A New Day, A New Start: The Diary Resurrection! - 18.08.14 - Planning & Thinking.
Bringing it back
The diary - I thought I would bring it back for a few reasons. As I have mentioned, it might well be good to read it from a padded cell on day and see where I might have gone wrong. There are other reasons as well. I thought - like in the past - that it might be funny for people to read and maybe helpful to read, as I know I can be a little whingey and ranty at times.
You will most likely be able to read about the days events and my hopes, thoughts and plans for the future and following day or days, week or weeks, maybe months, and quite possible, year.
Years I have to say, is out of the equation I think and I will never, ever been writing about a year in the future or years!
Where do I see myself in a year or mores time?
This is a question I heard today. Well. I hope to be more in control of my life. That much is for sure. So I guess it does not matter where I am as long as I feel more in control and like I have more choice and room to maneuver rather than having no option but to take the same path again and knowing full well where it leads.
I have just today signed up for some kind of therapy which is meant to include talking and "creative" things so I do not know what it will entail but, I can take a try and see. Hopefully, it is not finger painting. If I am honest I just want to seek help for my depression that seems to come and go but when it comes, it is like - I was going to say wrecking ball, but I will not - a juggernaut.
Seeking help from the RIGHT people
It is very easy for people on the outside - or more times than not, on the inside - to offer a quick sentence as a silver bullet to solving your life problems. I find that the people that offer this sort of advice are very shallow, superficial, and should be avoided at all costs.
Most of the time the advice offer is sometimes true but the problem is that they do not understand the deployment of such things can take time. You do not just choose to go skydiving and jump out of a plane only to realise you forgot your parachute. Luckily, the plan had not taken off yet.