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Long Lost Lovers Reunited After 30 Years

Updated on June 3, 2015

Me Without You

Have you ever felt that connection, that you knew someone already? A connection hard to explain unless you have felt it too?

Let me tell you first hand that you never know what will be around the next corner in life.

Denny, my husband, and I were high school sweethearts. We found each other after 30 years. We are working on a book about our amazing and romantic tale of lovers found.

Miracles do happen...

I wrote this poem way before we got back together. A lot of the poems I post of sadness are from the time I was not with Denny and missed him. We have been married for 8 years! I still write and post my sad poems. I have written before how people used to comment about the fact that all of my paintings felt sad to them... and asked my why... I would say, "What is interesting about happy?" I still think that is true to a point. Who doesn't love a beautiful tragedy? It's romantic and perplexing. I am not sad anymore like this poem written so long ago. But there are moments, and everyone has them. There are also flowers and blue skies with big white puffy clouds to remind us that everything has it's place and is actually in perfect time.

"Me Without You"

In all my dreams

I never imagined me without you.

I wandered through my life

and I would always see you.

I counted on your timing

your smile

you caught my soul

and found me off guard.

Must you still lean on my soul? .

Pull my insides

'til I lose all control?

and then...

take what becomes a prize to me

and leave me so alone?

Such an expense I paid

finding me without you.

I am off balance

I can hardly breath.

I never included the outcome

of your leaving...

leaving me without you.

I am a broken container.

I bare no excuse.

I cannot stand on my feet

nor hide my despair.

I am the tear in my own eye.

nowhere to start again

no step to begin.

The smell of emptiness

is a smell I cannot bare

a room so vacant.

I loath myself

that I should fall apart so.

As if you were the only person

to verify my breathing

the only cure

to my lapses of continuity

Every part of me

has taken a separate direction.

I awake in the night

alone and empty.

There is nothing more alone

than to wake in the middle of the night

no one to reach out for

no comfort to find.

I am afraid that I will wake

and there will be

nothing left of me.

A collection of clutter

or a speck in your eye

marooned

an after thought.

Reflections that find me

so un-groomed.

Little squares of reason

tiles on the floor.

Ushered in are spokesmen

to declare

part of what I already know.

On every corner

there is sadness

we all know.

In every person

on every occasion

a dimmer glow.

Should it trivialize my ache?

In all my dreams

I never imagined

me...

without you.

note: I won a "Juror's Choice Award" in the East Hawaii Cultural Center's All Juried Show 2005 for my portrait of "Denny" a 36x48 oil on canvas. The portrait of "Denny" is posted on my blog, October 04, 2005 archives and on my website.

About the Author:

Kathy Ostman-Magnusena

Hawaii, United States

Aloha! I am a figurative artist and Illustrator. If you check out my website you will see that I am very prolific in oils. My paintings are collected worldwide. I also do sculpture; images available upon request. I have illustrated for Hay House Inc., Neil Davidson, who was considered for the Pulitzer Prize in feature writing, and several other publications. I also enjoy story writing and poetry. All of the paintings, stories and poems on my blogs and website are written by me.

Check out my website http://www.kathysart.com or one of my blogs at: http://kathysart.blogspot.com/

You never know what the next day, year or even breath might bring. Hold out for true love.

IMAGE IS OF MY PAINTING LAVENDER CLOAK"

TURN ON THE MUSIC FOR AMBIANCE! "Wait For Me"

Love Stories at the Movies

DID YOU TURN THE MUSIC UTUBE above ..ON?

You will feel my heart and the heart of my Denny more if you do.. I'm just sayin'

I Think That I Would Miss You, Even If I Had Never Met You

I think I'd miss you

even if I'd never met you.

I think there would be a space missing from me.

When I am not with you now

I cannot think of much else

than what is lacking

a few missed breaths

a few sentiments to share with someone

who understands

someone in the same space.

When I am not with you

airplanes still fly overhead

What on earth can they be thinking?

Some would think me damaged

or at least insecure

oh so needy

without love notes in my pocket.

Yet, my stance

my journey

the very essence of my said creativity

is not quite centered

when you are not within reach.

What can I say?

What excuses do I have?

Except...

it is what it is

that's all.

I am within that fairy tale

the one that little girls grew up dreaming about?

The ones with the white horse

the kiss that awakens...

a sleeping

damsel.

Goddess alert

keep your voice intact

poetry is never all that far

words that wind round dreams

unmet.

