A Journey into Alzheimer's Disease
Intro and Chapter One
This a fictional story based on true facts, names were changed to protect the innocent..copyrights apply...
A Journey into Alzheimer's Disease It seems we were all born in the image of a Man, they call Jesus Christ ( well in the religion I was brought up in) and He was the human example of Life on earth and He suffered for us and forgave us our sins...
I wonder why, everyday, we have become so less human in our thoughts, or maybe we become more human because of the state the world is in now. I am in no way capable of knowing the answer to this but want to write about a woman born in 1919 and she is now 90 and has Alzheimer's disease .
It is a sad state of mind to exist in, then again she seems happy, has no worries, is well cared for (thanks though to the insurance policies her and her husband set up) and live in the moments...the moments that come and go so very quickly, you see the brain is now like Swiss cheese with those random holes you see in a slice of it. Her thoughts begin with a definite direction but when it reaches one of those open spaces it falls off, and becomes lost. Like when one reaches a detour, in an unfamiliar place and doesn't know which way to turn? The more turns you make , the more lost you become.
There is much new research and many new studies being done today to try and improve the chances of NOT getting this disease and that is all good, but does not for now really give her much chance, for this is a death disease, a suffering of some kind we all seem to be destined to endure. It is not necessarily our choice, but we do have control over such things as food, exercise, honesty, love, truthfulness and the list goes on.
One may not suffer in this manner, it may be a physical disabling, or some other terrible disease, but in the end there seems to be no way to escape suffering, pain and loneliness.
I have her story to tell in the hopes it will help other's and help me, as I grieve her coming death everyday.
I want to start at what I consider the beginning as I know it. Seen through the eyes of her daughter, her first born girl, one of four girls. Three still living and one that has passed away some 14 years ago from breast cancer.
Truth and honesty are the main things in life that keep one
a real person and make one whole. After that all things fall
into their proper place, both inside and in all one can do
during the brief time here on earth.
Whenever life seems hard and things are more then tough,
it is all to make a better person. How you choose
to deal with and except what is presented for your
handling, is what gives you integrity and strength and the
fortitude to challenge yourself and believe in others. Trust
with your knowledge of right and wrong, truth and honesty and
believe they are the basis of where we need to go, where we
need to show how strong we are and if we can fulfill our own
Life began for this girl with more then a few hard knocks, of
course having no control of the circumstances of where she was born
or the way times were then.
Her parents being young and descendants
from Germany only knew farming as a way of life. Hard work from
sunrise to sunset, and winters that were so cold, freezing was of
great concern. Surprisingly she was born into a family of four girls, no
boys to help with the hard work and their father expected them to help
with the harvesting and caring for the animals, the feeding, the milking,
and their mom needed help with all her chores.
Well you see this was actually the girls step-mom and not very well
liked by the four sisters either. In fact they mostly hated her, for trying
to be their mom. She was nothing like the mother they had that
died after giving birth to the youngest of the girls. The three older
sisters always blamed the youngest for their mom's death,since she came
home and not their mama.
Life took a very different turn that year, with the maid their father hired to help with all the housework, cooking and cleaning and laundry and caring
for his young girls. He just had no other choice he needed to feed his
young'ens, grieving or not he was responsible , caring, an honest,
truthful man. He did the best he was able to do, but never had too much
extra time with his girls. He felt sad and had a tough time keeping things
going, and not much money coming in.
Seemed to him the maid was doing a fine job, and she was pretty enough,
and was good company, as an adult for him. After a few years, and the
girls were a bit older, he began to work them in the fields he decided
it was time to marry the maid, and give his daughters a mother and he
was more then ready for a new wife by this time.
As it turned out that was just what she was waiting for, then she could freely make these lazy girls get to work. However their father was just one step ahead of his new wife and took them into his fields and taught them just how to be a good farmer, although they
actually were happier being with their father, they had to take turns with
both him and then their new step-mother as she was very demanding
and could talk her new husband into almost anything.
It now was into the late 20's, and Woodrow Wilson was president
and women had gained the right to vote and prohibition was in full
swing, the Ford car had been invented and the Flapper era was now
a normal thing. Seems everyone was partying and smoking and drinking
(though alcohol was illegal) even cocaine was used on a regular basis (it was
legal) and their step mother was not about to be left out. She had a way
of getting what she wanted and she wanted to Party.
Consequently the girls were left alone many times to fend for themselves.
