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A Poem About Lonliness

Updated on October 3, 2014

The wonder of the senseless waste

As I walk between love and hate,

The reasons why I have begun to exist

A little further into the mist.

For all the time I’ve spent alone

Wandering through this barren home,

No voice but the one inside my head

That wonders if I am alive or dead?

All the things I’ve learned to live without

Have been replaced with pain and doubt,

Every line drawn in the sand

A measure of how unimportant I am.

Each and every tiny meager request,

Denied, becomes a little piece of death

So I fade a little more,

Less heard above the silent roar.

How long I wonder, will I go on?

Losing the thought before wondering too long.

If there is one thing I must confess,

I’ve never dealt well with loneliness

It’s not of being alone that I speak,

For it is solitude I often seek.

It’s more like being misunderstood

Which does my heart and soul no good,

The feeling of feeling nothing at all

That comes to long from pounding brick walls.

The sensation of being unconnected

Scrutinized and then rejected,

Left to wander here and there

At one with the knowledge that no one cares

Well, at least not deeper than skin deep,

It’s this type of thing that makes me weep

And then rail at God, and Destiny, and Fate

Shaking clenched fist, myself berate.

Gouge at my senseless foolish heart

Rip and tear myself apart,

If the defective part I could only find

No longer would I truly mind,

Like a cancer to be cut away

I would tear it out this very day,

I would cast it out from inside of me

Throw it deep into the sea!

Then never again would I believe

In the magic that the stories weave,

And I shouldn’t mind that I must roam

Throughout the world with no real home.

If only of course, is only a wish

So I must continue on like this,

Like the sunshine and the rose

I will always be known as one of those

Who secure and loved is in full bloom,

But like the summer is always doomed,

To fade away without the light,

A faint memory of this wretched life.



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    • K. Burns Darling profile imageAUTHOR

      Kristen Burns-Darling 

      6 years ago from Orange County, California

      @Larry Okeke - Thank you for the generosity of your time, for your comments, and for the follow, they are all welcomed and deeply appreciated! Sometimes even when I am in the midst of a crowd, I can still feel very alone...Thanks Again,

      Kristen

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      Larry Okeke 

      6 years ago from Enugu, Nigeria

      You've got a husband and you still found inspiration for such a poem? this looks like non-fiction! voted up and awesome, and whats more,you just won a new follower

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      Kristen Burns-Darling 

      6 years ago from Orange County, California

      @mckbirdbks, Eiddwen, Vellur, Poetic Fool, Deborah, Sherry, and ImKarn 23 - Hello my friends! I apologize for the delay in my response, I have been away for a couple of weeks while attending to Matron of Honor duties for the twenty-fifth anniversary and vow renewal of my oldest and dearest friends, which was followed by a week long vacation with the happy couple and my husband, the first that we've taken since before my father became ill, nearly seven years ago...Thank you each and every one for the gift of your time, and for the gracious comments, each of which I both appreciate and treasure.

      Kristen

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      mckbirdbks 

      6 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      You certainly reached deep inside yourself to bring us this thought provoking poetry. Here's to 'plenty of sunshine going your way.'

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      Eiddwen 

      6 years ago from Wales

      Oh yea a gem here and thanks for sharing;Here's to so many more hubs for us both to share on here.

      Take care and enjoy your day.

      Eddy.

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      Nithya Venkat 

      6 years ago from Dubai

      This is awesome. Loneliness kills. Loved this poem. Your words express so very clearly what you wanted to convey. This is very very good. Voted up. Awesome once again.

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      Poetic Fool 

      6 years ago

      Kristen, simply awesome! I think you would be surprised the number of people with these same sentiments. Sentiments which you have expressed exquisitely. Thank you for sharing it!

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 

      6 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      Oh how touching....this really hits home..wow...i am speechless...really great poem my friend..voted up debbie

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      Poohgranma 

      6 years ago from On the edge

      What a perfect definition of indifference. Very touching. You are so talented!

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      Karen Silverman 

      6 years ago

      I couldn't relate to this poem more if i had written it myself! It's not 'being alone' that sucks the life blood - it's being 'misunderstood'! Take the path of understanding yourself - and allow it to be enough - or more than enough! Your words expose your soul - and it glows with a warmth and kindness people may not see simply because they are not looking. Differences create fear. Be proud of your differences! Viva la difference!

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