Thinking of My Mother - Happy Mother's Day
My mother passed away when I was 17, which I was still in the high school. It all seem that the most unfortunate moment of my life just happened yesterday. It was so close yet so far. No words can describe the 'grey' feelings inside, it just came when it happened. I still remember when I heard the news of her dead, I was in a total disbelief; not that kind of thing that you were trying to lie to yourself, instead, it was more like the whole thinking process of the brain has totally rejected the idea. It was definitely wrong to accept the idea.
To be truth, although it happened almost two decades ago, somehow I still can't accept the fact that she was no longer around and I still always wonder how could she was taken from me so early. No one can give me an absolute answer except those explanations that normally served by the religions. And like it or not, it is something that I have to accept. Death is certain and Life is always filled with uncertainties.
Below is something that I wrote during the Mother's Day back in 1996, almost two months after her departure into the infinite realm.
She was the only one
Who really care for me
When I was sick
She would stay beside me
Stayed up till the next morning
Until I could get up from the bed
When I was unhappy
She would come with comforting words
When I needed something
She would try to get it and abandoned
The things that she had always wished for
But now my beloved mother
Had gone forever
Oh! I wish to see her again
But it only happens in my dream
And I really miss her so much!
Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers of the world. The world needs YOU!!!!