Their dad was not about to have any gossip spread around and told
the girls they better keep their little mouths shut, fearing both him and
her they obeyed.
In the winter time they had a long walk to get to school, with shoes that
the soles had holes in them, their gloves were worn pretty thin, and
they had mostly hand me down clothes. And to help keep them warm
their step-mother would bake potatoes for them to hold in their hands
and then eat it for lunch. At the time it wasn't unusual, as many of the
school children were from the poorer side of town.
Many secrets were kept during this time and one was that there father
had become a bootlegger and brewed his own and sold it. It was hidden
way away from his farm and whenever someone would approach the area
his wife and he had some sort of a warning rigged up. It worked for many
years even after he became the cities mayor, he was still doing illegal brewing.
What their dad did was so opposite of what he always preached.
So the girls grew up mainly believing it was okay to have a false image
of yourself for others. Trouble with that is it becomes a part of you with
out you really realizing it and later on in life it hurts unknowingly in
She and her sisters were all good students in school all through the years.
It is suspected that was to get the approval and attention they so craved
from the home life they now were subjected to. Pretty young girls, the eldest
being the leader of the four and also making her siblings believe she knew
more then any of them, which in turn angered the sisters, but being younger
they were not about to cross her path anymore then their step-mothers.
As the time drew near for her ( being the second born) to graduate from high school
she began to date a nice young man, who by the way was also a son of parents
from Germany, and had four brothers of his own. He and another boy were buddies
and actually the three of them started running around together, it was as if she
now had two brothers of her own.
Life was really feeling good as she graduated with top honors along with
winning first place in a penmanship contest sponsored by the state. Summer was
upon them and both her male friends went to work on the farm to help out her
father, he did pay well for the times, and she liked it because they were around most
every day. Although her oldest sister had left home and had moved to Calif. she did
miss her every now and then, she really was the one that could talk to their father
and get him to let them go out somewhat sooner then other girls. It was apparent
that the young man named ????? had taken a defiant liking to her and they began
to court,( well sneakingly), not long after he began work.
He came from a much poorer family and was ecstatic to be bringing home some cash
to help out , as well as have some for himself. He was used to eating very
unhealthy actually, like doughnuts most mornings for breakfast, the sugar rush would
get him going, but then he would be hungry most of the rest of the day, till supper. He
never did have a lunch in school.
(As children were hidden from the troubles of the world and the decline in employment, as most
Americans were categorized as poor, by their very government and many lived in shacks,
and were begging for food or going to the Soup Kitchens to survive. It was a tough time.
Banks failed by the thousands, many lost their savings and jobs, unemployment was it's highest.)
So their courtship began to become a bit more exciting and also stimulating to them both.
They were typical , hormones in full gear, and having the time of their lives. They attended fairs
and the barn dances, oh how she loved to dance and he was also a good dancer. So the
summer just seemed to fly by, with work and play and the heat and the ever so demands of
She received many letter's from her sister in California wanting her to come join her and telling
her how wonderful it was, and so up to date with many things to do and places to go. It was
truly the land of opportunity. The weather was a steady comfortable temperature, and no
freezing winter's like in their home town of Devils Lake, oh there was snow in the high country
North of San Francisco, but not in the "Bay Area" as it was called. The waters were so nice
and the air every bit as clean and clear. Seafood to lavish your palate on and neighbors much
closer and even friendly. It was a bustling place with so many more chances of making a
living and having just as much fun, probably more, when she thought about it.
Her sister, also confessing she had met a man and they were now speaking about marriage , she really
wanted her to come to the wedding at least, and then she could see for herself how great California
Telling her boyfriend ???? about the last letter they became very excited, planning to go together.
They would both tighten their belts and save every nickle they could, it was nothing new, but the
trip away from here would be!!!! One night lying on the blanket, under the starry sky and holding
each other close, as they often did, things became a bit more passionate as they dreamt about
what they would see and how to make the trip, and maybe they could find a job there and never
have to return.
He kissed her slowly and softly placed his hands where he had dared not to go ever
before. Somehow she did not resist him as he had imagined she would. Deep sighs and
wiggles that totally warmed him from within, he just couldn't hold back anymore. He began to
slip his hand inside her dress top to feel her firm, voluptuous breasts, and they were everything
he had dreamed they might be. She rubbed her fingertips through his dark brown hair and
licked his lips, softly whispering in his ear, "don't stop, I thought you would never touch me"
"it feels so good". In the same breath, saying "it is so wrong and they really shouldn't", but they did.