You my love

are like the breeze

of the words I want to say

I am understood

encouraged

lifted up

by you.

And I?

I love you.

I think that I would miss you

even if we had never met.

I think I would feel incomplete

never being able to figure out what was missing.

Lonely

for a song

that would never find its way to sound.

Like a rose in a vase without baby's breath

and ferns

a flower in a vase

without water

left to dry out.

Or maybe I'd just stay inside the garden

wondering

and no one would come to pick me

at all.

Yes~

I know...

that I would miss you

"even if we had never met."

by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen

copyright 2012

IMAGE IS OF MY PAINTING "FORGET ME NOT"

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Hold out for MAGIC!

Things will never be perfect but they will always hold magic if that is what your focus on. You have to look for it, wait for it, and them embrace every inch of it.

Yes~ I know that I would miss you even if we had never met ~Kathy Ostman-Magnusen

"Lost at Sea" 60x74 oil on canvas by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen

"Lost at Sea" 60x74 oil on canvas by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen
"Lost at Sea" 60x74 oil on canvas by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen

The Night Before

The night before I left where I lived at the time.. to be with Denny, I stopped at the town Post Office. There was a young girl there who was crying. She was being comforted by a boy... I saw that and left them to themselves. All through these years and inside the very moment that I saw her, I wanted to say... HOLD OUT FOR LOVE... and I wanted to tell her that TIME CHANGES and we have no idea how much. I wanted to tell her about Denny and me and that I had found him and that life around the nest corner might just surprise you. It did me. Sigh... I think of her.... sigh.

pic is one of my paintings.

An orchid from our garden

An orchid from our garden
An orchid from our garden

Orchids Fill Our House

Orchids Fill Our House
Orchids Fill Our House

TELL ME YOU WERE HERE~!!

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    • gadifi lm profile image

      gadifi lm 4 years ago

      great lens and great information

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      Mary Norton 4 years ago from Ontario, Canada

      You really are one talented person. That painting Lost at Sea just mesmerized me as to how you have captured the woman's expression. Your poetry is full of emotion.

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      David Stone 4 years ago from New York City

      Lens is a treat, Kathy, and especially with a good bit of elegant poetry. Nice.

      Thanks.

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      anne mohanraj 4 years ago

      Great lens! You write such beautiful poetry!

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      jayavi 4 years ago

      Nice lens !

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      Helene-Malmsio 4 years ago

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      Happy Valentine Day!

      All the very best to you and your loved ones, from me and mine!

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      ChristyZ 4 years ago

      You are so talented! Your work is beautiful!

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      ukprowriter 4 years ago

      In a word 'emotional'. Beautifully written. So much talent. Thanks for sharing

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      srsddn lm 4 years ago

      Quite charming a lens, intense in content.

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      Takkhis 4 years ago

      Marvelous lens!

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      Lorelei Cohen 4 years ago from Canada

      I love the poem I think that I would miss you even had I never met you. Sometimes I feel that way. I think that we are very close to the spirit world and destined to meet the one we are most connected to. We just have to be wise enough to recognize them when we do meet. This lens is beautiful.

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      Lorelei Cohen 4 years ago from Canada

      I love the poem I think that I would miss you even had I never met you. Sometimes I feel that way. I think that we are very close to the spirit world and destined to meet the one we are most connected to. We just have to be wise enough to recognize them when we do meet. This lens is beautiful.

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      LadyKeesh 5 years ago

      It feels my husband were destined to meet. Its things like his mother and I have the same last name. Our circle of friends are the same. His stepfather knows half my family. He has hung with my sister and one of my good friends before. So there were really no secrets between us when we got together. lucky we had both been on our best behavior because all our dark secrets would've been exposed. Had we had any. We have a nick name amongst our friends, Shankesha. His name is Shannon my name is Kesha. People say we look alike because have the same skin tone, almost the same height, we both were dreadlocks. We have many of the same interest. We compliment each other. He likes Sweets I prefer hot and spicy. Its great when destiny and fate presents themselves then you know that they are real.

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      WriterJanis2 5 years ago

      This is one of the most beautiful lenses I have ever seen. Very touching. Blessed.

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      aylsbillones1 5 years ago

      wow...i do agree with the comments, you are really a very talented writer.. I love reading this lens.. every word touches my heart..thank you for sharing...

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      Melissa Miotke 5 years ago from Arizona

      You are a very talented writer and artist!

