A Lovely Delusion (Short Story) - Chapter 5
A Lovely Delusion - Chapter 5:
Next day Joe picked me up in the morning. Lydia was with him too. Everybody seemed to be so concerned about me. I grinned a bit, wondering that everything is futile right now, because they are the one hallucinating the problem, not me. Anyway, I sat in Joe's car and we drove towards the doctor's clinic.
"Mr. Martin's Clinic", I read the bill-board in a voice, audibly sarcastic, as we reached towards the main gate of the clinic. As we approached to the receptionist, I came to know that my meeting had already been planned by Joe, and an appointment already been taken. I was not feeling good about all this, neither I was paying any attention any more; I was thinking about Hannah, that I may not be able to meet her down at the beach. Will she be worrying? Will she be missing me? Will she ...
"Come on in" I heard Dr. Martin's manly but a bit hollow voice. I used to hear these sort of voices in the cartoons - mainly assigned to the villain character.
It was pretty much obvious that Dr. Martin was already aware of my case and of my history. Though, they started again. He examined me for a while; asked me a few questions, then told me to wait in the waiting lounge so he may speak to Joe and Lydia for a while. I nodded and my feet started to crawl towards the gate. Although, as I was not feeling good about all this, I decided to listen the conversation between the doc and my family. I eavesdropped by the corner of the door. Dr. Martin started first:
"I am very sorry to admit Joe, but I think you were right about his condition."
I kept listening quietly as he continued to turn my word upside down:
"Out of his frustration, loneliness and the troublesome passages of his life, his mind hallucinated a character off it, so he may not have to tolerate this all alone."
Joe: "But doctor, Samuel is not mad or anything. He is pretty much a normal guy, only that he is a bit of a loner. That's all."
Dr: "I didn't say he is mad, son. Did I? This is a pretty common disease called schizophrenia, in which people hear voices that do not exist or see and visualize people which are not real. Your cousin is one of them. It is a mental disorder, not that he is mentally retarded or something. It may have started a long time ago, but now he might have hit the brink of his frustration and then Hannah came out of nowhere."
The doctor asked Lydia:
Dr: "What did he tell you that when and where did he meet her?"
Lydia: "He told me that he met her at the beach where Sam used to spend some time alone, every now and then. It was his birthday when he first saw her."
Dr: "See. This is what I am trying to say. He might have been very frustrated and dishearten by his loneliness and lack of companion at his birthday, and that is where he may have gone over the top of his frustration."
He further continued:
Dr: "Given his history, as you told, he faced a lot of difficult times, alone and without any support. He didn't get married; he felt a need of a companion, but he didn't complain and did not say it to anyone. That is when Hannah, his imaginary character, came to life."
I could felt the grievance in Joe's voice as he asked:
Joe: "Then what are we supposed to do doctor?"
Doctor: "We will treat him, but he wil have to cooperate for that. Until, you people need to spend some time with him. Take him out of this Hannah's character, gradually and slowly. Don't let him feel it, just be more congenial and make him feel alive."
I rushed back as soon as I heard the footsteps walking towards the door. They didn't say anything while we were driving back home. But my mind was constantly thinking only one thing. They were trying to separate me from Hannah, and I promised to myself at that time, that I am not going to leave her.