I can not even believe it has been two years I have been clean and sober. I have to say though, many of those days I did have my ups and downs through this recovery process.

I had many moments that I was filled with anxiety and on edge big time do to many things that have gone on in my life over the period of those two years. I made it through by the grace of God and by continuing to tell myself that I can do this and I will not relapse after I have gone this far being clean and sober.

I had, as I said, some things that would of made me drink back two years ago, but the promise I made to myself two years ago is that I would never, no matter what happens in my life , pick up another alcoholic drink, and I will continue to keep that promise to myself to the end of time.

Once I decided to surrender to my addiction to alcohol everything seemed so peaceful in a sense that I was now controlling my own life and not my demons anymore. I felt free, as if all the weight was lifted off my shoulders as I carried my addiction with me for many years. As I said before, there were many times I would of loved to have a beer and possibly more than one when things went belly up on me on some occasions, but I stood strong and never gave into my alcohol demons.

I must say, I am really proud of myself for what I have accomplished since I quit drinking alcohol two years ago. I have made my wife and I dreams come true, for if I were still drinking, our dreams instead of being a reality now would of still been just a dream and a hope for something better in our life. I not only changed my life, but I have changed my wife's of 30 years and my two beautiful children's lives that worried sick about my drinking habits for all the years they were growing up.

I feel horrible of what I have put my wife and children through and in fact even my Mom and Dad which are now both deceased, that also worried sick about my drinking and my addiction. All that is in the past now and I must and will make good of my life and give my wife and children the life they so deserve.

Even with all the ups and downs through those two years I can honestly say that the majority of the time things went well for me and my family.

As many people that know me and my wife, our life long dream was to live by the Ocean were my wife and I grew up in the summers and where we met some thirty five years ago. I truly believe that our dream would of never been a reality do to my drinking alcohol. I had many great ideas, but they never panned out and I think that they never panned out because I didn't want to change my life. I wanted the best of both worlds, meaning still being able to drink and have our dream come true with no effort on my part to change my life for the better.

Life, most of the time doesn't work that way. You have to want to help yourself before God can help you. I wasn't willing to change at that time so I continued to just dream and wonder why my life was a mess and nothing was working out the way I had wanted it to.

Now being sober, everything I dreamed about is now our reality. We sit on the beach and gaze at the waves crashing onto the surf telling our selves, "we have finally made our dream come true." I have finally realized that life is wonderful being sober and no one needs to drink and abuse alcohol to have the life and the fun they think they deserve. I was self destructing myself and never even realized it. Thank God I took action and stopped the demons from totally destroying me and my family before it was too late.

If you are willing to change your life for the better than God will indeed reward you with a new and wonderful life, but as I said, you must want to help yourself first.

I look forward to October 27th of each year and being able to tell myself and everyone that knows me, that I have made it clean and sober one more year and darn proud of it.

I love myself more now being sober. I love my wife, my children and I love all of the people that have supported and stood by my side through my recovery process. Family and friends like all of you reading this, are what life is all about, and not having that so called fake or false drinking friends that really are only friends because of what you have in common with them, which is drinking and abusing alcohol.

God Bless all those that are suffering from any kind of addiction and always remember that there is always hope for sobriety, you just need to want it bad enough to achieve it. Never give up on yourself and continue to believe in yourself and our Lord our God and you will experience a new found life as I did and be giving the power and the strength to get and stay sober.


MY NEW AND SOBER LIFE

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    • the clean life profile imageAUTHOR

      Mark Bruno 

      5 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      Stickmonkey - Congrats to you on your long term sobriety and thank you for reading and your comment. Keep up the great work my sober friend. October 27, 2012 turned 3 years sober. I can not believe how fast the years are going by. Stay well and God Bless you!

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      Stickmonkey 

      5 years ago

      Awesome!!

      I got clean in 94,after many failed attempts.

      I first started making meetings of a different fellowship,,and still

      do many meetings,even some online ones.

      Glad you are here.

    • the clean life profile imageAUTHOR

      Mark Bruno 

      7 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      Sophie, Sorry it has taken so long to reply to your comment. You bring a huge smile to my face when I read your comments. I really means so much to me and it is so wonderful to have a dear friend like you. It is a shame we are so far away from each other, God Bless you Sophie and your family as well.

      Markie

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      Sophie 

      7 years ago from From the land of wonders

      Markie, I am so proud of you.. all of us make wrong moves in life, but to make a 180 degree change calls for a lot of courage and will power and I am glad my friend that you have both. I am so glad that your dreams are coming true and I wish you and you dear wife the very best!! Faith and works go together... oh yes help yourself... A great message!!

    • the clean life profile imageAUTHOR

      Mark Bruno 

      7 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      lambservant, Thanks so much for your comment snd a huge congrats to you for your 2 years of sobriety. Great job on the speaking to others. Yes one day at a time, that is the secret !

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      Lori Colbo 

      7 years ago from Pacific Northwest

      Congrats man. I just had my two year anniversary too. To celebrate, I volunteered to be the guest speaker at a local speaker meeting. It kept me sober one more day and gave me the opportunity to see how far I've come. Keep doing what your doing one day at a time.

    • the clean life profile imageAUTHOR

      Mark Bruno 

      7 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      Saleheen, Thannk you so so much for such nice words to me. I am now finally very happy with my life . I live where I always dreamed of living by the ocean

    • the clean life profile imageAUTHOR

      Mark Bruno 

      7 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      Susan, thank you :)

    • the clean life profile imageAUTHOR

      Mark Bruno 

      7 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      David, thank you so much for commenting and for your kind words and yes you are right we are both miracles. we have done something that many wish they could do and in fact they can do it if they really wanted it bad enough.

      Take care my friend!

      Mark

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      Melissa Spicer 

      7 years ago from Kentucky

      Congrats!

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      David H. 

      7 years ago

      Congratulations on your accomplishment! This road of recovery is a beautiful experience, you and I are miracles! Each day is a gift and so precious. Today we use our powers for good instead on evil and it's much better. I lift you and your family up in prayer and I ask God to continue to restore and strengthen your family. May He continue to use you to encourage and motivate others, in Jesus name I pray! ;)

    • the clean life profile imageAUTHOR

      Mark Bruno 

      7 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      Cloverleaf, you are a doll and a great friend. Thank you so much for your kind words to me. It really means so much to me. Thank you also for the Vote Up!

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      Cloverleaf 

      7 years ago from Calgary, AB, Canada

      Mark, this is really quite something! I am so proud of you. When you look back at your journey over the past 2 years you have come such a long way.

      All the best to yourself and your family, and thank you for sharing your story.

      Voted up - AWESOME!

      Cloverleaf.

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