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      SimonJay 5 years ago

      Still hope me and my ex get back together someday

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      lesliesinclair 5 years ago

      Kathy, I came again. I am so touched by the painting in the "Night Before" section. I agree, sadness calls out to all of us; it is so much more than pretty.

      You are such a strong and versatile advocate. I pray that Denny will be able to get all the treatments and devices that he needs.

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      Your personal touch I felt while reading this, thank you for sharing. *blessed by a squid angel*

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      Beautiful lens! I loved your poetry and art almost as much as hearing that you found your true love. I can say with certainty that your words: "Yes, I know I would have missed you even if we had never met" are true, because I did miss the person I never met until I finally found him when I was 52. The chances of our ever meeting were so remote as to have been nearly impossible. That's how we know it was meant to happen. Was it worth the wait? Absolutely! Thanks for a lens that believes in love.

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      Risteard O'Marcahain 5 years ago from Wales

      I love this lens

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      myamya 5 years ago

      Amazing lens! great poetry thank you for sharing!

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      gypsyman27 lm 5 years ago

      I know this love story, I wish it were mine. I haven't found the one that will be with me for the rest of time, except the dead. Your writing and illustrations are so beautiful. I wish I were an angel so I could bless this page. See you around the galaxy...

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      sousababy 5 years ago

      It's really hard to wait for love, but you proved it was worth it. Such an inspiration, thank you.

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      sousababy 5 years ago

      Beautiful poetry and amazing portraits - love 'em. Thank you for sharing your gifts with us. Fondly,

      Rose

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      sponias lm 5 years ago

      Your love story is very interesting. This lens deserves to be blessed!

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      flicker lm 5 years ago

      Wonderful poems and artwork. Thanks! Glad you and Danny found each other again.

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      JoyfulReviewer 5 years ago

      Thanks for sharing your love story ... and your beautiful poetry and paintings. So glad you found your Denny again.

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      Stephanie Tietjen 5 years ago from Albuquerque, New Mexico

      Enjoyed your story. I really, really love your art, checked out your website, am drawn to 'Stealing Saturn". But 'Lavender Cloak' is my favorite. I listen to Enigma and Dead Can Dance when I paint, too; but it's been way too long...

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      Cynthia Sylvestermouse 5 years ago from United States

      Beautiful poetry and yes, the first poem is quite sad and lonely. I am so glad you found your Denny again :)

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      SayGuddaycom 5 years ago

      A beautiful story and a wonderful lens, congratulations.

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      norma-holt 5 years ago

      Wonderful story and lovely lens. Blessed and featured on Blessed by Skiesgreen 2012 and also on For my Valentine. Hugs

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      Miha Gasper 5 years ago from Ljubljana, Slovenia, EU

      So touching... Another beautiful lens!

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      Virginia Allain 5 years ago from Central Florida

      Sigh, I'm a real romantic, so I love hearing stories of lovers reunited after being apart.

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      It is amazing that how Nature works to unite and find long lost sweet hearts. I usually love a story that has happy ending or at least a morale; beautifully done with poems from heart.

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      C A Chancellor 5 years ago from US/TN

      I love your artwork! You're very talented.

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      goo2eyes lm 5 years ago

      winging back to share some squidangel *blessings*

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      Renaissance Woman 5 years ago from Colorado

      Deeply resonant. Powerfully moving. Your soul has great depth.

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      queenofduvetcover 5 years ago

      Love your poetry! I enjoyed reading this beautiful lens about your love story. =)

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      anonymous 5 years ago

      "I am the tear in my own eye"....oh my Kathy...oh my...miracles do happen and what is meant to be ins meant to be. My heart is blessed for the love that you and Denny share...

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      darciefrench lm 5 years ago

      Beautiful love story, really touched the heart :)

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      Ruthi 5 years ago

      What a fabulous love story as well as life journey for you and Denny. Your paintings are amazing and I especially love Lost At Sea, for I can feel the loss in your artwork.

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      julieannbrady 5 years ago

      My dear, this is such a heartwarming and encouraging story! Not that long ago, I reached out to my "sort of" high school sweetheart from a lot of years ago. I found him in Ohio as a drama professor at a college. It was interesting to think of that Robert Frost poem about which road we both took.

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      goo2eyes lm 5 years ago

      happy valentine's day. this is a moving story.

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      Toni Grundstrom 5 years ago from Minneapolis, MN

      Great lens. Congratulations on being featured on the Valentine's Day Love Stories.